What happened to the dream
of living in peace -
The brutality of man,
the wars that never cease?
In the midst of the fighting,
I, too, am struggling.
There’s a war inside of me,
It’s difficult to break free.
There’s an enemy within,
that gashes through my soul.
It crawls to my heart,
Digging a deep hole.
The monsters in my mind,
they drag me down.
They cloud up my thoughts,
In an ocean of insecurities, I drown.
When demons are at work,
They devour me alive.
I’ve started to doubt myself,
Now I can hardly survive.
Human as we are,
We commit mistakes.
And I’ve fallen into a dungeon -
A trap seemingly impossible to escape.
Because I am afraid,
I chose to enslave my being.
Because I am weak,
I chose to surrender without thinking.
I can’t help myself; it haunts me,
It consumes me, my sanity - I’m stale.
It laughs at my scars, my endless suffering.
My weakness has become its holy grail.
Now I’m screaming to be saved
My inner self cries, I’ve been locked in a cage
One by one, it murders my dreams,
Takes on my body, tears me at my seams.
I’ve slowly succumbed to fear
With failure after failure,
I ask myself: is there a way out?
Is there a cure?
Truth is, I can’t outgrow my demons,
I can only learn to live with them.
If I give it the power over me,
I will reside under its realm.
And until the day I decide to tame them,
Until the day I rise above my demons,
It will continue to hold me captive.
It will continue to reign and summon.
Until the day I conquer them,
Until the day I fight my adversaries,
I can never escape the shackles of fear and doubt,
I can never live in peace