Dear God,

I don’t want to keep sinning , even though I already am

I don’t want to be greedy with money, even though I have to survive with cash.

I don’t want to chase after flesh, yet temptation is calling me.

I don’t want to hurt nobody, but society really likes to test me.

I don’t want to make anyone my idol, but my actions are similar to mimicking my favorite character on Television.

October 27, 2040

I give her love with the protection & wisdom I carry

I chase after her consistently as if it’s our first time meeting all over again

I carry her flaws on my shoulders to show that these are my flaws to

I help her seek God when darkness attacks our light

I love her shades of brown skin because Black Lives Matter

I held her hand in marriage, & propose this ring that symbolizes “Till death due us part”

Dear God,

Your presence was here today.
You spoke through an older lady, who others thought was drunk or high, at the tire shop. Simply because they didn’t understand her. But I did. She gave me money as if she knew what I was going through.
She asked me- “ I saw you when I came in. why are you here? What are you here for? You are here for a reason. You know why you’re here. Do you need anything realistic? I am financially stable. I don’t know you at all, but I love you.”
That was you speaking through her. I know it was.

P.S.- I do not remember her name. Please accept & bless her as well, for me.

Thank you for blessing me with the money in my pocket.

September 26, 2018

Dear God,

I don’t know if you saw, but the other day, I saved someone’s life with my words. They told me they were cutting themselves to the point where they **** near killed themselves. But I came into their lives right on time, sharing my story that was very identical to theirs.
The difference between us was that I kept fighting for my life. Then I showed them how to fight for theirs so they survive.
I honestly didn’t know I had something like this in me. I mean I was just writing down how I felt.
Yet, to hear them say I saved theirs life made me cry with them happily.

Looks like you have another angel coming your way.

April 14, 2020

Sin is too expensive
Faith is free paradise

Dear God,

I’m having the best time of my life as a middle class citizen in society. And I’m only getting started. Keep the motivation going.

January 31, 1974

Dear God,

Do you ever crack jokes?
Every time I read the Bible, I only read about you blessing people, causing wrath due to disobedience, or telling someone what to do in order to receive what they desire most and be thankful.
But one thing the Bible never talks about is you laughing.
Unless I’m not reading in between the lines and you actually are from time to time.

I would definitely love to see that one day.

January 4, 2010

Wanted a bag of chips
Went inside Shell’s gas station
Seen you staring at me
Grabbed the golden Trojans instead
You approached my presence
Trying to investigate me
We head back to your place
To get lost in those sheets

Said listen, love
Go ahead & spread them legs open so I can take this dive
Promise not to judge you
When I f--k you good before I hop back on this road tonight
Don’t you worry
I’ll make sure I hit every wall with constant strokes
The only issue is
You’ll be catching feelings, yearning for some more

May
May turn you sideways
Look back at it & just gaze
Eyes rollin’ as you moan
Talk about you in my next poem
Trojans ain’t working for me
Going raw feeling the tightness
Satisfy my quench now

Said listen, love
Go ahead & spread them legs open so I can take this dive
Promise not to judge you
When I f--k you good before I hop back on this road tonight
Don’t you worry
I’ll make sure I hit every wall with constant strokes
Only issue is
You’ll be catching feelings, yearning for some more

Dear God,

I been sending healing energy, giving my time away genuinely , and this mental strength you provided, through me, to others for years now.

But who’s sending healing energy for the strong? Who’s sending healing energy to me?

June 19, 2017

If the pum-pum can stop a war
It can definitely make your man do some chores

~My Mind

You don’t know…
The trauma I’ve fought daily within myself to do the right thing-
because my own flesh wanted to do what it wanted to do & not God’s way.
Trying to still be low-key “perfect” in an imperfect world, yet feels perfect world.
Saying “I got it I got it” when I’ve never had it until faith took me faithfully that day because I was lucky.
Not realizing the weapon that prospered against me, was me.

Dear God,

I cried joy creating these books.
Simply because now I have something to leave behind for people to read. They can revert back to knowing they weren’t the only one going through joy & pain / sunshine & rain.
Giving back to those who lost their way or forgotten why it’s important to live.
To show that when you start an idea, you keep going. You may feel the “want” to give up. However; you must remember why you wanted to start your idea in the first place.
Take passion & creativity to another level to make it exist.
That being said,
I am leaving behind a legacy of who I am.
My art work, ideas, craft, identity.
All will bare witness to this blessing.
This is my story to tell. That’s my poetry.  

May 15, 2020

~My Mind

You don’t know.
Having to constantly prove my worth to those I adore.
Seeking validation for my hard work, ideas, my worth
just for them to say meaningless words
in criticism at my dreams
or spit perceptions upon my feet in foul laughter,
All just for approval…

Don’t say you should’ve took that chance with me years ago-years later down the road.

Don’t ask for my food when I asked you “what you want” & you said nothing in the drive thru.

Don’t come crying to me when you regret not taking that opportunity for yourself to become something great than what you were before.

Don’t reach out for help when we both know you messed up & thought you moved on to something better.

Don’t assume I mess with multiple women as if I’m a player. I know I’m cute, however;  That’s not my style.

Don’t tell me how to run my household. Otherwise step up, put a ring on this finger, & help me pay these bills .

Don’t tell me I sleep a lot. I know that. First of all, I’m going back to sleep.

Don’t call me out of the blue asking how I’m doing when you decided to ghosted me.

Don’t congratulate me when you never supported my dream & thought I couldn’t  do it with very little money.

Don’t speak my accomplishments in a text message when behind closed doors,  you couldn’t do it face-to-face, public, nor on social media.

