Sore senja
Sunyi
Rindu akan rumah
Ruang hampa

Kedua mata menatap jendela
Terlihat sepasang burung bersemayam
Saling bersenderan
Memiliki sesama

Cemburu akan kehidupan sepasang burung
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I lose myself
I've lost everything that I love
I wonder why I deserve all of this
Did I deserve this?

Nights that I've been through
You've crossed between stars that I looked every night
I miss you
I do really miss you

It's been 8 years that we haven't met
I lose myself for nothing
I don't believe what I've become
In the end, I've only got myself to blame

The world that I've been fighting with
Won
Against me
A shameful defeat

Once I thought that life is too beautiful to ruin me
But truth has spoken
Life doesn't want me
Me...

Unrecognized..
Unseen..
Unheard.

Songs we used to heard
Feelings extracted to each other
Stares at each other
Thinks that “ Us “ is forever

All of these things that we had
Based on three empty words
We can’t fix what’s broken
Even we still feel each other

I won’t say those three empty words
Because we can’t take it anymore
I know it’s hard
To not fall on us.

A tall building with many windows outside of it
Some glows light at night
Some dark at night
Same at daylight

Every window has it own story
A couple that live happy together
A family that always argue each other
A man that live all by himself

But every time when it's midnight
All of them are the same
It was a quiet moment
Peaceful

Where everybody sleeps
Flying to a world that never been traveled before
Warm blankets that cover them up from the cold night
Magical things for every each person

Quiet hallway
Sound of water drops
Footsteps
Ringing door bell

A building with thousands of stories in it
Hundreds of people live together
Without knowing each other
Hesitation to say hello

" How's your day? "
" Hai there, how are you? "
" Can we hangout someday? "
" Did you hear the new movie coming up tomorrow? "

Questions that filled in thoughts
Fear to feel awkward
Life that filled with stupid moral
A Hai is a no to their own ego

Life of an apartment world
Living with hundreds of strangers
Loving a solitary life
Less living as a human, more destruction to humanity.

Hai
In this very moment
I would like to say thank you
For everything

We knew each other when we were just a sophomore kids
A tomboy girl that i knew
Turned to a beautiful hijab girl
The most beautiful girl i think.

You amazed me
Your personality
Your beauty
Your smile

Everything about you is perfect.

Every night i always thought about you
Our moments
When we were still a bunch of spoiled kids
We went places together
Just living our life with fun

Our first meet that begin with a " hai "
You smiled
I smiled
Then you told me your name

It is the most beautiful name that I ever heard.
We became a best friend since then.

You consider me as your best friend
But my heart told felt different

I love you.

I don't know how I ended up with that feeling
But I love you
I fell in love with you
You've become my world.

Everytime we laugh together
I feel so happy that I'm the one who makes you happy
Everytime you smile
I feel deeply in love with your beautiful smile

I don't have a courage to tell you this strong feelings
I'm afraid that if I do
I will lose you
And that's the risk that I will never take for the rest of my life.

When we entered highschool
You came to me
A long time not meeting you
You came with a hijab on your head

That's when I fell deeper for you

You've turned like an angel that Allah sent to me
You are the most beautiful woman that I ever love with
My heart beats faster than my breath
My brain freeze for a while and focus on you.

What did I do good so that I can be with someone I love with?

Perfect
Defines you.
Beauty
Reflects you.

Until now
I still love you
You might don't know
But I hope you know.

So help me God

To become yours

Forever.

It was a beautiful night in a coffee shop
Warm lights soaking the scenery
Ordered myself a cup of English Breakfast Tea
Enjoying Jazz music

Then there was this beautiful lady.

Sitting while reading books
Sunk into her own world
It is indeed a beautiful scenery
It's like my mouth forcing me to say " hai "

I look at her.

A pair of brown eyes
Soft lips
Making a smile towards the book
Manipulating my brains to do crazy things

She drove me crazy with her eyes.

I don't know what's holding me back
Is it because that I'm shy or afraid ?
Can't take my eyes off her
Distortion that happened in my mind

Am I worth to ask what's her name?

Wondering of her name
Is there even a name that fits such beauty ?
I thought tons of names
But none of that pleased me

Drying up my cold heart
Frozen
Warming up my mind
Warmed

Hello, can I have the honor to know your name ?

Nights that filled with unresolved problems
All the possibilities that i’ve decided to ignore
Regrets that stuck in this broken heart
Words that can’t escape from cold lips

Books are written by a dying souls
Filled with bloods
Represents the dark story of life
Lonely, without anyone saving me from drowning.

Living days with darkness surrounds all the time
Passing by a dead flowers who onced a beautiful one
Heat that struck to my skin, replaced by cold
Freezing my body and soul.

Is this life?
Or this is hell calling my name?
Destroying me slowly
Piles of me that will never come back.