You won't believe this, rightfully so, you'll think it’s not true
but a person will do anything, when he starts losing his *****
I didn't feel that any one loved me, so I devised one day
to test out my theory, in the most bizarre type of way

I found a way after considerable thought, to put myself on display
and to be able to stay inconspicuous, from a secure distance away
I watched them attend my eulogy, peculiar as it may sound
enjoying the reception, it was nothing short of spellbound

Who could think, a person as crazy as I might be
going to such extremes, who would ever foresee
to accomplish this great task, of convincing my heart
someone would somehow care, if I really did depart

In the back of the room, with shades covering my eyes
sinking into a chair, surrounded by this chorus of cries
who would ever suspect, that this stranger sitting in the back
was really not far away, from being deemed a quack

When my funeral was about over, I watched those flowers start to bend
they too seemed to be saying, haven't you yet been able to mend
so I pushed myself up front, in order to get a better look
this deaths looks too real, what if I really did pass over that final brook

As I approached my casket, overtaken by this powerful desire
could this really be happening, shaking with a cold perspire
to escape from this nightmare, there was but one thing to do
hastening to relieve myself, running from bed to bathroom, I flew

The lesson here to be learned, after thinking about it, was simple and clear
we often have these fears, and yet are not always aware
what’s important for us, is to truly recognize in ourselves, which is the key
understanding our need to feel loved, and the absurd lengths we go, in order to see

A day started out, it really looked bright
no one could recognize just what was in site
how was I to know, the heavens were about to flow
soon I would be escorted, to that place we all must go

When those angels came for me, I was ill prepared
didn’t pack any clothes, wouldn’t need anything to wear
yet I knew that it had to be good, whatever would be
because G-d is calling the shots, to this we all do see

Lost opportunities to reflect on life, and all that my body once did yearn
how it has now been reduced, to little more than food for the worm
stoic indeed was I now, since during my life I maintained my belief
preparing my soul for this journey, so that I could now expect relief

I knew, therefore, when I was young awaiting me was this court case
even though it was much in the future, eventually, it I would have to face
so I made sure to invest the time, helping both friends and strangers in need
for I knew the secret, heaven would certainly treat me likewise, indeed

Measure for measure does our Creator deal with us, for this is part of his design
not always perceivable to man, because it emanates from the realm of the divine
ultimately making known his true righteousness in judgement, for all to see
A day of judgement truly awaits, and our very souls will be forced to agree

Only in this world are we constantly challenged, many tests emanate from within
because there has been put inside of us, an evil inclination trying to get us to sin
having made known to us, there is a medicine for our benefit he has deployed
patiently hoping for us to choose wisely, our constant sinning for us to avoid

This medicine is a secret, and is made known to only a select few
and is given over to those, choosing to staying far away from the untrue
I have recognized this fact, a fact that is difficult but does hold true
when you starve your body from sin, merit for your soul do you accrue

After leaving this world, we hope to paradise we all shall surely go
not wanting to contemplate, the existence of that other place down below
the message is a simple one, tailored for all those earnestly wishing to know
do many acts of kindness in this world, and in the next your soul will surely glow

An aching heart, an eye with tears
disheveled hair, a mind filled with fears
unanswered questions, pain of the unknown
confusion of spirit, and feeling alone

World of sadness, solitude, empty of fun
never an escape, always on the run
ever soft cheeks, that once had blushed
replaced now, with a heart that is crushed

This life is not a life, you're trapped inside
you just want to sleep, you just want to hide
if you could disappear, you know you would
out of this world, it could only be good

Then appears a thought, your composure do you retain
chance to fight this sadness, as your control you regain
the sunrise brings a warmth, and with it your smile
that there is a tomorrow, to this can be no denial

One thing is yours, it forever holds true
that ability to hope, and for time to renew
this world of happiness, you once had, of old
for you to have yet again, yours alone to hold.....

With You My Friendship Do I Share.....


Oh friend, with you my friendship do I share
my heart is overflowing to give you her care
Your smile is so beautiful, true and bright
my life has true meaning when you are in sight

Now secrets of mine, that I could never ignore
have burdened me to a point of being no more
Then we met and my pain was understood
to be but a dream, like an internal war

You have embraced me, and your friendship is true
I know I'll withstand everything, now that I have you
My secrets have I shed, like the falling leaf spinning ahead
my friend for all eternity, will I now Wed.....

My war is over
my battle has been won
My love has been given over
to you alone my precious One.....

Make due with what you have, and choose to go that right way....


A person's thoughts, how secret we think they really are
in reality, however, the truth to this is indeed very far
how can we really think to be judged, for all the things we have done
unless our Creator above knows all, nothing hidden from under the sun

Coming into this world against our will, is something I feel and know
but contemplate the fact this same way, is how we are going to go
what matters most is to achieve our task, for the duration of our stay
making due with what we have, and choosing to go that right way

A soul placed in us from a higher place, in our body below does it rest
divine power and free will have we been given, for us to pass this test
everyday how many challenges we face, for our benefit are they designed
giving us an opportunity to come closer to G-d, to this we may be resigned

I have asked myself so many times, why this feeling for love is so strong
the answer to this may be found, understanding our human need to belong
so when we consider these G-d given gifts, bestowed with a great plan
fostering this desire to help others, then life really starts with man

If we had any idea how our actions below, effect the divine world above
kindness we show to one another, forces down upon us their love
so living a life that is divinely inspired, is not only moral and just
this power of giving and doing good, makes living life nobly a must

At the end of our days, when that time comes for that place on the other side
content we can be to let them know, at least we made an effort and tried
human frailties are not accidental, our Creator fashioned us just so
challenging us to give us reward, for all the good we have done below