Self centered woman
you're so wrong about
so many things I can't
even begin to reach
for half of my dreams
because of your words
that lead me to believe
I've failed you- maybe
I'm not what you were
wanting so badly..
but telling me lies and
staying away from him
will not change the way
that I feel about you-
disappointed.

Dizzy not silly
tears are forming
inhale - exhale
feelings swarming.

Maybe it'll rain
wash away this pain
inhale - exhale
today.

Drowning
you're not
around me
inhale - exhale
just surround me.

No apathy
lines are discrete
inhale - exhale
inside empty sheets.

Feelings ricochet
please don't
go away
inhale - exhale
nothing remains.

My heart raced so unsteadily as I read the sentences that you sent to me
I know that you love me and I hope you know that I'm in love with you..
I'm aware that some of the things that I write (some being most) aren't all that happy, I can get stuck in dark places sometimes and have problems while trying to find my way out of them but I think I'll just stop worrying for a while and try to be happy, especially if that means being happy with you.. I don't want to give you any reason(s) to be upset or worry so I'll try my best not to.

I guess it's too complicated for us to stay friends
after everything that's happened
I'm sorry that I can't take it back
you were my bestest friend and
now we don't even say hello or
associate with eachother in the
slightest amount of words or chatter.
and it's a shame because to you; *I mattered.

I'm running across this uneasy ground
trying so hard to keep sticking around
facing a battle that just won't pan out..
so many people are falling down
it makes me wonder why I of all people
would continue to walk along this road
full of gravel and never-to-be-pieced-to-
gether-stone.
If only life weren't such a hard puzzle
to figure out, why is it such a struggle?
stress is all you've been inhaling lately,
and you've been trying so hard to avoid
it but that's just too bad.. **stress is reality.

Alone*
is what I really am
not really wanted
I'll just stop existing
anyways- *I'm exhausted
tired of being used
always forgotten..
*so I guess this is goodbye..

Normally I'd fall asleep
in such a calm state,
it was like a dream
but there's no sleeping
with you around
I'm too attracted to the sounds
that escape from your lips
every giggle that slips out
makes me smile all too well
it's almost as if you're a drug-
inside of my heart is a flood
full of fun things I never get
the chance to see
*thanks for everything.