Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
One day will be at peace with myself
Wounds on my heart will completely heal
Fingers and hands will no longer miss yours
I will finally conquer the sadness I feel

I won't feel split open and apart anymore
As though emotions are exposed and on fire
I am unable to put the embers out
Warmth in this dungeon of desire

Soon enough I'll set all seductions free
Stop throwing chances carelessly away
I am letting go of baggage one final time
Finished, flaws far too heavy to weigh

Always felt I was born frailer than most
I didn't feel accomplished or strong
Not receiving earned recognition
Standing my constant state of wrong

Say good words about others
But give insults to my ears
I feel lonely, I must be unwanted
Doubt the root of my greatest fears

Help me understand my worth
Love ugly parts at my core
It hurts, it festers, shame an ever-present ****
Please stop it, my whole body becoming sore

**** concern before it burrows beneath
Destroy it or else it wjll dig too deep
Harness inner power and will
Halt insecurities, then they'll never seep

Say I'm doing okay when asked
In the mirror hate the person I see
Tell everyone I'm fine though I know I'm not
Because eventually a day will come where I will be
It's hard to accept myself because ive made so many mistakes
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
I am on fire
Step by step feet scorched by flames
Breath by breath I burn
Let it burn
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
Sweet girl, I need you to know I care,
I sincerely wish the best,
And I guess I am sorry for the way
Feelings and concerns manifest.

Seem to be making wrong choices,
You're calm, I'm not so sure,
You thinkyou know what you are doing,
But I feel trouble astir.

Along the path you're walking
Demons lurking out of sight,
I want to save you from the dark,
Monsters that hide in the night.

I am asking you to be careful,
Please go down the right road,
I love you way too ******* much
To watch your world explode.
Written 8-14-14

To my friend Brooke
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
Know I am not satisfied with myself
Recently more ashamed than I care to admit.  
Could have the perfect life
Negative thoughts form a pit

For a second think I see the way out
Reason ommiting a soft glow
Try to take a step, my legs give out
Unable to make body go

Wondering if I will always be this way
Have no control over my critical mind
Head void of confidence and respect for myself
Self-love and acceptance so challenging to find
No one will love you if you don't love yourself
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
Do not frown because you aren't close
To as unhappy as I am
I am dying here without you
You don't even give a ****

Falling in love was much easier
Than falling apart all alone
Used to be mine, now there's only
Old pictures of us on my phone

Sometimes had disagreements
But would never argue for long
We used to care more about eachother
Than who was right or wrong

All that seems to matter to you
Your life, your future, YOUR happiness
Who gives a **** about my tearful broken feelings?
The important thing is success

Hope you find what you're looking for
I want life to treat you kind
When your dreams come true I know
You'll regret leaving me behind
One day you'll realize how amazing she is, and on that day she'll be waking up to someone who already knew.
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
I'm crying because
I really thought the people
We were wouldn't change
Watching people change isnt what hurts, what hurts is remembering who they used to be
Next page