I wish things were different with me and my mom
I wish  she would understand who i was
The words that she said cut threw my heart
The tears burn my soul
The lack of love and logic
I wish u saw past the other days
And look towards know
I have walk back away from the pain
I feel like all those feeling keeps my heart in cage
The hope thats been torn and lost
I can't help but think u never see good in me
So quick with words lost on ur own thoughts
I give some much power to how u make me feel
I can't  beat my head on this brick wall
I have move forward rise
I am alone in this dark world but i see that i can only change myself.

So quick with words
A lack of logic
There was no words of love
She lives in past
My face full of dirt
A life with no path
A mask full of lies
My heart always torn
So fast to run away
the truth that were lost among the days
The story that need be told
My hopes torn and ripped
So lost in her own thoughts
The ties that were burned
Words left unsaid but never forgotten
The negative is her cancer
I wish u knew  the person that is you

The desert gradually turned to a grassy thicket
tamarack branches turn towards the fleeting dusk
above, ancient starlights fade in cimmerian skies
their ghostly glow choked by the sullen silhouettes
of churning charcoal clouds against the abyss.
The world feels as though she is being devoured
by nothing and emptiness.

Again the tortured-self awakes inside of Apricus
wrestling with its bindings merely out of gall.
It elicits ache in the belly of its captor,
the kind that only heartbreak makes inside us all
and once the tantrum cease,
it laugh a little before it speak

The darkness comes, not for you and I alone
but in the end all life is its sacrifice,
why struggle any longer to change the minds of sheep?
Has the battle not hardened our flesh, sharpened our teeth,
has it not made us hungry for what lesser men eat?

A thunderhead above him began to coil
tightening its hold around the moon,
each rotation siphoned the lunar light
till the well traveled soil of the trail
turn to a thin brush, then into a heavy wood.

Ask not if you shall stray from your path
rather ask if you will have the constitution
to find your way back in the black
of a stormy night.

You wrapped in  sea of negative
lost in deep in your own greedy
bridges that were burned
A heart that can't be replaced
The idea of logic  that is so far gone
Your path all ready paid
The hands that are stained with green
In end you will be  alone stuck on other side of the broken bridge.

The night pass by
The darkness fills the day
This idea of hope is cut that won't  go away
I wish you took the time see me
I am more then you think
A blink of eye my heart is torn
I walk alone in the world
My heart keeps breaking with this feeling of change
I want walk away close the door
I feel like pain is too much
Are  the words so blinded and broken
The mask is  part of you
You keep sweeping the bed will get full
I have break threw this to see the sun on this dark day.

My fingers reached for the tip.
As my lips hugged it,
You were at the back of my mind
Then I inhaled to the fullest.
I held every cloud as long as I could
So at the back you'd linger
Never to bother what's ahead.
Until I was at the brink of suffocating,
Until I needed to breathe,
I had to exhale and knew, as I wanted,
To let go every memory of you.
But as I did, I had no intention
Of letting a part of me drift with you.
I was able to smoke you out
With red droplets of me
Sinking through the earth.

I wish you knew the beauty I see in you
The words  that are left unsaid
A moment lost in a dream
I wish you knew, I wish you knew
I want be the  glue to  put the pieces back together
I wish for endless walks under moon light
You are the sun in my sky
I keep hope
When  I look at my heart  it is lost for words
People come and go I just want hold you close
And  never let go.