you’re alive today
your aching ribcage
are filled with petals
as you kiss his cheeks
over and over again
you feel like stardust
filled your soul
and today you tell yourself
‘I finally love again’

Tentang kopi pekat
yang baru mengantar ku pulang
dengan mata setengah terpejam

Lalu,
dirimu yang mulai hilang
diantara inginku yang terlalu dipenuhi angan
serta kalimat-kalimat basi
yang datang pelan dan ringan

Dan jarak,
Jarak menjelma menjadi tubuh yang menggantikan
diriku di lenganmu
gadis bermata terang
yang bersandar malas di dadamu

Setiap hari, aku mengintip dirimu dari kaki-kaki langit
Melihat parasmu, yang melumat kewarasanku
Dan akhirnya samudra akan memecah 'kita' menjadi kepingan 'aku' dan 'kamu'

glasses raised high upon your dream
that clashes and clink between nightmares and pretty things

you’re afraid of the noises that they make
so you shut the door, and leave them in the hallway
birds chirping and voice echoing your head

choirs singing songs you don’t admire anymore
rhythm that fades as you steady your step

‘this is what you have to do’
you knitted your fingers as they tangled your hair
very cautious as you held someone else’s hand

once more you tell yourself
‘this is what I have to do’
I have to let go of my perched
that bleeds cosmos when it’s midnight
and the mess of outlining colour when the day meets the end

I have to let go of my old self
and the ones I desperately wished to come back
I have to let go of my worry
and self consciousness when it comes to a hopeless story

I have to let him go.

don’t be gentle with her
she lives with the whirlwind in her mind
changes as the ocean hold her tight
the waves crashes her bones
filling her lungs
up to her throat
you see roses and thorns

don’t be gentle with her
she wear her mending hearts on her sleeve
shattering your walls as you cup her cheeks
cracking cold air while you kiss her lips

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