My cheeks feel wet
Without any tears,
My stomach's tied
Into so many knots,
That I feel it burn now
In my heart itself.

I felt nothing
And then I felt it all
And now I feel nothing
But everything fall,
And as it falls, I'm here,
Spinning, standing still.

I never asked for this,
I was okay in my tower,
But still I grabbed your hand,
I pulled you up to me
And as you stepped in--
I slipped out.

Crystal eyes,
Marble skin,
Charcoal locks,
Sculpted grin,
Painted lips,
Crimson red,
Rigid limbs,
Made of lead.

Rough laughter,
Rougher hands,
Straight posture,
As it stands,
Tall and strong,
Stubborn, yet fair,
No other could
Dream to compare:

You are you,
And I am I,
I see you and
You see my light
When I was dark
And felt alone
You were the star
That brought me home.

We are the same
Fiery orbs that light
The black skies
In the longest nights,
And you remind me
I have the same heart
As I fly to you,
Your shooting star.

Waste of money,
Waste of breath--
I’ll **** it up
Just like you said.
I’ll smile bright when
I’m thinking death--

But waste of time
And waste of air,
You’ve been to me
In my despair.
I’ll just **** it up
And I won’t care--

Just know I loved you
As you said “**** it up!”
Just know it hurt me
When I gave you up.
Just know it killed me
To know I’m not enough.