Don't touch my hair nor my paper

Don't give me excuses. Give me success with a team of young legends that want to build a foundation. No fake people around that cause headaches with bruises

Don’t have me pray for you when you didn’t pray with me at the dinner table.

Don’t ever think you have the upper hand in fighting me. It’s a brutality if you try to cross me.

Don’t tell me how to write when you never picked up a pin & paper. Sitting there countless of hours staring at the wall trying to figure out what to say.

Don’t think you can talk to me any kind of way & think I won’t react to your stupidity. You better watch your tongue.

Dear God,

Continue to reveal everything to me.
Let me see what you see father
so I move accordingly to any and all doors that’s in-stored for me.

August 18, 2025

Dear God,

I want every single box checked off when I meet my wife. I won’t accept any fake copies of who I’m not suppose to be with in this world. Everything you have in stored for me will be precious. Because that lets me know I’m ready for the next level.
I consistently ask for this gift because I’m working on myself to get ready for that moment. I want to be ready for the good times, bad times, and struggle times. I want her to see I’m 100% committed without any doubts on both sides. I am the head, never the tail. More importantly, I want you, God,  to see my growth and be proud.

July 4, 2005

Dear God,

What I find to be funny sometimes is how I’m sitting here in my bed writing about my life in my mid-20s, as if I already lived a full lifetime and was reborn again to tell another.

February 14, 1997

When I was younger (early 20s)
I had to wait on a lot of things & develop a foundation. It ******.
Now that I’m almost 30, I go right after what I want with no hesitation.

Dear God,

Random questions:
What is it like to be God? To see over everyone and everything you created. To watch things on earth fade away like certain animals going extinct as new ones be replaced. Is the work difficult sometimes or easy?

How strong are you?
Like seriously. I want to know how strong you  are. I think it would be so cool to see you in action demonstrating your power.

What exactly do you look like? I know you tell us we’re made in your image and all but I must see what you look like if possible.

Lastly, have you ever been embarrassed or embarrassed yourself before? For example-
Person “A” is talking to person “B” right. And all of sudden, person “A” pass gas in front of “B” because “A” thought it was going to be silent.
Something silly like that.

May 16, 1984

I can’t shake this feeling that I’m having…

Chemistry is warming my heart inside…

Try my best to control these temping urges…

But your energy gives away those vibes…

And I know that sometimes I’m shy.
Cause your love I can’t describe.
If I gave you a chance to blow my mind.
I know you’ll keep me safe & satisfied.

I can’t have you, please excuse my manners…

Expectation can’t make this sacrifice…

I have to go, I know you don’t want that answer …

Maybe I’ll have you in the next lifetime…

And I know that sometimes I’m shy.
Cause your love I can’t describe.
If I gave you a chance to blow my mind.
I know you’ll keep me safe & satisfied.

Unravel your mask & show me the real you
The weave attached to your real hair to
ruby woo lipstick with the choker
powder cake foundation
Second layer of eyelashes
rose gold hoop earrings
rainbow colorful nails
Let every flaw bloom as a flower

I realized that I was your last

before we cast away,
                                       to a new life

~My Mind

You don’t know…
The hours I’ve spent staying up at night on my vision board planning, writing, dreaming, listening to music to calm my thoughts.
Mind racing the course on if I’m going to die alone today with no one next to me.
Causing imaginary problems that never existed.
I don’t want that for you.

But when I snap back into reality
I see through your eyes, bright blue flames that burns in desire of need to be successful.
Those same fiery eyes I once had at your age
lets me know you can withstand any challenge that comes your way.
Because you, my child, are apart of me.
Who am I to place sheltered fears when it’s obvious you’re ready to start your foundation.

So when I snap back into reality

~“My beloved child, I want you to be better than me & how I lived.”

~My Mind

You don’t know
The pain I’ve experienced in multiple failed relationships that I’ve ran from
just to reroute back into a new host.
A recycling mindset thinking I found the one once again.
A mentality to give up quickly when problems arise vs have patience towards my lover point of view.
or or or  simply think they won’t hurt me for the last time.
Contemplate percentages on how much emotion I should show.
Do you really want to go through this because I don’t think you do kid!?

What a special time, to be alive
Showing joy, laughter, & love to women across the sky.

We celebrate this day for all mother’s in the world
We praise & give thanks, my boys & girls.

These Queens shown strength for centuries that no one can beat
Their love nurtures all our hearts, this is truly sweet.

Still don’t know what I’m talking about? It’s “Mother’s Day” you fool!
So buy her a gift, show some love for once, & don’t be cruel!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the women  
Happy Mother’s Day from all of us children.

Happy Mother’s Day, please don’t be testy
I promise we have your gifts today, so don’t be messy.

Happy Mother’s Day, we should be drinking Pepsi
Happy Mother’s Day, it’s time to get ****

~My Mind

You don’t know.
You don’t know the pressure & weight I’ve endured as a black man.
On this battlefield with 50 other different shades of skin,
surviving on pay checks, to fight to the top of the throne we humans call “business”.
Trying to make beyond the figures of one’s lifetime to pay off rooted tree debts.
Defending my honor in pride & through ego in demand
that the next man will not 1-up me.
Because I owe it to my family since I’m the chosen one.

Driven by my Mind
Not my Testosterone

Stay low
Hit them goals

“You need to leave your lady.
Come & be single so you can holla at these girls with me.”
There’s no limit to satisfying his hunger
This guy is straight down trifling to the core
Giving girls that “I'll tell you what you wanna hear” speech & more.

I said, “I beg your pardon?”
(Cause this dude is crazy)

He said,
“Bro, I have a girl coming home from college this week.
Her body is banging, I set up the move for tonight
She’s expecting us to come, are you down for the ride?”