there are just times
when waking up
gets very hard
when getting up on your bed
seems like it would take
all your energy
and willpower to do
sometimes you won't feel
the need to eat
even if you haven't eaten
since the night before
when your eyes land to the windows
there will be times
where you'll find the sunrise
not so pretty
or you'll find the stars
not appealing
there will be a period
where nothing makes you smile
and everything is just
off
but let me assure you
when things get hard
i'll help you
when you're struggling
i'll struggle with you
when you're in your downfall
i'll stay with you
i'll wake you up
on those mornings you can't
i'll help you get back up again
whether in that bed
or in the feeling you feel trapped onto
i'll be your sunrise
for the days not bright enough
or your moon
for the nights you wished to forget
even if you just don't want to talk
we'll enjoy the silence together
i'll do anything
because i've waited
for someone like you
for so long
i'm willing to bet
everything i have
just to keep you here
just to keep you near
because you,
you're all i asked for.

is overflowing
you're drowning
something broke
it shatters
but there is nothing

shadows cascading
they look at you
are they real?
vision darkens
but there is nothing

it's calling
your hand twitched
with shaky breaths,
you close your eyes
"there is nothing."

empty bottles
tired, dry eyes
your knees gave up
is there something you can do?

there is nothing.

if there is nothing,
yet why
is it
so heavy?

they say to make a person fall in love in you
you need to make them happy
if you made them laugh
and smile,
there will be a chance of them falling for you
but why is that when i see him happy
hear him laughing, see him smiling,
why am i the one who falls?

as the strings of the guitar move as you flick your fingers

as the insentient chords becomes alive and breathes

as the echoes of emotions buried deep within you can be heard

as you pour all of you and serve it infront of me vulnerably

as the words you just can't say will be said at last

as you get naked expressing your happiness and sadness all at once

i will be there
by your side

listening.

your struggles, i see
as you practice as the sun goes down
until your eyes get heavy
every yawn, you strum
every stretch, you sung

sometimes you will leave your place
to get water, to rest for a bit
but you will not stop
until you're satisfied enough
until you're not tired enough

your determination, i see
it blows my mind how you think that
what you're doing isn't perfect enough
but i guess you're a dreamer
and a dreamer never stops

but you see, i will be here
in every bumps of journey
in every step, i will tell you
how good of a job you're doing
how proud i am of you

i will assure you, i will
you'll get to that stage, don't worry
you'll sing in front of the crowd that loves you
you'll make us fall inlove with you
you'll achieve your dream

i am your other half, see?
i will believe on you when no one else ever had
i will be by your side from the very start
and until you achieved that,
i will always be your number one fan.

whenever there's nothing to see
you'll be my eyes
telling me not to look in the dark parts
but rather focus on the colorful ones

whenever it is dark
you'll be my light in the way
guiding me as i mindlessly walk
into the pitch black of nothingness

whenever i feel blue
you'll be the waves
that will washed me away
through the shore of intrusive thoughts

whenever i tell myself i'm unworthy
you never ceased to make me feel
like i'm the luckiest gal on earth
just with you, being you

whenever i'm lost
i would always come back to you
because when you wrap your arms around me

i feel like i'm home.

ever wonder why i'm so into you?
there are just so many things
i love about you

like the way you prounounce "grafton street"
or the way you look at me funny
when i say something weird

i love the way your lips curl up
as your eyes lit up
when you see something of your interest

how you can't seem to win against me
in our on-the-spot staring contest
always the first one to look away, blushing and embarassed

but besides those little things,
i specifically love
when you radiate happiness

no matter the reason behind,
even if it's not because of me,
even if it's for other people,

when you smile,
the world smiles back

and i think that's lovely.

surprised you're still here
despite my state
a sunshine in the morning,
a monster at night

i've come to love the darkness,
for it always surrounds me
then you came along,
your brightness reflecting through the windows

you looked, you saw,
how damaged i am
my bruises, my scars,
both fresh and old

you start to approach me
a knock on the door can be heard
"who's there?", i answered
"it's your past", it answered back

you continued to walk
did you not hear that?
you hurt my eyes,
i hate how bright you are

you kneeled in front me
and held out your hand
as i stare deeply into you,
i saw myself

my eyes brightened

..i held your hand

under the streetlights
as we wander by the pavement
i saw the moon in your eyes
as your smile gleamed

yellow stars scattered
as we look up
it twinkled in the sky
a yellow tint against everything

i turned my head
and saw you admiring
the beauty up above
"it's beautiful", you said.

my eyes twinkled.
"you are beautiful."