He told me his love was like a religion: his heart a god and his embrace a prayer. He told me he'd shed some light on my dim world…

He didn't know that God has never been on my side and the stars had never aligned to answer my prayers. He didn't know that I liked the mind games I played and that a love like his was one to keep distanced.

last night
I woke up
with my heart beating fast
and my hopes up high.
Only because
I saw you
in my dreams.

I remember everything...
Everything I loved...
I gave it away like it wasn't enough.
I remember everything I once said..
Empty inside with regrets...
What if you give up?
What if I learned to love?
Will you forgive me and start again?...

I miss you most
when I'm lying in bed
and I roll over
to find you
anywhere
but next to me.

My arms are empty,
but my heart
is so full.

I see you
when I close my eyes
and in
the corners of my mind
but it has been
quite a while
since I have seen you
in front of me
and been able
to touch you,
to feel you,
to hold you.

I want to memorize
the look in your eyes
when you're happiest
and kiss your tears away
when you cry.
And I want to see
the anger in your face
when you're mad at me
so I can let you be,
and then laugh
and tell you to
come here, baby,
come and
let me hold you.

Just let me look at you
so I can forever remember
the sparkle in your eyes
and the gentle curl
of that smile
that keeps me
always, always, always
coming back.

**I am constantly missing you
but I suppose I always will.

Let's go sit on the hillside
Away from the world

If the rain starts spilling in, we will built a roof
If our stomachs start to grumble, we will pick some fruit
If we hear the sounds of people, I will look at you

And we will sit on a further hillside
Away from all the world

even if they do come find us, we will never leave
With the wind in our hair and the soil in our nails, this is all we need

After all they can't communise the mountains
They can't commercialise the wind
the future here isn't bleak because
*Nature isn't weak

Would your eyes fill with tears as you heard the news that I was dead.
Would you fall to the ground and wonder why you didn't see it coming?
Would you come to my funeral wearing my favourite colours?
Would you remember me as a good friend?
Would you think about me?
Would you wonder what was the last thing that pushed me over the edge?
Would you miss me?

You end my day with the rise of the moon
How I have always thought of you
You sing such sweet melodies that hold me in the dark
Lighting up my solar plexus with an instant spark
Melting everything else around me,
Because in that moment it no longer matters
It all shatters, and I become plastered with emotion
What a magnanimously calming ocean
You give the opportunity to set myself free
To let go of all the things that never have served me
I remember, and I feel it like bliss
I can now understand what you mean by a kiss
Mouth to mouth vibration in the pit of my soul
It had been so long since I last felt this whole
So sing me to sleep in your starry night sky
My moon, my dream, my sweetest lullaby

And I let it go,
Man's most destructive weapon-
Words.

Had I known it would take so many lives
I may not have said what I said,
Now in horror I watch my loved ones in agony,
With what I had pierced their hearts with.

I was a David to a Goliath,
My stone being just a string of words.
Striking the brain
And
Successfully
Yet
Unfortunately,
Compressing the heart.

The string had now taken over their bodies.

I had to let go of
More,

So I removed my Cape of pride
And
Instead,
Stepped into the shoes of remorse.

And so I let it go
Man's most sufficient healer-
Words.