truths told hesitantly
persuade none
lies told bravely
convince all

All this time I have been working
To craft the toughest
Most impregnable armor
To fight my battles
I have lost plenty of times
But I have won so much more
Thanks to the strength I have forged
but now...
My battles are such that...
Rigidity
Brute strength
and Unwavering Intellect
are no longer enough...
How do I let go?
of the exterior that has served me so well
but is now holding me back?
How do stop trying to force my way to enlightenment
and instead
Be receptive to the power that is greater than myself?

Curse those that jump into a kitty pool
And now believe they can walk on water
Such shallow minds with deeply rooted delusions
That only serve to drag those that see the beauty and profundity of the deep blue brine
into a black abyss of darkness and dubiety
Cause after all...
Who is to say
who is standing where?
Beware the false messiah

Those that shouldn't say anything
Always have everything to say

You can give someone the world
Only for them to destroy yours

They'll say they're all ears
but never close their mouths

It's funny how things work sometimes...
Or rather,
It's funny how things don't work sometimes...

I don't feel fine in this place...
I feel confined to this space...
I don't feel fine in this place...

My thoughts in my mind's been displaced
I can't describe how it tastes
or all of the time that it takes
to get myself out of this race
I don't feel fine in this place...

She said that I'll be okay, but...
I listen to the words she don't say, cause...
that's where all her true feelings stay
I'm in an emotional state
But not cause it's been a bad day, nah...
keeping my balance to stay, calm...
One wrong step and you blast like a ******
All the commotion makes me wanna take off...

Would it be better to go or to stay?
I don't feel fine in this place...

All this time I have been afraid of not being accepted
afraid of not being liked
afraid of not being good enough
for people's time
in the end I learned
that the number one person
that did not accept me
was me
And that has made all the difference

conflict causes pain for a moment
silence causes pain for generations
harmony to us
is just a box of disdain, envy, and fury
waiting to be opened
so speak now
or forever hold your peace

All the money I wasted
All the trash I accumulated
All the people I misguided

I am just in the way...

I laughed
I cried
I made things
I broke things
I won
I lost
I was loved
I was hated
I lived...
and when I leave
I hope I did a good job...

The fear of death
Brings you closer to it

The Attention that you seek...

Is the same Attention you are running from...

The fountain that you neglect...

Is the very fountain from which passion pours from

The path you pass up

Is the same path that possesses your destiny

We are all wandering on a quest for "It"

Do not be so quick to turn

"It" is in front of you

Something's coming!!

wait...why?

nothing in sight
insane insights always trouble me

somewhere inside this hectic mess
exists profound enlightenment

It is invisible
but ever present
and ever assertive
your treasure on the other side
your new on the other side
but the wall is content with your old
and will force you to be too
The harder you struggle
The harder it fastens its obstinate grasp
to your soul & the dreams tied to it

here again
a blank mind
a blank page
but an open mind
can open doors
to new worlds
new expressions
learn to use this empty space
to create within the void
an open mind
a bold heart
the true liberators

I'm a villain
and a hero

A loser
and a winner

The best
and the worst

Here to liberate my soul from this curse

The dichotomy
between the know it all
and the know it none

The higher being
and the lesser one

In order to
find my real purpose
and be satisfied

I must see through the boarders
and keep my eyes beyond the prize