I just wanna say that,
I really tried hard, maybe even harder
To compose myself again
I did so many things to distract me from the pain
I thought that I am already okay
I didn't expect that you really have mastered ways on how to break me
Every move you make,
Every step you take
Every words you say
Just you're mere existence
*breaks me

My old left
Yes, mine life is new
I am leading it my version
I worry why you mind my fashion
I'm not a Night runner
So why question my manner?
It may,yes frivolous
But I see it fabulous
Me to construct
Humble and instruct
A proud,and authoritative sight
I care not a slight
Not to say fright !
Because I am new
And my old left a day I forgot !

What’s in a man?
This engine of a heart,
Works in machine like rhythm,
Monochrome innards,
Stashing my colors far too deep,
Someday I wish to see them,
Let their tones creep into place,
What’s in a man?
The longing for someone,
Silence worn as an outfit,
Attempts at concrete and structure,
At times we will shift,
Loosing sight of the times,
Apologies there after,
What’s in a man?
A title I am still trying to fit into.

Strangers on the Internet exchanging texts
Surfing different sites every night
What were the chances we'd be sharing love
Before the night was through

Something in your questions were so inviting
Something in your emojis were so exciting
Something in my heart told me I must have you

Strangers on the internet, two lonely people
We were strangers on the internet,
Up to the moment when I sent the first message

Little did we know
Love was just a text away
A warm embracing chat away

And ever since that night we've been together
Lovers at first text, in love forever
It turned out so right for strangers on the internet

Love was just a text away
A warm embracing chat away

Ever since that night we've been together
Lovers at first text, in love forever
It turned out so right for strangers on the internet

With you I lost.
I lost focus.
I lost friends.
I Lost my will.
I Lost my mind, trying to be on yours.

Tears down my face
that scream "I miss you,"
scratching the sheets
on your side of the bed,
reaching
reaching
reaching to hold on
but i'm kept awake
coughing up emptiness
tossing and turning
tossing and turning
forcing some sort of
hyperventilation
in an attempt to breathe.

As my heart beats slow back
to what I assume is normal
I catch my breath and repeat
"Inhale, exhale
Inhale, exhale
everything is okay."
And if it's not right now,
it will be.
The tears now whisper
a quiet and deep "I miss you"
as they trace down
the crevice of my lips
where I can only hope
that your mouth will meet me
when we're ready
back on your side of the bed.

Half to Make a Whole

The idea of you was constantly wished for, obsessively even
After the battles, the victories, and all the emotions in between
There I was, in the middle and lost in anger
Stuck in bitterness, drowning in sadness
Black tears in my pillow and papers scrawled in doom
If only I’d known then
Under the same stars, under the same moon
In the middle of a battle not many miles away
There you were too

Through all the lies
Through all the spite
With every self threat
With every dry click click click
I pitied myself as I sat there alone
Little did I know

Years kept passing, and the world kept turning
I saw snow capped mountains, glistening in the light
I saw ******* demons, some took me by the hand
I flew up in the air and spiraled down to the earth
I took many paths in the forest of the unknown
I and walked them alone

Soon I was free, I found my own me
I found a small light to end all of the night
An old idea surfaced, a truth was told
I’d walked many paths
But I never walked them alone

Under the same sky
Across boundaries made by man
You waited with patience
Forced to watch from afar
One day we’d unite
And that day would come soon

I don’t know the rules
Not the protocol even
But as soon as my eyes were open
All of my love was given

A half and a half, indeed they make a whole
All of the times I felt alone
Little had I known.