There is nothing harder
Than the fight with ourselves
And i'm telling you
Thats the only fight we have.

The moment of loneliness
Crossing two different words
Angels and demons
What is real, what is fear?

Feeling like a catch
In some nylon bag
You want to scream
But there is always something
Pulling your voice back

The moment of loneliness
The chill over your body
Creating the picture of someone
You should be

At least that's what they say.

There is nothing harder
Then the fight with ourselves
Angels and Demons
That feeling of losing
The ground under your feet
The clearness of present

...And you...

Covering your head
Hoping it will disappear
That craziness of mixed,
Insane thoughts.

All you want is fall asleep
And don’t wake up till the
Light of morning sun
Raise the one
That you have been feeding.

M.T. 2016

There are those days
When I have no voice for you to hear
No smiles to share, No inspired words.
...Days of overloaded emotions....

You know It's only about me...

There are those days
When I stand in middle of city square
Surrounded with thousand and seeing zero...
Like a time stop. Time for me.

...Those are days of change...

You won't understand me, don't ask me!
It's the pain and joy, suffer and relief.
I will be broken and free.
Close and far.Don't try to feel me.

There are those days
When it's time to let go
Times when mind and soul connect
to a new level of understanding.
To a new perception of the sky.
 
...You know it's only about me...
Watch me from distance and please...
Don't try to understand me.

M.T. 2016

While Im looking somewhere far in distance
breathe the sadness and happiness
from some distant countries
Carried by the wind...touching my face

Im opening my soul to the loftiness

Im looking somewhere far in distance
While listening seagulls lover song.
Loving the warmness that sunset gives me
praising himself with beautiful colors.

I'm looking somewhere far in distance
While the sea waves cover and chill my body
Feeling the force of nature beauty
I let my weakness out to flow.

Im looking somewhere far in distance
And dreaming the wind is your hand on my face..
the sun is your warmth lips on my cheeks
and the waves your body...being my cover.

And all the sounds getting through me
creating a beautiful,light notes.
Making a song written as my name,
Reaching from somewhere far away.

M.T. 2016.

Hey you
Standing in corner of your fears
Surrounded with the one
Who pretend they know how you feel

Taking every breath
Wondering is it poisoned?
Will this one hurt as well?

Hitting your chest...Does it still beat?
Where is the way out...?
Will it ever stop?
What if it takes me, what if i can't fight anymore?

Hey you
Taking the fight for others to have peace
Tears for others to have smiles
Fear for others to have freedom.

Yes you!
Let me breath with you
Let me take your pain and sorrow
Share the burden, heal the wounds.
Let me show you… I have battles too.

But as it starts it will stop…
As it breathe it will beat
It will take what you give.

Hey you,
You know there is more than this
Let this be your way in or out.

M.T. 2016.

Hot summer nights
When the sky is full of stars
And the smell of pine resin
Cuts deep in my senses.
Light touch of warm summer breez...
On my neck... through the hair...

Hot summer nights
When my mind is locked on a single memory...
Repeated love song on a gramophone
...A melody you made with your fingers...
...on my body.

Dance with me tonigh...
On a hot summer night..
Feel my hips under you arms
Feel the heat, feel the passion
Let me be your muse...

For new notes, new tones..
With your fingers on my body..
On a hot summer night.

I had a dream last night
Vision of my life
In a state of deep connection
Yesterday,today,tomorrow as one.

I had a dream last night
A bright pure light
Guiding my way
....
Spreading the warmness of love.

I had a dream last night
Vision of my life
Distorted faces getting pure
With a slit of light touch.

In my dream last night
I was Discovering lucidity
Connected with my inner self
With the goddess of existence
And the pure source of love.

M.T. 2016.

Sometimes
When I sit on the edge of hill
Taking the fresh air
Mixed with sea salt
And smell of some foreign lands

I Think in myself
This is all what I need

Sometimes
When I lie on fresh cut grass
Leting my body to connect
To the beginning of my self
And feeling the tickles of other beings

I think in myself
That's all what I need.

Sometimes
When I give my hand to a stranger
Or just a lovley word for his tired soul
Seeing his thankful guard
and smile on his face

I Think in myself
That's all what I need.

I think in myself often
How beatiful this world could be
If everyone could just open
And go back to the place
Where they are free.

M.T. 2016

I want you to remember me
With a flower in my hair
Rolling down our green hill
With a childish smile on my face.

I want you to remember me
With no shadow on a sunny day
Dancing like a butterfly...
Look my perky colors,I would say.
With a childish smile on my face

I want you to remember me
Like you never know me before
Like i felt, hiding the beauty of myself
From the hunters shadow.

I want you to remember me
As someone who finally got the courage
At least to show it
through some simple words on paper
the colerfull poetry of my soul.

I want you to have that childish smile
When you searching for the memories
Remembered long time ago
About a butterfly with perky colors.

M.T. 2016.

