she told me that I am nothing
by her actions she said there's just something
about you that just flat out disgusts me
and truthfully it's not worth discussing
so for now to her I am nothing

why
what have I done wrong?
waiting cause I haven't heard your voice in so long
still got your number but afraid to dial
cause I've been harboring anxiety and pain for a while

I hate this
why can't it be normal?
but what really is normal?
I said this to you
in my head

but I'll sooner be dead
than say it to you instead
a sad truth that lies with me in my bed
I guess I really am nothing...