wonder down the street
eyes stay fixed
whislt I observe each detail
everyone somewhere to be
can't everything slow down
for just one moment
but I get it I do
were in an unadaptable society
told to go along with the norm
told to conform
it doesnt feel right
we drift through life
with hidden ambition
with hidden dreams
stuck in routines
hoping that life will be differen't
to see a improved world
we have to be patient
it will come in time
change is inevitable

My head in riddles,
poisonous snakes latch onto every thought,
every feeling, leeching out every essense of
purity until I'm left dry in thrist.

I feel the pressure of the acids pulsating through
every nerve of my living body, slowly torturing,
paralyzing me from the inside out.

But I can still feel the dim flicker of light,
the one feeling, the strongest of them all,
hidden the deep in the caverns of my exsistence.
I will crawl with my fingernails, with every
last breath to reach this light.
I will bleed before I allow myself to become
paraslysed into darkness.

These devious creeping shadows will be cast out,
the abundance of light will take over, I will be free.
I am ready to step into self liberation.

Eyes of pure radiance, a universe born within.
A voice of eligiance that soothes the soul.
A laugh that emits happiness in all directions.
Emotions so innocently fragile, but pure.
Strong willed to have endured such pain.
Every common intrest sparked excitement.
Soo much more to discover about you, lost.
Deep, sincre feelings, they won't fade.
I must move on before it consumes me,
move on but not forget, I won't,  I choose
not to.  I am glad you found happiness,
now I must search for mine, wherever it
may lie.

Ocean waves crash in eligant chaos,
the calm fury rattles in my ear.
The hazy beams of the sun bless my face,
my skin retreats to a relaxing sweat.
I feel the mushy sand bond between my feet,
as a refreshing gust of wind passes through.
The wildlife syncronizes in sound,
mother natures conducts her orchestra.
This is the true design of life,
This is my Utopia.

These feelings won't fade,
its too deep and sincre.
It doesn't make sense,
I know this.
Too much do I look to the sky,
wondering if you ever look back.
How I wish things were simpler,
doesn't everyone.
Still confused, convinced I did something
wrong, somehow.
Maybe what I thought never exsisted?
I guess I should focus on my life now,
But I don't know how or where to start.
I have such much passion to give to life,
I just don't know whether I can do it alone.

I don't know how to help myself,
where do I even start?
I could write paragraphs of words,
enough to fill miles of the open world.
but these words don't help to change,
they only help to vent out thoughts.
When will the real change happen?
there is so much to see and do...
yet it feels pointless on my own.
I can't seem to grasp it,
repeating routines, how can anyone be satisfied.
I need to meet more people,
I dont know where to start, where to go...
Just completely stuck.