Listen carefully
The sound of the silence
Dropped from the universe of hope.

Listen carefully
The voice of your deepest thought
The wind rolling over your arm
The smell of memories!

It's the call of awakeness
The touch of clearness

Turn yourself around
Feel the infinity of your being
Feel the energy of your energy
Touch the air with your lips
Kiss me with the waves of silent moves
I will feel it...

Can you feel it?
Listen...
The beauty of your existence
The brightness of your tears
The sounds of your smile

Take your love,your fear
Take your good and bad,
take it under your arms
And walk like you never had before.

M.T. 2016.

Sometimes, surrounded by daily struggle
With no time to deep breath the air
Following some made up order
I stop myself and ask:

Am I lost in this madness?

Using all my forces to make things right
Running for something and still feeling
like: " I m waiting all my life!"
I m waiting to stop the imposed chaos
And make the chaos of living life.

Sometimes, surrounded by daily struggle
I feel my chest is ripping apart.
You know, the madness in my head
The trembling of my body,
I m just stuck in it
And it wont let me even scream.

Sometimes,
I wish I could just jump out of me
To release these chains from my heart
All those attachments
All those “ I think I need to do things.“

All those fake smiles and faces.
False concerns and supports
Running in the infinity of illusion
With no true goal and purpose.

So, sometimes,
I just let my madness rip me off
To let me cold, exposed and naked
To let me see my self inside
And make me reborn in a new day
With new strength, for new fights.

I'm sitting in the dark
Corner of my kitchen
It's late at night
And all that i hear
Is my breathing and loud mind
Annoyed with some blood  thirsty mosquito.

I'm thinking of the hard past days
Of all my used energy for others
For ensuring balance between.
****** zone you know...
**** it's so exhausting
But I'm proud...they all sleep
 
And I'm broken tonight
With my rolled tobacco
Letting myself to be weak
Hiding tears even I know
There is Noone to see it.

I love this dark corner
And the moonlight trough the window
They are my breaking point companies
My silent partners in pain.

And while I'm siting here
Pulling force from the last inches of faith
With the last smoke of rolled tobacco
I finally manage to hit that ******* mosquito.

M.T. 2016

To my WARRIOR OF LIGHT
            Holding her comfortable in my womb
            Under my heart...close as she always will be.

            Oh how blessed I'm,
            The universe gave me a new purpose of life
            The moment when I mostly needed it.
            The strong feeling of connection
            ...to the earth
            ...to the moon
            ...to the sun and stars.

            I'm waiting for you
            My little Warrior of light.
            
            To shine over the darkness
            To fulfill the empty hearts
            To bring smile on the sad faces.

            The world will be such a better place
             With you in my arms...
             With your smell I'm craving for
             the sweetness of your skin
             the innocence of your eyes.

             I'm so ready for you, my little warrior
             To hold your hand and step to a new journey
             So we grow together and learn together
             From each other, from the world...

             I love you already so much,
              MY LITTLE WARRIOR OF LIGHT.

Crossing over the old fears.
Scared to turn my head
to the shadows of myself.

Chasing created lies.
Letting myself in pain...
rolling over the same worries,
for a smile from the loved ones.

Struggling with my own thoughts
Observing the truth...but still
following the creation of  fear.
Too far from the courage.

Who am I?
A loner..surrounded with crowds?
A coroner... without a clue?
A Bird...without a wings?
Or a believer without a faith?

....

I'm a dreamer,
awaken from a deep sleep of illusion.
Absorber of the energy,
living the pain and sorrow
For the goal of open eyes
and rising beauty of soul...
For freedom
for letting it go...

I'm a dreamer,
Who enjoys the smell of a flower
The sound of nature notes.
Who talks to the moon and sun
and sings a silent song.

I'm a dreamer stranger,
Craziness is my guide,
And rising is my goal.

Rising like in this song
from pain and fear of closed minds
to the valley of the FREE DREAMERS.

M.T. 2016.

I'm sitting on a forgotten, wild beach
Far from the city lights.
Moonlight is dancing on the sea surface
And my fingers playing
With those little waves
Cooling my body and bringing the smell
of some distant country's.

Next to me is sitting HE.
My sin, my desire, my reflection.
It's a stranger who understands my perception.
My wishes and my soul.

As Im taking the last smoke of my joint
Looking him straight in the eyes
Whispering with no sound
The melody of my thoughts.

He knows what I desire,
What my being wants from him.
So he moves a little closer
And with slowly touch of passion
He put his lips on me.

My sin, my forbidden world
Is gone forever with that energy flow.
I let my self drawn in his confessions
Forgetting of all my distance walls.

My sin, my forbidden world
Now is a dance floor for my soul.
Feeling my body beat in the rhythm of
infinity love...connected with the universe of acceptance and free energy flow..

And we will stay on this forgotten beach
Till the sun rise - from his long way trip
And the moonlight starts to dance
for some other souls with desire sins.

M.T. 2016.