In that moment...
When they see you cry and just tell you to stop.
In that moment...
When those sweet words change into contempt.
In that moment...
You know it will hurt like nothing ever before.

Storms are coming,
they try to ruin my roots.
I'm always fighting,
but can not anymore.

Risking it all, with hope
to find myself.
I've got all I could dreamt of,
so, why am I not happy?
Still, I am here, lost and insecure,
trying to find a place where I belong.

Stay tonight,
Stay every night.
Fight what kills me,
when the darkness comes.
Take me to places,
Unknown,
Unseen.

Where just I would be your queen.

Look me in the
eyes, hold my hand,
Take me to neverland.
Where my heart can fly,
Beautifully upon the sky.
The crushing reality
stops in time.

And finally, your love is mine.

My little star,
shinning so bright.
You're my everything,
My only light.

So please... Just stay tonight.

I don't write with words.
I write with feelings.

We have always been told, that once you did the thing, you will do it again.
We have been told, that people
will never change. But it is
not true. You can change
in one minute.
All it takes
is one
decision.
In the minute
you change your
view, your mind. If you
regret your faults and forgive
yourself it will be forgiven you.
Every one of us makes mistakes, but still we are precious. Every person in this world makes a difference, may
be not for the whole world,
but you can mean the
world for even just
one person.
Every
little thing
you hate on yourself
people love on you, because
it makes you unique and beautiful.

It
is so
scary that
even everything
is not enough, you
can give everything and
receive nothing. You can be
hurt milion times and still wear
a smile and have open arms.  You
can love with all your heart, with knowing that you are the only
one who loves. It's scary
how much you can
hide behind blue
eyes. And after
all, you will
never be
enough
...

It hurts so much to lose someone.
Hot, sharpen knife stabs you right to the chest. It freezes your muscles, burns your breath. Alone, paralyzed, scared.

You don't eat for days, don't sleep for a while. You fade away like a ghost without flame. Pieces of your broken heart turned into ash and left empty hole without any hope.

What was the thing that kept you alive? Nothing stays the same, everything changes. People leave you, the world, things are temporary like the rainbow after rain.

You are here just for the most painful second. And then you will be gone too.
When you can't move nor breath, tears are falling from your eyes, your soul is tearing apart, you're looking right to the eyes of devil.

His smile promises lovely end.
For the moment, it's the best idea.
You close your eyes, whisper weak request as your body falls apart, lying on the ground.

It hurts so much to lose everything.
It breaks you more and more
day after day.
You are left empty, with knowing...

... That you will never be good enough.

After all what happened
After all breaks what life brought
After nights full of pain
And days covered with darkness

I learned something, when I fell at the rock bottom and hit so hard I almost died.
I learned that you are everything you will ever need, not fake friends, not people who are with you just in good times, not family who doesn't understand, not lovers who don't accept you for who you are, not work where you aren't happy and neither strangers who judge

All what matters it's your own self, your mind, your view, your heart, it's all beautiful and unique and just yours, the thing nobody can copy, or steal and even break

Nobody said it will be easy nor quick
But it is fine not to be fine
You don't need to be perfect all the time
You don't need to be always happy

You have every right to be sad, angry, exhausted or have your opinion
Let's change the bad to something what makes you stronger and even more beautiful
After all you will see how much you have done.

It's cold here, I don't see anything
I am drowning, I can't breath
I am afraid, I don't know what's happenin'
I can't move, I don't feel my heart beating.

They are talking
I don't understand those words
They are calming me down
I am terrified
They are all around me, looking at me with empty black eyes
I don't see their souls.

I feel my body burning
It hurts more and more
I can't hear anything now
I start to understand
Everything makes sense now

I am dead, I am gone
My soul, my life everything is gone
Everything I lived for...
But isn't this what I ask for?
Did I come to heaven or hell?

Where are my friends now?
Where is my family?
Everybody's gone, who'll have mercy on my soul?
Couldn't you wait to take me another day?
You took all and left my body cold.

I came here to be free, I came here to rest in peace
You told me sweet lies like you always do
You told me to trust you
You ******* liar!

I will take the souls, I will hunt you in your dreams
I will turn them into nightmares
My ice cold hands will take your hope
I have fire in my chest, revenge on my mind.

I became darkness you always loved
I became demon you always feared
I will take you all from this stage
No mercy just pain, feel fire in your veins
Fall to the depths, try lovely torture
I will be there laughing at your suffering
I swear...

Sometimes you see light in the dark
Other day the darkness is everything you know
Sometimes you just sit there
And darkness makes around you
It's something you can't control
It's something what takes you.

Your light starts fading, life becomes tax
You look in the mirror and don't see yourself anymore
You see strangers around you, dark friends
Don't panic they want to help you.

World is not the same
You see everything clearly
The darkness in people's eyes
The sacrifice in their hearts
Yours is on it's way to come.

Don't panic they want to help you
It will hurt just for a while
Then you will become the best you are
They took care of you and you must appreciate it
They are friends, the best you have.

You are not alone
You will never be
The darkness will take care of you
It's cold, loving hands will hug you tightly
Don't panic, breath while you can
It will hurt just for a while
The best is yet to come

Do you hear their whisper?
Those are your friends, your family
Your light is gone, your empty body fell to ground
Your torn wrists and broken mind start to heal
You are never going to be alone
We are friends, the best you have.

Don't you hear that cracking?
It's so loud and getting louder
Am I the only one who hears it?
Maybe that's because it's inside of me

Cracking becomes maddening
It's starting to break up
Blood is coming from my wounds
I am falling apart

Still nobody hears it nobody noticed
Pain in my eyes, bruises on my skin
Cuts on my wrists, emptiness behind smile, yet everything is okay

I can try how far I can fly
Climb on the roof and meet the sky
Everything seems so easy so give it a try
Breath, slowly, close your eyes let the darkness take you high

I did what I have to do
I did what you asked for
Now it's my turn to feel gruntled
It's my purpose to break the chains
I can never be completely free
But just for a moment give it a try

Can you hear the cracking?
Chains are falling on the ground
Can you set my soul free? It's right in your hands you were crushing it for too long
You know everything, I know just your name

Sweet paranoia, you lovely feeling
You never disappoint me
You keep following me everywhere I go
Take everything I have
I feel you watching, taking care of me

Oh sweet paranoia, my best friend
You are there in the darkness
Watching me, breathing, growing
I feel you smiling when I am losing my mind
I feel you next to me telling me what to do

Sometimes I see you fading, I miss you
You are only one who cares
You tell me all your secrets
You will never leave me alone

Oh sweet paranoia, my dear
I need your advice like always
I know you are there every step I take
You promised you will never go away
Every day you are with me I appreciate

I feel you inside me, I feel you in my heart
You are like sweet intoxication
You are in my mind taking control of me
So just close your eyes
Just close your eyes

Waking up, waking up in the darkness
You can't see the light
You are no more, oh you are no more
Sweet paranoia, you did this
Where you start and where you end?

Oh my best friend you took everything
You left me empty like a shall
But, where do you go?
I wake up in the darkness, wasn't I good enough?
I see you laughing, I see you leaving

Oh sweet paranoia
Oh sweet paranoia
Oh sweet paranoia