i tried
and tried
and tried again
but each time came back defeated
all we did
was scream
and scream
in a cycle that never ended
it's still not over
though all is silent
and we are rooms apart
but the relationship
we used to have
is one that did not start
i fought for you
my love, i did
but still have not succeeded
i stood my ground
did not back down
but still come back defeated
the unstoppable force
meets the immovable object
one of them has to fail
the one who's small
and somewhat weak
yet definitely not frail
they say they know
what's best for me
and i really don't agree
but it's my life
how can i know
the thing that's best for me
the more i try
the harder it gets
to gain a little ground
the more i fight
more words come out,
against my soul they pound
it seems there's nothing
i can do
to try and live my life
must i shut up
and be resigned
to live one full of strife?
some people
have it worse, i know
but i cannot go on
to go on following
orders which
from a hat are drawn
there is no sense
or logic found
behind their painful words
the only thing
i've got so far
is home amongst the nerds
what is the point
of fighting now
when so much i can lose
and how can i
decide that now
when i've never had to choose?
i tried
and tried
and tried again
but each time came back defeated
and now i've failed
and can't go on
i'm sorry, i am beaten
i'm sorry
i tried
and trying hasn't gotten me anywhere
i don't know what to do anymore
i'm sorry