It's an unspoken rule between us two,
that you never tell me you love me,
and I pretend I don't see the way you look at me.

It's an unspoken rule between us two,
That you ignore the way my heart yearns for him,
and I ignore how much it kills you.

It's an unspoken rule between us two,
That you don't punch his ****,
and I play ignorance to your arguments.

It's an unspoken rule between us two,
That I don't encourage you,
and you don't tell me how you feel.

It's our unspoken rules,
that we don't speak of the feelings we have,
because we know it was the only way to be with each other.

Every morning I wake,
The promise of a new day,
Every night I sleep,
Where had the promise gone?

I'd die for you.
You would'nt even fight for me.
I'd cry for you.
You wouln't even lie for me.
I'd catch a bullet for you.
You would still be living life free.
I'd lay awake all night for you.
You wouldnt even dream of me.
I never gave up on you.
You gave up on me....

I still remember

all the conversations we had,
the promises you made
when you told me you loved me
the way you played with my hair
the way you'd smile at something I said
how you held my hand
your laugh
the way you texted
your snore
when you told me you had feelings for me
your voice

But you don't long for me the way I long for you. Anymore.

I've got a war in my mind,
It's making me lose time,
The more I try to get away,
The harder it hits me when I go to bed.

The impact hurts,
It's a white,
Hot
Searing
Pain.

It's hands grasping my collar
Oh so tight,
I just lost all my might.

The brown, hairy hands
Is now squeezing my throat,
And all I hear is
"oh no, darling no"

"WAKE UP!"
I hear my father scream,
And what's that?
Is that my mothers weep?
"She promised she wouldn't"
I hear my brother say
But all I see is a light as bright as day

It whispers my name,
Oh so softly
And I feel myself walking
Free from all worry.