People realize
The real nature of your own kind
Taken by surprise,
Forced your friends to not mess with you anymore.
The damage that you caused, exposing people secrets
Acting like a creep
Makes you not trustworthy anymore.
Karma will arrive
Hurting you inside, just give it time
I think it’s time to settle the score.
Because the audacity of you
To think that this was cute
& act like a peasant
Shows I never needed you, so carry on👏🏾

I know I’m not your type you usually go for
But when I’m done with you tonight
You’ll wake up wishing you were mine

My father of lust
Walking in sin like a plague.
Generation to generations,
Tasting different flavors of women as if they were like candy.
Lick one, bite one, crush another, **** another, wrap up your favorite
one back in that wrapper
to save for later.
Spreading your seeds without protection
across the nations,
populating the land like wildfire .

Papa is a freaky rollin’ stone.
An inheritance of your gift
being the middle child,
banking on hope I can even control these urges.
Self-discipline / Self-love of respect
for myself
by myself.
I’m just trying to navigate my way on the right path
yet, I find myself almost lost
falling in a pool pit of ****** tension

How much more challenging for black man, himself?

Just like my father,
Like father like son
Just like his sins
Like father like son
Just like just cause
Like father like son

I’m the man now trying to change

Heritage
Independent
Spice
Protective
Ambitious
Numerous
Importance  
Culture

One moment I’m happy, next moment I’m sad.
One moment I do something good, next moment I do something bad.
One moment I wanna laugh, next moment I wanna cry.
One moment I taste victory! Next moment I face defeat.
I write this poem being true with what’s real; however I try to make it relatable & sweet.
In this moment I am confident, but five minutes from now I’ll be back to my true self.. shy.
Today I’m feeling skinny, tomorrow I look fat.
Im ready to do something productive; next thing you know I’m in bed on snapchat.

In my last moment, I dream of being already rich with friends, heading to the islands.
Or giving back to my family & the community watching everyone happily smiling.
But reality brings me back into this world, thinking it was surreal or so it seemed.
Now I’m in my apartment waking up like, “**** it was just a dream.”

Don’t come near my direction
You’re not fully committed
You’re heart just not in it
So why are you here?

From when we first met
To where we stand now
I told you I wanted to be here for a lifetime.

Forget a season!
There’s reason why you come & go
Because you’re just temporary now?

Blind-sided me once but never twice
Playing around like life is monopoly,
Collect $200 passing GO & continue to roll the dice 🎲
Trying to control the field thinking everything will be alright

At first, your appearance seemed innocent & sweet....

Little did you know I figured you out.
You’re nothing to me in my eyes.

My love for you runs deep like the ocean
Stretching far beyond any set of eyes could see
Our bond grows stronger of every minute we sink
From the pressure, traveling down deep deep deep under the sea
Huge tidal waves of emotions clash above the surface
The bounds of my love know no limits when it comes to you

Up early to a blaze pink sky & the 1st day of Gemini season

Heat running through the body, mind, & soul

Bright colors begin to shine outside

Fans work out the warm air

Swimming in a pool of sweat

Nature is singing, radio is playing R&B tunes

Drinking sweet grape/cherry Kool-aid juice

Enjoying the summer madness

Loving on me all night
Writing poetry, listening to love songs
Loving on me all night
Face-time while singing love songs
Loving on me all night
Making love to her favorite love songs
Loving on me all night
All over me all night

Eyes open every morning, see self-made, I was born for it
Jesus by my side every day, walking under faith for it
Bonded from the ground up, sacrifice my time for it
Told him that I have a dream, told me to go work for it
Can't worry to much about the past
Wrote a list under covenant, while learning how to fast
Have to stay focus and keep myself strong
Thought I couldn't make it but he surely proves me wrong

I wanna be your lover that can cuff ya
Your partner, your black man
Your super hero with super powers like
“The Black Panther” from Wakanda.

I wanna pray from the word to the Godly heavens
Keep your faith up so your soul don’t become corrupt.

I wanna stay up late tonight
Fantasize about the birds & the bees
creating a new tune
Of our own lullabies & melodies.

Sometimes I wanna go off on you while other days protect you
Stick side-by-side ya when the world wanna fight against us.

Love is essential
Brings us closer, bond is stronger
Built foundations
A royal empire, that’ll bring us wonders
A nation of offspring
Where they can grow up under.

Baby I’m sorry...
That you’re upset at me
Which doesn’t make sense???

But I’m sorry.
Not because I tell you no
Not because I forgot to let the toilet seat down
Not because I did anything crazy, which I didn’t...

