ever since i was young, i've had this pretense of positivity brought onto me. oh, how sweet and personable she is, they'd say. i didn't understand the significance of their words at the time nor did i realize they influenced my whole life.
but y'know
life's full of mysterious things and reasons why and no one completely understands how it can simply ******* over
y'know
i have never pretended to be outwardly pessimistic. i believe that hope and love and life will surely have a happy ending, right? i'd say that i have always been the optimist; the hoper; the lover; the dreamer.
but you should know
life's full of mysterious things and reasons why and no one can ******* understand how the pain can simply end you
don't you think,
at this point, people should just give up? less pain, less heartbreak, less ache.
they would think
life's full of mysterious things and reasons why and they simply can't understand why it has to hurt like this
i'm sitting here thinking "what happened to being the dreamer of impossible dreams? the hoper of hopes flung so far that you're terrified you won't survive the fall down if you fail?
and well
i know
life's full of mysterious things and reasons why and i'm sitting here screaming "why does no one ******* understand?"
at the top of my lungs.

i saw you walking down the boulevard
next to her, throwing your head back in laughter at what she said
and i thought
"****, that was fast."
as my stomach churned

****...

I was a girl and you were too
That was the problem with us
Our genders confined us
We were never supposed
To be together.

They laughed at us
Called us names
All because we started  dating
Talking on the brink of blasphemy
I loved you and you loved me too
Now there’s nothing left
Ever since the talk of
Blasphemy.    

They were two boys
Just like you and i
People said
“You can’t be together”
And they said
“Watch us”
They didn’t care what others thought
They didn’t let that get in their way.

They laughed at them
Called them names
All because they starting dating
Talking on the brink of blasphemy
They have the whole world left
They didn’t care
Because they were in love
Blasphemy never got in their way.

My best friend was a guy
And yours was a girl
And they fell in love
Their genders didn’t confine them
And neither did society
They were supposed to be together.

No one laughed at them
or called them names
When they started dating
No talk of blasphemy
That thought never came about
They have the whole world let
Because no one cared
They were in love
With no talk of blasphemy.

You see, society is so ****** up
Society has these rules that state
You can’t fall in love with someone of the same gender
Because it’s wrong or morally incorrect
People run away scared at the thought of blasphemy
Homophobia doesn’t mean you're scared of gays
It means you’re scared of god.

They laughed at us
Called us names
All because we started  dating
Talking on the brink of blasphemy
I loved you and you loved me too
Now there’s nothing left
Ever since the talk of
Blasphemy.

we were just two kids
you and i
thrown together in the worst way
never meant to make it
always meant to break it
but we made it,
we made it.