Im so incredibly jealous of the ocean
its freedom, its motion
I resent the rain
Causing me anxiety and pain
I envy the sun rays
Its fury blaze
Im grasping at straws
Trying to hide my flaws
I love you
But to be honest you are making me blue
Stay away
But please, please come back one day

It moves me in ways you never could,
I move with it
At special times I merge with it
We become one
Then the world slows down just for a bit
We groove in a lone space
For endless moments wrapped in vibes. Amazing, incredible music.

I ascend the VERY vertical mountain *****
Stepping upon twisty Snake roots and snail shell boulders
I'm a clumsy Billy Goat
The rain falls silently
It leaps off emerald leaves and rolls off ground bound rocks
They glisten with beauty and dangerous slippage
Awkwardly I scramble up an incline
Tarantula style!
Pebbles scramble to escape my scattering feet
And with a less than graceful hop, skip, and jump
I reach the peak!
In a epic display of perfect timing sun beams streak through the parted clouds
For me it's a moment of awe
Peaceful
Connected
Curious
FREE

Dig your flesh blade deep
Within
Twist & Turn
I’m desperate for the pain
Pleasure
Of your love?
Lust
Validate me
Love me
Love me
Love me
Hate me

I look out my frost covered window, my cozy soul;
The snow falling silently, an undiscovered world;

Peacefully;

Each snowflake, intricate as galaxies in ever expanding consciousness; nothingness;
Individual as you and I;

They only reveal some of their secrets, beauty up close;

They land preciously upon the sill with grace
Resting for a moment;

Footprints upon a beach
Dust in the wind
Time on Earth

CRAVING
fill my empty void
With everything
With anything
Crawl out of my insatiable skin
For a moment of sweet relief
Teeth grinding, bite my nails to the bone tensing
CRAVING
suffer this want, this need
My raw, unsatisfiable
CRAVING

Beautiful water crystal, formed in the heavens
In billowy clouds, plump with expectation
A mystical wonder of intricate design
Breaks free, from her cool womb
Floating in a zig-zag pattern of delight

I tilt my head back
My tongue a resting place
Falling, snowflake
Melts away winter blues

Paper Doll
Your so fragile
Don’t be so Delicate

Maybe we should have made
You out of Cardboard

Paper Doll
Toughen Up

Why didn’t we make
You out of Leather

Be less sensitive
To the insensitive

You should have been cut
From a different cloth

Paper Doll
You shouldn’t be a
Paper Doll after all

Reverberations envelop me,
Form ignites, Free
Falling
No longer a thought thrall
Liberation
From mental confinement
For eternal love

I wrote this in the bath
The pages got damp
        I wrote this filled with regret
Now tears damped the pages
       I let the water drain my body filled with sinking sand
The pages are so damp I cannot finish....

Don't Lovers at times
intertwine
Fingers
But you never hold my hand
Anymore...

You built strong, tall, burdensome walls around you
And you stay there all day in the darkness

I don’t know what you went through
But I think it shattered your heart, broke it so much, you felt you needed to enclose it, and throw away the key to your prison

Trust me, please
I would light a thousand and one candles for you
I’d lovingly take apart your cage brick by brick
I’d love you till your heart was whole again

I want you to be free

But you want to stay...