I can't remember the hug you gave me, all I remember is that I was happy with you

Long-distance love blooming true

Remember when I told you I wanted to tell you I loved you? Our first evening, when I told you I liked you 10 times? Such a sweet, silly evening. You were kinda hesitant, I wasn't. I had told you I thought you liked me more, then you said "Nah!".
Then when we said it another time or two, weeks later, I was confused. I wondered maybe we're just responding to the love we think each other has.
   But no, I love you, and you love me more.
Some days perhaps I'll love you more than you love me, but maybe mostly not. You love me a lot.

I feel the strength of your love now so much better, as of yesterday, I'm not sure why. I think our disagreement, and your good reaction to it, may have been the reason.
     Honestly, I wasn't sure about us on Thursday. I was thinking I needed someone a little more crazy like me, but then I was giving my brother Gabe some advice on Friday. He said he felt like he needed to marry a girl as crazy as him, and I told him he didn't need a crazy girl, just a girl happy to go on adventure with him. That made me realize the flaw in my own thinking about you. You're perfectly suited for me. I need your calmness to my crazy.
  Your reaction to our disagreement was so great. You were so happy we finally found something we disagreed on. And you knew I didn't want to say "I love you" that night, so you said "I love you too", though I protested and told you I loved you anyway, I secretly wasn't feeling it for the first time.
        Then you sang "I'll run" to me  Thursday, and I knew you were doing it because you loved me, and probably because you knew I hadn't recovered yet.
And on Friday you made me face my fear of what challenges my Ulcerative Colitis might bring us, and helped me know that you weren't going to ever leave because of any.
That afternoon I thought about how much you love me and I finally realized how everything you've told me is true. I knew that before, I guess, I just didn't really *feel* the truth before.
   And my heart felt settled in, secure in your love, in loving you

Revelation 4:3

A few times I've felt too broken, to weak that you should keep loving me. I've felt like I'm too much, but you always show me your heart is big enough and that I'm going to be OK. I can beat this.