The touch the skin oh how did it begin
It seemed so ******* right
To have you over in my bed to feel you the whole night.
You're so **** firm I start to squirm
Choke me harder please
I ease on top and off I got oh god you're such a tease
I pull your hair it's so unfair
Harder faster we *****,
Because it's the best I've ever had and nope
**it wasn't you.

What do I do when I'm alone?
Sit in silence..... In my head
Wishing I could sleep when I lie awake in bed
Laugh at a silly word I made up on my own
Think about eating but don't
Wanting to call you but I won't
Shivering as the tears fall
Questioning if it really was worth it all
Rolling over and checking my cell
Watching things that'll send me to hell
Cut myself and the tears stop
Out of bed I hop
To the window I float out and stumble
To the bridge you said you'd jump off
I spit on passing cars
Hanging from the bars
Knowing one day I will die
And then I won't have to
cry.