I love you,
You told me that a thousand times.
After all your crimes,
I wonder if you meant it once.

Am I just one of the guys you dated?
Disregarded in your trash?
Your toy for a year?
Did you even shed a tear?

Our plans are in the sewer,
But yours go along as planned,
You are never a wrongdoer,
Because it’s all for your well-being.

You told me you wanted to be a gymnast;
Well you bounce back faster than a boomerang;
Your peacock dance leaves me flabbergasted;
Come claim your gold medal at last.

His pale hands,
concave shaped fingernails,
touch me as if he is you,
but my body knows your electrons and wails.

To you I was a queen,
for me you'd give up everything.
To me you were my caffeine,
until I couldn't feel the zing.

beginning to think you don't love me no more

feeling like you're pulling away from me right now,

seeing your eyes drift away from mine with doubt,

holding my heart together as you break it anyhow.

we ran our course,
tear filled eyes of remorse,
faded tattoo of her,
good bye my lover.

Unknowingly,
I've been caught in your web.
A spun web without a deleterious intent,
Yet my feet are stuck in cement.

Four months since I last saw you,
Ashamed to say that I am beginning to forget your face,
Your red heart emoji has become blue,
Darling can we erase this space?

how could u feel no remorse?
u left me when i neeeded u the most,
how could u feel no remorse?

When you say "I love you",
Do you really mean you love me?
Tell me because I need a guarantee.

I don't miss you
I miss the way you made me laugh
I miss the way you made me feel
I don't miss you

I don't miss you
I miss the feeling of being in love
I miss your kisses
I don't miss you

I don't miss you
I miss your hands around my waist
I miss your hand in mine
I don't miss you

I don't miss you
I miss us talking at 3 am
I miss your jokes
I don't miss you

I don't miss you
I miss the comfort you offered me
I miss your warmth
I don't miss you

You wanted this
Try to remember
Before you close your eyes
You wanted this

What is freedom
If you have to abstain from dreams
With these unknown schemes
What is freedom

The rock is an anchor
You are not sinking
But you are drowning
The rock is an anchor

Pretending is not being
You taste but are deprived of indulging
Your only option is clinging
Pretending is not being

To whom will you run to
With your weary legs
And tired arms
To whom will you run to

You wanted this
Seek refuge in your past ambitions
Forget about the contemporary conditions
You wanted this

I just reread our last conversation,
And all I feel in my heart is a sensation,
My smile as wide as the ocean,
And buried in my mind is a notion.

No one deserves this type of life,
Yet here I am living in strife.
No where to go,
So I'm going with the flow.

I'm a hurricane,
In your summer paradise.
I am propane,
In your ocean.

We are inexperienced and free,
So we are whatever we want to be.
We possess optimistic minds,
And go along with the winds.

Our thoughts are limitless,
As if we are omnipotent.
Our actions are precipitant,
Because there is no need to impress.

How do we lose it?
We see ourselves as misfits,
Our new identity is a counterfeit,
With sudden movements causing us to slip.

Light is the bringer of good,
And a form of revelation.
For us it has brought destruction,
As our buoyancy darkens with falsehood.

I am eagerly staring at the door,
I know that I desire more.

My heart is beating out of my chest,
I need to confess.

Enter you stage right,
There is the cue for my fright.

I turn away from your direction,
I become nonchalant assuming zero affection.

You have taken up residency in my mind with your omnipresence,
All day I have waited to indulge in your presence.

If only I could reach out and touch your skin,
For the time being with my eyes I take all of you in.

The utterance of your greeting surges my heart palpitations,
With my response I remind myself of my regulations.

I will stay up tonight replaying my precious thirty minutes with you,
My time with you has ended so I bid you adieu.

i trust no more,
my body is torn,
and my heart on the floor.

betrayal has a bitter taste,
my time was a waste,
and you left without a trace.

fool i am,
my love was worth not a ****,
and you did not care a milligram.

I am not the one for you,
You deserve so much more,
Someone who you won't have to go to war for,
And someone who doesn't make you blue.

Being left with these thoughts is dangerous,
I need to dispose of this wicked notion,
With my mind being a landfill of commotion,
Thoughts are cancerous.

Hurt me,
Take a knife,
And stick it in my heart.

Sadden me,
Bring me strife,
And tear me apart.

Rankle me,
Worry my life,
And ignite regret for our start.

Confuse me,
Blow your fife*,
And execute your compart.

Trick me,
Come to life,
And paint me as art.

Love me,
Call me wife,
And turn around to break my heart.

Here I am,
In your arms,
Yet, I feel alone,
Tell me why I feel alone.