Hey there old friend,
I miss you.

I remember we’d laugh till we cried,
or when we’d go on our own trips & rides.
Our jokes were really the funniest,
and in those moments, I could’ve sworn,
I was the luckiest.
You were there to catch my falls,
and only you answered my midnight calls.
Nobody understood me like you did,
and I wouldn’t be around if not for you, kid.
You marched with me through new things,
and provided the feathers for my wings.
You climbed with me to better heights,
and got me through the difficult nights.
It was an honor to have been your best friend for a while,
to have been the one to make you smile,
to have been the one to make you laugh,
and to once have shared your gilded path.
I hope our parting is no longer an issue
because if you’re reading this,
dear old friend,
I really do miss you.

After I made my declaration of infatuation              
You sent me to damnation
A place that eats at you with the isolation
I begged my friends for some kind of salvation
But they couldn't help me until I let go of my negation                                  
Still I didn't let go because I loved the sensation
You filled me with some kind of sedation
And I couldn’t resist the temptation

You’re just so beautiful
You’re perfect
And you mean the world to me

You’re worth every amount of my adoration
And I still think you deserve more admiration
You filled me inspiration
And being with you became my aspiration
And so I declared my infatuation
But due to some kind of complication
A mix up in the constellations
Our cells had some kind of mutation
And now it led me to my ultimate devastation:
Our complete separation

And it turned out, that to you,

I was nothing more than an agitation
We were no longer able to hold a conversation
Because your every sentence became an exclamation
And I couldn’t see the problem, I needed an explanation
I need to know why you think I’m some kind of abomination
Because now you treat me with immense brutalization
And believe me it’s no different than decapitation

And god it hurt so bad, so very bad
But I survived

My heart managed to live through its annihilation
And even after that, I hold you in glorification
They think I'm a fool, but I get over the humiliation
And sometimes I have all these hallucinations
Where I think I’m holding your hand and can feel your blood’s circulation
But then I realize it’s just an aberration
And I constantly find myself in frustration
Because you were my only source of motivation
I only woke up in morning to relieve myself of deprivation
And you wouldn’t understand my appreciation
For the happiness you gave me at our unification

All because I loved you
And maybe too much
I just wish I could go back in time
And make things right

Through some kind of alteration
Prevent you from having any kind of misinterpretation
Save myself from the isolation
The sleepless nights and exasperation
Taking helpless actions out of desperation

And every time I came to your perfection
You slapped my face with rejection

It’s like you never put any thought into our combination
I can relieve of your desolation
You’d never have to face your heart’s obliteration

I'd never stop loving you
You’d always have my full attention
You’ll never face rejection
And you’d never see your own imperfections

And all you’d have to do
Is come to this abominable creation,
And accept his declaration of infatuation

I really tried not to love you
I tried to find other joys in life instead
but you stuck around,
and not once did you leave my head

Every minute that I spend with you is a minute that I treasure
Looking back at all these pictures we took together
Always fills me with a joyful kind of pleasure
It's just something that I'll keep forever

Whenever I'm with you I feel so happy
And truthfully I don't know why
But whenever you smile at me
I feel like I could fly

You are beauty in its purest form
As whenever I talk to you
My belly'***** with a butterfly swarm
and it's really something I should get used to
As you always captivate me with your endless charm

You are brighter than all the planets and stars
Jupiter, Venus, and Mars
and only to be with you,
I'm willing to travel out to space and just as very far

You are the best there is
And I wouldn't be surprised if another wanted you as his
and so I too want you as mine
Because your love is just so divine

You are beautiful and deserved to be loved by someone great
If you want someone who’d love you more than themselves
And put you first through everything,
don't forget to call my name
Because I am so in love with you
And everyday I'll love you more and the same

You make me the happiest guy there is
And fill me an endless kind of bliss
but if I cannot have you
I would understand
And I'll try not to love you
And find other joys in life instead
but you will always stuck around,
As the only happy thoughts and memories in my head

Maybe I wasn’t the one,
And maybe she wasn’t either.
But after all of that I couldn’t bring myself to leave her-
she’s too much fun.

She’s my favorite person to be around,
only my friend, but she’s a keeper
we’ve similar dreams, she’s a believer
She’s the coolest gal I’ve ever found.

Can’t blame me for trying,
Made some sacrifices but gained no ground.
And if I said I didn’t want her for myself, I’d be lying
Her laugh, so precious, I was hypnotized by my favorite sound.

But now I’ve come to terms, it’s only fair.
I can’t not talk to you forever,
I need you there - somewhere.

I want you to find a love and a happiness,
and if it meant I got to see you smile,
and if it meant you were truly happy,

I wouldn’t mind if you didn’t find it with me.

I write and I write,
I love and I love.
It all just seems to go to waste.
My love is worth nothing -
I’ve yet to hear the words, a gesture or something.
My love must have a foul taste.

Nobody sticks around long enough
and the lonely breaks me down but I’m tough -
very tough but certainly not good enough.
I write and write and hope that perhaps one day,
things will go my way, and she will love me the same way.

I am a human who deserves to be loved,
and I am also a human who has not lived through such.
I yearn for love but also my own end
because I must surely be condemned.

Nobody has ever loved me like I love them.