If only there was time
To share the words of my heart
If only the world did not take you from me
I could have shared life with you
If only you didn't go so soon
I could have made it clear
If only
If only
If only i could have shared a kiss
If only you didn't go from this world
If only i could exist with you
I could love you
But now
Time is lost
You will never know how I loved you.

In the darkest of nights
Your body pressed against the wall
Hands held high above
Let me slide my hands down your body
To feel every sensual curve
Let me kiss you as if it were the last time I were able
Sliding my tongue softly against your lips
Let me kiss your neck softly in this night
Sliding my tongue up your neck upon your ear
Down further to explore your body. Tearing off one piece of clothing as a am to uncover what my tongue seeks Watch me as I kiss down your bare body
Watch me as I spread your legs and slide between.
Watch me tear your underwear off
Let me slide my velvet tongue
Watch me explore your insides
Until I find the path that brings you to your limitations
Watch me climb up your body kissing every inch with wet lips
Kiss me so you taste what your inner being is
Open your legs and wrap them around my waist
Pull me closer so our bodies may collide
Pull me deeper so I may further explore your inner being
My hips bucking
Yours following in motion
This pleasure we share
In my life's fantasy.

there's a passion in my veins
burning through me like liquid fire.
I rise to the top
so close I can taste the sweet taste of stars,
but then the taste turns bitter,
acidic,
and I am second best.

Smile
Spread your lips wide
And be thankful for everything you’ve been given
Life isn’t a dark abyss but a ball of sunshine
Waiting to burst with joy and love
Smile
Your beautiful and so wonderfully made
Don’t doubt for a second that your not good enough
Because you are
Cherish the memories you have created
And experience all life has to offer
Smile
You deserve it
Think positive thoughts
And your life will shoot up like a rocket
321 blast off
Into a world of fun and happiness
Smile

Her scent was ambrosia on his lips,
swimming within oceans
hearing the waters calling.

Waves gently lapped upon features.
As the ripples settled, he could taste
the essence of her, drowning in pleasure.

They didn't listen when I said I was tired
I said that being different was hard
Because my jeans  don't fit right
My actual genes weren't right

And so I came out in comparison to everything
Already didn't have a father to teach me
The skies will cry if he ever tries to reach me
Not knowing who to trust was something girls my age don't worry about

They're far too happy living oblivious
And I question myself off of this-
How do they possibly not know
That they are all the same person?


Same gloss on smooth Pink lips
Smiling a shark smile that they do like kindness
And they name the rainbow by shades of eyeshadow- as if there wasn't enough color

   Girls like that are happy with the same person for a week
And yet I cannot be happy with myself for a day
Then they switch partners because "Don't  worry he's sooo cute!"
  
  I wonder if they are happier naive
And how hard it will be for them when they realize how the skies are actually smokey black
And they've been looking up through perfect eyelashes- but beauty doesn't last

   It must be nice always being average
With a cover girl to cover you sitting next to you
And manicured nails to scratch your way through life

I turn my face again away towards the strange
I turn into a wall
No masterpiece
Only a fear growing low in all the life I know
I hide my eyes from light and strangers gaze
I become the ghost once more
Spectral hands unable
Only a solemn letting go of all my hopes and dreams

I don't care what they say
What they say about me
I wasn't born for life
I will always be beat down

I turn my face towards the back edge of a room
I turn despondent
They will call me beautiful
But then why do I feel so ugly?
My skin is a poison and my breath is disease
I become a pit and razor wire
My own method of destruction
An infinite ending

I could not care what the voices say
About my choices made
I know well that its my fate
I will always be beat down

I hold you in my imagination
I know
The only things
That ever became real
Were once merely dreams
There is no reality unless we make it be
And I'm making
I am the better part of creation
And even while I sleep
I still am working
My slumber unencumbered by my rest
I hold you in my imagination
You hold my heart
We'll hold each other
There is nothing left to believe in
Except for this