Sometimes I just wanna give up
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't write another word
And to some, this scene has never needed somebody like me
Some call me over emotional
Others see it as sincerely devotional
And nothing makes sense to me
I should just walk and leave this be
How do I keep conjuring these verses
When I ain't ever going nowhere.
How can I keep releasing this material
When nobody can even see this as visual
Or me as a complete individual
It's so hard to please
But last time I checked I wrote for me

©2017 Written By Benji James

Where's he come up with his lyrical content
Where the hell does he come up with the song's concept
Does he strain his brain
Bringing up the past pain
Or hang on a moment in the heart
Of a situation
And I can't stop this invasion
They take the words right out of my mouth
How can I stop when I'm addicted to this
I can't just call it quits
Especially when you've got a flow like this
And some people call me the kiss of death
Some people just don't see the visual effect
And then when the storm surpasses
And they realize we gotta rely on each other to make all this work
And a lot of people don't even understand the words
And I don't mean understand
What the words mean
But what the songs I write are referencing
And I get it, it gets a little confusing
When something that runs through your mind keeps constituting
What makes you think about being so blinded to the situation
But you know you can make it
There all seeing what your starting to say and I'd give my life
Before I lose out on living and breathing the freedom
To say what I mean
Because I mean what I say
Do you follow
Do you understand me

©2017 Written By Benji James

I wanna drink myself to sleep
Prescribe me the pills to help me, please
It makes me sick to even think
You could even be like this
Leave me hanging on something
That'll never ever be
How could you ******* leave me lonely
You knew I still thought of you
You knew there was nobody else but you
And you might have thought
I had worked this out
But I'm so totally over it
I just keep on losing it every time
You talk about him
I don't wanna hear that ****
I'd much rather listen to ******* people preach
I couldn't care less what you think of me
Give me the pills to release my mind
Give me drink until I drown myself in it
Baby give me the nightlife
One night stand to take you out of my head
Get so drunk that I can't get back up again
Stomach pumped just to bring me back
Reenergize, try to make me smile
But I just go back and do it all again
I ****** you and I ****** your friend
Oh dear lord his lost it
Oh dear lord what's next
I think I just had like three girls in my bed
Prescribe me something to stop
The madness that runs through my head
Before I go **** my life up again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

The guilt kicks in
Tears run down these cheeks
Bedrooms dark,
thoughts become bleak
Haven't eaten for a week
All these feelings consuming me
Torture my heart, ripping it apart
All these drugs just aren't enough
To cleanse me of all my mistakes
Tried locking all the memories away
And nothing seems to be working for me
I'm pushing through each day
Looking for a reason to live
And everything I've tried to give
Hope has been stolen out of my pocket
I've been left an empty shell of nothing
Thought I was something
When I was with you
Truth is I'm nothing
unless I have you
To keep me grounded
You were the one
that reinvigorated my soul
You were the one that brought me up
When I was low
When you were around
I never felt alone
You were my safety, my home

©2017 Written By Benji James

Gotta let loose
Yeah give you the truth
There's a whole lot more to say
There's a whole lot of things left to do
I've got you, I've got this
Hanging for another taste of your lips
Give me another kiss
I don't wanna miss it
Don't want to let this moment pass me by
Give you a whole lot more of my time
I want you here tonight
I want your hand in mine
I want your sweet charm
Wanna hold you in my arms
When your here feels like I'm the lucky one

©2017 Written By Benji James

Music can give sight to the blind
It can captivate minds
Give lessons in life
Capture a memory in time

©2017 Written By Benji James

Your magnetic attraction
Gives me that animal reaction
Your such a distraction
I want that infectious affection
All of her love and attention.

©2017 Written By Benji James