I would give anything to tell this little girl with those red curls that she was beautiful, cause she couldn't see it herself. I would erase thoughts that shouldn't be there, hug her when no one else would and dry all the tears that kept rolling down her cheeks. I would tell her that she shouldn't be so ******* herself, whatever is hurting her right now won't be here forever. I would reassure her that not being normal will be something she's glad about in the future. I would tell her that I'm proud she's holding on, and still not giving up. Shes got a little fighter heart.
I would thank her for being stronger than what was causing her so much pain. Maybe this little girl just needed someone to tell her that whatever she's doing it, would be good enough. Always trying to do better and better made her question if she could ever meet her high expectations. And when she couldn't the disappointment ate her alive. I'm not ashamed of how I tried to handle a situation that I clearly couldn't deal with on my own. I wish I could have helped myself earlier so now I wouldn't have to worry about what people thought of my ugly scares. I wish I could have saved the girl, so she didn't have to spend her teenage years in her room trying to **** her sadness. But I'm thankful that she was stronger than this and decided to live.

The way our fingers intertwine
I could be yours, you could be mine
The way you hold me, tight and warm
Outside there’s a raging storm

The way you look at me
In your arms is where i wanna be
The way our bodies fit, yeah
I just can’t help it

I keep on dreaming this dream
living this fantasy, you and me
the look in your eyes
I see the truth behind your lies
With you everything feels so right

I know what i see
I know what i feel
yours is all i wanna be

In your room, night is dark
you pull me close
from fingers to my toes
oh, can’t you feel it?

I know what i see
I know what i feel
yours is all i wanna be

We could dream this dream together
live our fantasy, you and me
look into my eyes
can you see the truth behind my lies
your my angel in disguise

The way our fingers intertwine
I could be yours, you could be mine

All these feelings overwhelming me
Like waves pulling me back to sea
Where hope is slowly leaving me
Maybe that‘s where I should be

Ive been feeling like no matter what I do
It will get better! Sounds so easy from you
Every day feels like a battle where I can‘t win
Because I hate the skin that I live in

I‘m holding on but it‘s more than I can carry
Turn into this angry and sad thing, its scary
Wish someone would help me out
But no one cares, without a doubt

As my thoughts keep consuming my head
I realize I‘ve become my very own thread
So maybe one day I can put an end to this
That‘s one of the things I wouldn‘t miss

What can you do about a hearts’ desire
oh, yes we’re playing, playing with fire
But only your love is taking me higher

As much as I can recall
We could have had it all, oh
Don’t worry I’m taking the fall for all

You pulled me up
Watched me fall
Was it love after all?

Been my enemy
Been my knight
Can’t we stop this fight?

We’re battered and bruised
I’m just so **** confused
oh, how could it get this far
Now we’re both leaving with a scar

I never meant to hurt you
after everything we’ve been through
I’ve tried to make you stay
oh, In every kind of way

You pulled me up
Watched me fall
Was it love after all?

Been my enemy
Been my knight
Why can’t we stop this fight?

Why does it feel so real
Why can't I heal
if it's all in my head

Why does it keep me awake
Why can't I seem to escape
if it's all in my head

Why can't I be free
Why do I let it **** me
if its all in my head

After all the tears I've shed
And the blood I've bled
Sure to say
It's not just all in my head

Winterbreeze rippling through my clothes
Loud music in my ears
Cold hands, warm heart
I am falling apart

Streetlamps guiding my way
No place where I could stay
Every turn I take
With every step I break
Tears filling my eyes
Guess thats what they mean with paying the price
I never meant to hurt you
Didn't know what else I could do

Just let me walk in silence
Build my fence
Be tough, be brave
that's what I told myself

The night is swallowing me
With all its darkness and beauty
Take me with you
Isn't that what lovers do?

Here I am sitting in the dark
feelings overwhelming me
listening to the noise of the night
slowly falling apart

No one can hear
No one cares to listen
to the things I'm afraid to say

So much pain
tears falling down my face
told myself to hold on
it will get better they say

No one can feel
No one cares to touch
all the scars that are hurting

So here I am struggeling
World weighting on my shoulders
listening to my silent cry
words caught up in my throat

No one can see
No one cares to open their eyes
to all the sadness behind my smile

So much pain
tears falling down my face
told myself to hold on
it will get better they say

But will it really??

How can I love myself
When I keep breaking my own heart
How can I move on
When I fall right back down

Running to hide away
No strength left to stay
I've got a long way ahead
But want to give up instead

How can I love myself
When there's nothing to like
How can I move on
When it's all I've ever known

Arriving in an empty space
Tears running down my face
Walked away to end up here
It all confirmed my fear

How can I love myself
After all this pain
How can I move on
When I've got nothing to gain

Tears rolling down my face
Walking through a dreadful place
Held on for far too long
But used to be so strong

At night out of everyones sight
Waiting for when the time's right
The demons would make me feel
like the wounds could never heal

Convince myself with smiling
even my insides are dying
As I keep on burning
I feel the tables turning

You might see hope
Don't see with what I cope
Told you there's no other way
Wouldn't listen to what I say

Told myself this lie all years
While confronting all my fears
Never saw a day get brighter
But made me more of a fighter

I've been hiding it all perfectly well
in me there is this burning hell
Though tears might fall and you'll hear me weep
You'll never know what going on in the deep

I might laugh and sing along
pretend I'm fine when I'm not
Fighting everyday to be strong
Tried to give everything that I've got

As I'm barely holding on they
tell me to keep up the brave fights
though they never seem to notice
How I'm dreading the lonely nights

And no one seems to care
As I slowly fall apart
While darkness consumes me
I let it break my heart

Day after day drifting away
Slowly killing all good I knew
I give in, let it have my soul too

I’m barely holding it together
Feelings change like the weather
This darkness consumes my mind
Like I‘m living my life blind

Desperately trying to breathe air
But I‘m lost in despair
Wished someone was there
But do they really care

All these years I‘ve been trying
To build a life when I felt like dying
Found a way to numb the pain
Where only scars will remain

With all the demons I dealt
Can they understand how I felt
I don‘t know if I can win
With monsters living in my skin

**** it up, play it cool
You believed it, such a fool
Told me to be strong
When you don‘t know what‘s wrong