A New light in the dark
A Small spark of hope
The sudden Warmth on a cold lonely day
A smile on a sad face
A star in the bare sky
The first bird of spring
A new friend

People seem to think
the hardest part is making the choice
But actually
The hardest part is sticking with it

Its not set in stone yet
But it needs to be

Lost
And found
But then lost again

I was found
and I was free
I was happy
I am Happy
And
Confused
The lights fade
And Im wandering lost
Searching for someone
To grab my hand and hold me close
Lead me out of this darkness
Show me where the light switch hides

But A part of me feels lost again
Someone found me
I was meant to be found by them
But were they really meant to find me?

Im lost
Completely lost with no sense
This maze feels never ending
Im forever lost
I just dont understand
What am i doing wrong?
I went left
I went right
I went Forward..
Wheres there left to go??
Wait
            .....
                        Where am i going?
Im so confused.
Theres to many paths
Which one do i take?

Right or left.
                                                                                               Forward or back.  Right       or        Wrong.
                                                                                          Hell  or Heaven.
Yes    or    no..
                                                             ..Where
                      Where do i go..?

My life is going by
Like
The tick & tock
of a Grandfather clock
Tick
...
Tock
...
Tick
...
Tock
Goes my clock

The stars are my oxygen
What actually keep me here
What make me actually feel
free
Alive
And Real
Such feeling are so precious to me
So so precious
What would a life be
without That certain oxygen that I  NEED
to BREATHE

I would be trapped
Me, A little bird
Trapped in my cage
Watching the world go by without me
Slowly fading
To dust
As my cage closes in
Nothing left to breath
But what little this world can spare
....
Im ever so grateful for the diamonds in the sky
The twinkle it gives to my eyes
The light it gives to my short human life
    Compared to the Immortal diamonds in the sky

A New Day
A New Beginning
A Change

Theres always that one person that
just
Pushes
Till your so close to the edge
You want to start pulling on them
so you dont fall and break

Today you did it
You only poked me
But it was enough to push me over the edge
As i was falling though
I felt it
The sudden sense of flying

Then i opened my eyes
And there i was starring them in the eyes
Tears streaming
AS we looking at eachother
I know
               Thats what he was wating for
                                That was what he wanted
To watch me fall
Watch me break
Watch my fading light go out
Well
Congratulations
You did it
You win
You see these tears?
The look of betrayal and death in my eyes?
Well thats you reward
I hope your happy
Because you finally did it
Dnot worry about me anymore, Im nothing anymore
Nothing but a shadow

Are you going to leave me?
Am i pretty?
Am i fat?
Actually, Do i eat enough?
Should i do that?
Do i deserve him?
Why am i so bad at everything?
Am i just not good enough for the world?
I dont think i could ever do that...
If i could though i might actually be good at it

I was walking down the street
I saw someone
Something
on the curb
Looking down
Eyes
like ice
Hair
Rosy red
I came over
No movement
Stopped at the edge of the bubble
Then took the step into his world

It was cold
People were screaming
My chest hurt
My eyes burned
The boy was rocking
His thoughts Pleading for relief
Too look away
from the face staring back

Dear diary,
Another day
And i cant look her in eyes
Not without wanting to cry, I thought i could trust her. I feel like a fool Although she did warn me But at the same time she was begging me to stay and to be honest i wanted to stay...I really do love her even if not in that way..
I kinda want her back but i dont want to be that puppy that after being neglected for so long i run back to be loved again but discarded the next day.
I dont know if i can handle that again..But i want her, And my desire to keep her around stays strong though i know what will happen..the never ending cycle will repeat again and again. And im getting dizzy and tired of running back, Its hurting me mentally more then anything...
What do i do?
Stay around and try to fix things and hope for the best?
Or Walk away and let it go

Anything thats real
Cant fade
This is real
We are Real
What this is..
It cant be broken
Take my eyes
And your face will still be all I see
Take my ears
You voice will be the only melody that wont fade
Take my lips
I dont care
Words mean nothing when all I long for are yours
They may be freedom for this world
But your freedom for mine
You are mine
I am yours
Us is ours

Every human being
has had that feeling
The clocks finally stop ticking
The birds finally stop chirping
The Sun finally flies away
And left darkness
in its place
Little speckles of light
Hold up tight
against the blank the canvas

I'm ready to leave my cage
And fly on my own way
No more watching others
Day after Day
I have awaited
years for this spark of assurance
that i was ready
And
Now
I am

Im ready

Ready to turn the page
Start a Chapter
A new Adventure

A Change