I can sense your whispers through my dreams before I've even fallen asleep
Even though you're not there, I'll make myself believe you're next to me
Your voice echoes through my mind, saying the words 'I love you' on repeat
When I wake up, I'll imagine you're where you are supposed to be
I'll feel the space around me
When I feel nothing
The tears will fall so suddenly
And I won't be able to stop myself from crying
But I'll just remember your face and the plans we've made
And slowly those tears will start to fade
Then a smile will form upon my face
Where there's a will, there's a way
And I know we'll have our say
Together forever and 5 more days
I've loved you every moment from the start
And no amount of time together or apart
Will lessen the love that grows every day deep within my heart

There are moments in life where we were meant to struggle
Where the past and future collide in an epic battle
And though it may seem hard like you won't survive
There's always a reward when you get to the other side
Life has a way of only showing you what you need to know
You just gotta have faith in order to let yourself grow
And learn to trust in the people around you
That have proven how much they really love you
It may seem like an impossible dream
But with love anyone can do anything

I can see your heart
Beating in my dream
Pumping harder and faster
About to burst at the seam
Eyes practically made of laughter
And your psychotic smile
With a voice I can feel,
Deep in my soul
Carrying for miles and miles
You made everything real,
Become nothing I've known
You're a ghost of a previous life
Slicing into my sleep
With a double edged knife
Silently waiting to strike
Yet, you always seem to disappear
Just before the final blow
With nothing to see or hear
And no where left to go
I drift off into my mind
A mass of blank space
With no way to rewind
Travel to another place
Or any other time
The distance between falling
and finally waking
Is immeasurably long
Because
This dream has become a nightmare
And not only are you gone
But you were never really there

You are the truest part of me
When I close my eyes, it is not to sleep,
But to fade into a place where holding onto you keeps me sane and safe.
It is often called reality.
And any place where our love is stopped from flourishing
Is nothing more than an ill conceived nightmare.

I still have faith I'll wake up to a bouquet of your kisses, sweeter than any rose could hope to be.

Hypnosis*
     Comatose so close to death
   Another dose of coldness swept away all my regret
Some die by the sword of vengeance, others by respect
                I myself will die calm and ready, **steadying my breath