I’m sorry that I didn’t wait for you like I was suppose to.
At the time I thought she was you.
Only to discover that she wasn’t enough & I was wrong.
How could I have known?
To be sent a mere false images of my one true love that I once called my own.
I understand if you decide to leave
But I’m not over you
Yet, whatever decision you make
Don’t wait to long,
You don’t have wait around for me

So I’m sorry that I was wrong

My shyness appears when I’m around you.
Catching my eyes & attention every time we talk or next to each other.
However; I don’t know if I should express my feelings.
It makes me nervous because I don’t want to mess anything up.
But at the same time
I want to tell you how much you mean to me.
Even if it’s only been a short period of time of knowing you.

See, I have these weird moments when
I wonder if you can hear my heart sing a tune.
And it says “I love you”.
But through that tune
Our thoughts are connected.
Yet, we just know exactly what we’re thinking + the reasons why...
You see what I see
Feel what I feel too
Speak out your truth like I want to.

So as I lay here next to you tonight
Truly happy
I had to pour out my heart in this poem before I slept.
Because you are someone I wanna be with til the end of time starting 2020.

I hope one day the feeling is mutual...

You didn't want me
You wanted the idea & treats of me
in another man's body you fell for.
That nice, sweet, humble, cute brotha
mix in with the right bright skin tone.

As bad as you wanna give it to me, I wanna give it to you

As much as you love me, I’m way to deep in it with you

As crazy as you think about me, I’m already crazy about you

As sweet as you show me off, is where you’ll receive my all to you

show me love
that isn’t shaky
when it panics
& doesn’t vanish
into thin dust
show me love
that will never be misleading
with false beliefs

1)Don’t assume other people are mind readers.
2)When you ask, be bold in what you want.
3)Be specific in what need & what you wanted.
4)Be clear about what you won’t tolerate.
5)Forget dropping hints.
6)You need to ditch being a Moderate.
7)A “No” is not personal.

~being direct is not being rude

“But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light:”
‭‭1 Peter‬ ‭2:9‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Lord, tonight I’m on my hands & knees, so I hope that you’re Listenin’.
Getting difficult for me to avoid multiple temptations
I’m trying to stay discipline.
Unlike mankind, I’m choosing to be build different.
Changing the outcome of my actions, I’m being way more vigilant.
I want to keep our promise we made together through this covenant.
And, I take full responsibility. I know that I’m not innocent.
~
Man, last year I got into a fight with man who was ignorant.
Got upset over a call in basketball I made & he lost it.
Took his frustration out on me due to his emotions being bottled in.
He had it out for me for a long time, this was no coincidence.
I wanted to mark his face with a final blow that would be permanent.
I was ready to risk it all that day during this whole incident.
~
Okay, summer time comes, I was in class all day studyin’
Evening shifts, late nights, grinding hard, constantly hustlin’
After 5 long weeks I failed my finance class that I was in
Program dropped me out of it, GPA low, not proud of it
Tick off cause I felt like all that hard work was all for nothin &
Decided to switch up, pursue poetry that I’m passionate in
So I left school, never looked back at the lost accomplishment
~
2019 was the start of a beginning breakup.
A test-run to give me a taste of a nasty setup.
March 29th- the day lost everything due to a house fire.
Left a terrible sight in my eyes making feel bitter.
Homeless for 4 months with nothin attached to my name neither.
Life handing out frustration, gimme a minute, I need a breather.
~
But now I’ve grown more mature while learning how to stay pure.
Stuck in this grey area of love of feeling sure & sometimes insecure.
My girl-I know I’m good for her, but I’m also real to her.
Times are different with her, hopefully not like what they once were.
Learning how to not blind myself when I express love.
Searching for your voice, God, tell me if she’s the one?
Hoping for a yes so I know that I am enough.
Otherwise the 3 of us will have a lot to discuss, that’s real.
~
I deal with a lot of people situations beside me
People want to disrespect me vs try and protect me
Everyone wants to control me, but don’t know how to love me
Everyone say they miss me, but won’t come see me
Everyone likes to go ghost and do it so freely
Everyone choose to banned me rather than try to understand me

I’ve heard stories about the men in my family
Who were once kings to the wrong woman,
Become slaves as their dreams were taken away

I’ve watched the men in my family
Struggle through drugs & back-child support only to find out the child may/may not have been theirs

I’ve talk to the men in my family
That allowed a woman’s body to be known first, rather than know her. First reason why they’re divorced

I’ve lost many men in my family
Who souls were filled with goals
Corrupted by the world & it’s materialistic things, trending like followers.
Now their body is no more than a sleeping hollow

Having Trust
Ability to Talk
Telling the Truth

--It’s the tools to free yourself from the stereotypes of this world's stigma

You may not understand every poem that is written
Or the message they send.

So appreciate the art, story tellers, fictions, struggles, good & bad times-the life of poetry.

Because each poem, including this one, has something to give.