Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Cierra Spina Dec 2015
I'm sick of these friendships that only bring pain
Saying you do everything
These fights that only bring blame
But where were you friend
When I needed you most
When I thought it was the end
The person I leaned on
Appeared to be gone
So this is it
Final goodbye
I deleted your contact
I'll never say hi
just trying to heal with words.
Cierra Spina Apr 2015
Unwind my mess,
put it on your shelf
Cierra Spina May 2015
You’re the other half
I didn't know I was missing
Cierra Spina Apr 2015
I want to be the topic
    *Of somebodies conversation

Let me be the lyrics
     *To your love song
Cierra Spina Mar 2015
I'm coasting
No brakes
Just shear momentum
The force of the everyday
Cierra Spina Apr 2015
When I write about you
In too much detail
I erase it
Because you on paper is good
But you in person is better
How do I capture that
Without giving you away
Because I have made you mine
And I want you to stay
Cierra Spina May 2015
i feed off the energy of others
i need the comfort of connection
i cannot be alone like this
withering in absence
sinking in the abyss
please don't let me end like this
the thoughts creep in
as people disappear  
my life once so full of light
now void of color
and the darkness keeps me up at night
Cierra Spina Apr 2015
I wait until it's too late,
to stop myself from saying something
that I can't take back.
Cierra Spina Jun 2015
I just...
I just need someone to hold me while I cry
     My emotions seem to be at an all time high
Why do I feel this way
     Like a storm in the middle of the day
All of a sudden it hits
     The sadness sends me into these fits
Waves of tears crash
     As the feeling of loneliness spreads like a rash
I'm feeling empty and numb
     This depression has me in a slum
Yet this all feels for nothing
     This pain is not for one thing
It's constant and deep
     Only to subside and retreat
Left rattled with a dull ache
     Maybe admitting the pain was my mistake
I stayed strong for so long
     And now the emotion flows like some song
It cannot be played for the weak at heart
     If they are whole, it will make them fall apart
These pains
     Emotions
No gains
     Just notions
That one day you'll be okay
     Soon the pain won't stay
Let it ache until then
     I just
*Wait
Cierra Spina Mar 2015
You can’t have my body
If I can’t have your soul
For I want somebody to hold
A heart to warm me when I am cold
Not a connection only skin deep
I want you in me
Just not in that way
I need someone in me
But someone who is here to stay
I’m not just a one night stand
I’ll tell you right up front
But I will be with you for longer
If commitment is what you want
Getting attached is far too easy
And I can’t stay whole
If I give pieces of my heart away
Only for you to soon part ways
So I’m making an offer
It’s here standing tall
If you want a chance to love me
Please give it your all
Cierra Spina Mar 2015
I waste my words on you
Just like I’ve wasted my time pining for you
You have moved on
A different girlfriend every time I turn around
Did I mean nothing to you
Did what we have amount to this
Forgotten memories and heartache
The occasional conversation
Is this what I deserve
It can’t be
I treated you like gold
But I guess that grew old
Do you like girls that trick you
Girls that trap you
That live states away
Is it the distance that makes you stay
Maybe I’m just too close
why
Cierra Spina May 2015
why
chipped nail polish
frayed emotions
tear streaked face
the girl who sits alone at the lunch table
“She’s crazy” they whisper as they walk by
but not one person stops to question her why
no one asking why she always wear hoodies to cover her scars
why her face has tracks from the tears that race
down her face before she can wipe them away
they don’t wonder why she doesn't participate in school activities
to absorbed in themselves to ponder what it must be like
to be the outcast
the silent shadow that no one will ever know
one day
when they’re old
they’ll think back and remember the shattered soul
the girl who took her own life
**the one they avoided at school
If you see someone who looks like they need a friend, be one.
Cierra Spina Mar 2015
This isn't for you
These words
These feelings
They're mine
You lost that claim
I write for me
To heal
To cleanse
To express what I feel
I don't need you
I want you
So I will write
Until I desire something
Something better
Than a broken heart
you
Cierra Spina Mar 2015
you
Glass shattered in the background
As I finally saw what others saw
You were veiled
In my lingering love for you
But just then it faltered
I saw you
The you that you show the world
The facade
Inside you hide what's real
I feel bad for those who
Will never know the real you
The one that I knew
Because the you that you show
*****

— The End —