The emptyness is overwhelming, holding my heart in my hand. It beats with a different rhythm than your's and you'll never understand.

I just can't seem to reach you.
The darkness is holding me back.
I feel hopeless and lost here without you.
My lifeless heart fades to black.

I need you so much more than you know now.
You are my only hope left in this hell.
But, how can you bring me back to life,
when you can't even save yourself?

My reprehensible mind
       Slipped you into my dreams last night
    You were there for me
         Cared for me
               Said you were mine

     I cannot say
           I did not enjoy this dream
While it was happening
      It's been a long time
Since I've even thought about you
       But when I realized your words seemed true
    My dream took a turn
                Something morbidly new

      I said the things I wanted to say
          Instead of just saying sorry
And... "It's okay"
         I cursed and I screamed
    I put you down the way you always did me
               I broke your fragile, pathetic heart
       Tore your soul apart

             I was so cruel,
     Yet, I still never reached your level
       With what you did to me
   You'd have made friends with the devil
         I was an angel in comparison
   Enjoying my first little taste of sin

    God, how I loved watching you crumble
                    And fall
          Made me feel larger than life
To make you feel useless and small
          All the times you pushed me down
             Watched me laying,
        Crying on the ground
    I finally had my turn
          How do you like me now?

This may make me seem
         Like a terrible person
     But... I Don't Care
            My dream made me smile
       You weren't there
               You didn't see
All the terrible, painful things he did to me
      
      When I woke up,
   I was finally able to laugh at the past
           Like I never was before
     Truly Enlightening
                 A new beginning
  I'm not in pain because of him anymore
       And *I never will be again

Icy electricity, fiery desire
Melting, dripping, let's get higher
Take me, make me feel your heat
Bend me over, make me scream!
You bring to life my wildest dreams
Gripping tighter, feel my release
My body shakes, increasing speed
No longer a want, fulfilling animalistic needs

Baby, do you want it?  
You have me begging, baby please!
Moving my hips to meet your thrusts
You give it all to me!

>>Your hot sticky lust~>

I'm alone in my head
Left for dead by all the things I never said creeping up and feeding on me like a zombie.
The regret is gnawing at what remains of my soul ripping apart dreams and goals that I once held close.

This darkness surrounds me.  
It's inside of you too. It's plotting your demise and there is nothing you can do, but to face your inner demons to overcome you must defeat them, but the journey into hell isn't for the weak of heart, with lack of reasons.

They'll chew you up, spit you out, and put you back at the Beginning.

It's not you
    I promise
What I say is true
      He never deserved
           You

     It's not your fault
           I know for a fact
      Trust me
             You are better
          Than a boy like that

It's for the best
       Please,
    Believe me
          He'll do it to the next girl
       And the next
            And next
      You'll find your one
          In this world

        It's time to breathe
             Have faith in what
          I'm saying to you
      This might just be
                Poetry
          But I was cheated on too

It's time to believe
      You're worth more than
   You can see
           No more tears, please
      He's not worth your pain
             You're gorgeous
       And you're NOT to blame

     It's for the best,
              It's not you
          Please,
    Just Breathe.
          Believe me,
  Cause I've made it through.
         I know,
      What I say is true.
             Cause
         **I was cheated on too.

Mind full of confusion
Color blind delusions
Am I wrong? Am I right?
Is this even worth the fight?

I don't know which way is up
I'm descending into hell
You think you own me but your wrong
You can try, but you will fail

You project self hatred
On anyone you can
Never took responsibility
And you call yourself a man?

You think you're God twisting reality
Manipulating all my memories
Yet you believe that you're the victim
You take what's right and make it wrong

I've caught on to your tricks
I've mastered all your little games
I'm much stronger than you now
You're the only one to blame

I'm coming to take back what's mine
Reclaim my thoughts and my mind
My soul will not be caged
You will never control me

I am not afraid of you anymore
Never again will I live in fear
You are dead to me now
And I hope that's very clear

Picking apart the pieces of my broken dreams
Unsure if everything is really what it seems
Afraid my life will always be this way
Letting go of hurt is so much harder than you say

I never wanted you to see the darkness that lives inside of me
I wish my mind would rest a night and for once just let me be
It twists inside and burrows deep. It's growing stronger. It doesn't sleep.
It growls a warning and bares its teeth
And then it lashes out at me

It's hard to breathe, I'm suffocating now
I'm trapped inside. I can't find a way out
Eyes filled with tears, heart filled with doubt
I accept my fate as my hope bleeds out

Barley conscious laying broken on the floor
I hear a noise in the distance
I fear it's coming back for more.
I close my eyes and brace myself, too weak to handle anymore.

I expect to feel pain, but to my surprise, your warm embrace signals that we've won the war
I open my eyes to see you staring back at me.
You tell me everything's alright and remind me to breathe.
Your kisses heal my heart and taste of sweet relief.
My knight of light has slayed the darkness that once lived inside of me.