"If I lay here
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me and just forget the world?"*


I never knew that song before, until you sang it to me
It used to be our favorite song
And now, I could not listen to it without remembering you

As the lyrics flow to my ears
I was drowning in my own tears
Even if it brings so much hurt
I played the song again
to reminisce our memories
to remember our love

I pressed play again and again
to rewind our story
And it hurts so much
that our relationship has now become a story

It saddens me that to be with you again is to go back to our memories
It saddens me that to be with you again is to play the song again
It saddens me that this song can bring so much emotions and feelings, but never an *us

Running out of time is a big lie
And age, is nothing but a numeral

tell me, how many
of your poems were about me
if those flowers that bloom
and colors your white paper
represents our happy memories
or if those gray clouds and rains
and hurricanes in your canvass
were our breaking points
tell me, those love poems
those hate poems, those drunk poems
those empty, those pleading
those happy, those waiting
tell me, how many
how many of your poems “were” about me?

i wish
we are invisible to time
because when it caught us
hands of clock seems to hurry
hours into minutes
minutes into seconds
then suddenly our moments are passing..
lost in time..
fleeting..

a woman named Tomorrow
sits in the future
takes her time
as she awaits for her love
named Yesterday
little did she know that
Yesterday is gone
little did she know that
Yesterday is past
little did she know that
what is past... is gone...

darkness,
*he doesn’t want it
the silence, stillness
the vacuum, emptiness
that comes with it
he doesn’t want it
then there comes
a little spark of light
that slowly radiates
more than the sun
could ever shine
so he chooses it
well, what can i do
bright lights are blinding

Mangangarap hanggang sa pagbalik
Mangangarap pa rin kahit masakit


weary heart, tired of waiting
this heart of mine, of rest is deserving


it’s possible, isn’t it, that the heart may have rest
but these feelings won’t


so until i can, i will


i will wish, i will dream
until you finally come back to me
i will wish, i will dream
even if it hurts..

She writes about
      S A D N E S S
to console herself
to find another who can
     R E L A T E

Scrutinizing eyes
All staring at her
They call her a ****
Because she smells
of cigarette and lust
**** society
A smell doesn't tell
The whole story

so i’ve heard
that many have started alright
but ended up all wrong
oh baby, why don’t we
reverse our story?
let’s start at the end
let’s start at the bottom
let’s start it the wrong way
maybe, just maybe
we’ll end up right for each other..

camera is broke
still i capture each moment
of you in my heart

I do not fit
I do not belong
They could not get my wit
It was the right kind of wrong

wildfire
oh darling this love
i have for you
is like a wildfire
it spreads, in my mind
in my head, in my heart
in my soul, consuming all of me
burning all of me, the flames
it won’t dim, it won’t die
this wildfire.. the heat of this love..
burn me more.. burn me more
oh this wildfire love..

i’m tired of you leaving and coming back
and me accepting you like nothing happened
i’m tired of starting again and breaking again
and collecting pieces again and starting over and over again
i’m tired of investing then detaching
then boom it’s a ******* **** cycle
i’m tired yet i still go back and back and again and again
and forget and forgive again
i’m tired of you changing your mind
and me not even changing a heart
i’m tired, i’m so ******* tired
but I love you, i love you still
i love you with every ache of this heart
i love you with every stain and scar
i love you with every fiber of my existence
yeah i’m tired, but i said i love
and when i say i love you, i mean it forever

read this when you come back
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*kiss me long
kiss me hard
kiss me the one that
will make the stars go down
kiss me soft
kiss me wild
kiss me the one that
will send ecstatic waves to the universe
kiss me sweet
kiss me lust
kiss me the one that
will make this adrenaline rush

all i ever wanted is to hear
you say that you’re jealous
secret love, when you do
i’ll stop this madness of
baring pieces of my soul
to people whom i tried
comparing you

Happiness is best when shared
Love is best when shared*


Life is meant to be shared
Individual differences is what unites us
Each of us is a complement to another
And that is how life is supposed to be

Line of boys
In front of my door
Each bringing flowers, chocolates
Sugarcoated words and promises
All for my sweet yes

But I don't even look at them
Because they were not you
I pushed them away
Because they were not you
They tried to pursue me
I tried to pursue you

Line of boys
In front of my door
I told them to go
Because they were not *you

last night,
you asked me
if i was the falling star
who falls to love
darling, i couldn’t tell you
i couldn’t tell you
that i am more than
just a shooting star
because i was once an angel
— a fallen angel
who sinned for love

Cut loose the tie
Before everything ends to lie
Don't ever regret it
Some things are not worthy of it

I thought I was screaming
I thought I was loud enough

Maybe I was just screaming in silence
Maybe I was just loud in my mind

That's why nobody will hear me
Nobody will ever hear me..

