You can never be as rich as I am,

all you have is money.

I have so much more
than just
MONEY

at first i just liked you
but you were with her
then my like grew like a ****
and you're still with her
and now...
i love you
like a fool
but you're with her
you love her.
not me.

And just when I think
things are good again
it happens,
the saddening,
the angering,
the depressing weight of the world
catches up
and crushes me

i want to live alone
with you
i want to eat alone
with you
i want to get a pet alone
with you
i want to travel the world alone
with you
i want to be alone
with you
i just want us to be alone,
together,
until we don't
feel lonely anymore

Life without you
is way too much
The thing I need
is your touch
The pain  inside
is way too real
And I just don’t know
how to deal
Now look at how you made me feel…

the crushing weight out here alone
All I want is to call your phone..
But you’re not there…
You don’t even care!!!

this hurt inside Is breaking me,
My heart in Pieces,
like debris…
Why cant you just come back to me?

I learned to hate you.
I learned to hate you because,
if I don't.
I will love you.
and if I love you
my heart will open again.
and if I love you
you have a chance to  hurt me again.

You're not a writer
and i'm not a reader
but still your kisses
taste like poetry to me.

We got back together
and as we kissed
all i could taste on your lips
was regret

and then it hits me like a tidal wave
...
what if i never feel that way for someone else again?
what if i can never fall in love again,
because they aren't you?
what if they don't make butterflies flutter in my tummy
like you did?
what if their kiss isn't warm & wet & real like yours?
and their hands...
what if their hands don't touch my soul but only my body?
what if i can never fall in love again
because they aren't you
???
....

i planted seeds in the holes you left on my heart
seeds of healing
and
seeds of happy
but most of all
seeds of acceptance.

if i knew it would be the last time i could see you fall asleep,
i would've done more to keep you warm.
if i knew it would be the last time i get to see you walk out that door
i would've kissed you
and hugged you
and called you back for another kiss
if i knew it would be the last time i could hear your voice
i would've recorded you,
so i could listen to it over and over.
we live as if we still have loads of time to do what we want
but what if today was your last chance?

nothing
is
louder
than
the
sound
of
my
thoughts
running
through
my
mind
at
3am

love
is
a
pain
no
doctor
can
explain

i had to accept an apology i never received
and forgive you for actions you refuse to acknowledge
it was the hardest thing i've ever had to do
but still, i made sure i will get through it.
and that my darling
is what i call
STRENGTH

I speak to fast
and say too little
I wrote the ending before I wrote the beginning

i drink because it brings back memories
and memories bring back you
...

you were never mine to begin with
but losing you
broke my heart all the same

Love is a knife
that i've been holding by the blade

People keep getting tired of me
then they leave
what they don't know
is that i am tired too
but i always choose to stay

i'm so blunt
you could smoke
my truth.

because smiling and saying i'm fine
is easier than trying to explain to you what i feel inside
this is why i'd rather lie
than try to explain why i wish i had died

Laws of the universe teaches that
like attracts like
so this is why
everytime i attract someone
they're just as broken as i am
Damaged people attract damaged people
we try and fix each other
using pieces of ourselves
and in the end
when it all goes bad
both of us are left
I N C _ M P L _ T E

Sometimes
i wish we could just forget each other
so we can meet again for the first time

he was  hell for her
but she didn't mind burning at all

comfortable
in
my
lonely

Sometimes
i
find
myself
missing
what
it
feels
like
to
miss
someone

I let you ******* truth
and in the end
all you did was
spit it out

sad to think about
the only flowers i will ever receive
will be the ones placed on my grave

death is nothing.
dying is easy.

living
is
hard.

i miss the old me
the happy me
the driven me
the ambitious me


the me i was before you
the me you broke into pieces
the me that will never return

from the moment i saw you
i knew you were something amazing
like a rose growing from concrete
you pushed your way through the dark
and into the light of day.

You go into a building
and speak to your God
I walk out into nature
and my Gods speak to me

you played hide and seek with my happy and my sad
you only ever found the sad.
the happy got lost a long time ago

sitting here
it's 2AM
I'm staring at a wall
the only thoughts I have
are of the memories
we
never
got
to
make

my mind is full
of
empty thoughts.

the feeling of
your love
your caring
your anger even
the sensation of  
your touch
your smell
your taste even
i just miss you
so so much

if i knew then that i'd be this lonely
i
never
would've
left
you
this loneliness is killing me slowly
ripping my fragile heart
into a million pieces

you are the lover in my bed
but also the gun to my head
you love me fiercely
but you also hurt me deeply

Honey,
just
like
this
cigarette
between
MY
lips.
YOU
were
cheap,
dangerous
and
did
not
last
very
long.
Baby,
just
like
the
cigarette
between
YOUR
lips.
YOU
threw
ME
away
once
I
filled
YOU
up.

I burned that bridge
and danced in the ashes of what we used to be
i broke free from you
with ***** feet
but a clean heart

i'm sorry for all the tears you have to soak up,
but your hugs will forever be my safe space.
not forgetting my weighted blankets,
wrapping me in sheets of sadness
as i slowly break down.
your embrace will always comfort me.
also the sad songs
don't ever forget the songs
their symphonies carrying me to another world
a world where i am not the only one.
a world where there is someone just like me
going through the same
as me.
and the cigarettes
the cigarettes i use to **** all the parts of me
the parts of me i don't like.
dear pillow
i'm sorry
sorry for all the tears.

you set me on fire to keep you warm
and when i burned out
you left without a word

how can i be afraid of monsters
when i once loved one?

Like that little sore on the inside of my cheek
i kept biting and chewing and biting at your love

Number one is blue – for the bruises you left on my face that day

2 – I saw the red lipstick stain, the night you came back from your “parents”

Number three – the white walls in your room bearing so many memories, now everywhere I go I see white walls reminding me of what you did to me.

4 – Is grey. For the grey area in my mind. The grey area you helped put there

Number five – the colour I see when you try and lie to my face

6 – the bruises are finally starting to heal, now they’re purple

Number seven – the green demon in your mind called jealousy
It controls your life.

8 – the colour of the flowers you buy me. The day after you beat me

Number nine – is silver. The armour I built around me.
Everyone knows, creatures like you,
Can’t touch silver.

If you look up the word
"depressed"
you will find a picture of me

you drown me  in oceans of emotions i am unable to swim in
and then you send me a life boat
just to toss me back into the ocean

We are not
in the same boat,
but we are
in the same storm,
only,
you have a massive ship.
and all i have is a
canoe.