I was offline for almost 2 weeks
Dang! Hello Poetry is now pretty
But now I've got a question,
What is that Streams button up there?

you make me melt and burn
i don’t even know how is that possible
until you touched my soul
you say all the right words
and everything that comes out
of your beautiful mouth
makes me tremble with love and lust

what we had is beautiful
too beautiful that it seems like an illusion,
a dream, a fantasy, a conceit
too beautiful that it scares my existence
as if I don’t deserve this
too beautiful that it hurts so bad
knowing that everything
— even beautiful things
must come to a ******* end

My soul starts to shake
My heart starts to ache

But my tears, my tears
*The tears stops falling

last night
you invaded my space
and today, oh darling
my pillows and bedsheet
smells like you
— sweat and lust

torment

knowing that i’ll never see it again
remembering your smile
has become a torment in my heart

Oh Almighty Father
please come to my needs
and rescue me from my fears
My soul is need of peace
My soul is need of rest
I climbed higher, to the clouds
in hopes that you’ll better hear..

i used to look at myself in the mirror
and recognized myself
but one fine morning
when i sat and stared
i am very much different
much more different..

others wanted me
others hated me
honesty is my name
and it’s such a lonely word

like a shooting star
that falls to the earth
i fall for you, i fall to love
lethal yet exciting
crashing with passion
burning away with desire
like a shooting star
that leaves the heaven
to be where it wanted to be
i fall for you, blissfully falling
i fall to love, rushing for love

Writing in between dusk and dawn
late night and early morning thoughts
all things I should have done
all things I should have said
ends up in a sheet of paper

Writing in between fantasy and reality
distinguishing facts from dreams
separating actual events from things that happened only in mind
drawing a line between possible and impossible
all ends up in a black ink

Writing in between, with an angel and a devil beside
they look at me saying
"decide which side to take, decide which bridge to burn"
it takes a lot of wisdom to choose
it takes a lot of understanding to do

Writing in between seconds and minutes
of how time takes things and how things takes time
of how time is sometimes too slow
and sometimes too fast
writing about how time has betrayed me

Writing in between good and evil
of what is angelic and sinister
of what is moral and immoral
of what is accepted and not
all written, but all don't matter

Writing in between life and death
still couldn't define what is living
still couldn't define what comes with death
writing in between inhales and exhales
grasping for words and air

i take you in
i take you out
i want to fill my lungs of you
so i inhaled every smoke of you
they say i’ll die of too much smoke
but they didn’t know i’ll die if i breath you out..

c  a g  e d
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you see the barriers
and your dreams
behind it are a blur, vague
can’t seem to figure out
caged you are
but freedom is just a concept
look ahead, over the fence
the cage is your mind
break free, break free
jump into your dreams, jump

take this beautiful heart
and all these ugly hurt
take this beautiful skin
and all these deep scars
coz if you’re gonna love me
you have to take all of me
all of me, all of me
i am whole to take
not just pieces to keep

la luna captured me
and i suffocated in melancholy
it reminded me of a lone wolf
down below, howling from afar
for the love it couldn’t grasp

When you said I need you
I do not know if I'll be happy or scared
I just don't know

Sure I saved myself from all the heartbreaks
Sure I saved myself from all the pains
Sure I saved myself from sleepless nights
Sure I saved myself from nonsense fights



I do not know if I'm really saving myself
Or just depriving myself of love

My feet aches
it longs to touch the sands of the unknown
places, strangers, cultures
it wants to step on possibilities
take chances, leaps of faith
My feet aches and it reaches my soul
waking up the wanderlust in me

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its clearness is vague
i can’t figure the water
if shallow or deep
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