"loosest" poems
He was always a quiet man,
never seemed to look up...
as if his eyes were afraid of
what it might mean to
see the sky
His gaze seemed neither
fierce, nor soft.
Neither attentive or lost
He would never look at you,
it was as if he was looking everywhere
except where you happened to be.
I never saw a smile cross his lips
I never heard a laugh escape his lungs
I never heard him curse
I never heard him yell
When he spoke, I could hear the dust
falling off his breath
It wasn't a monotone sound, but I imagine
he sounded like what trees or mountains
would sound like, had they voices.
He existed in the loosest sense of the word
He was an oddity and an enigma
His quietness and unobtrusiveness
could be somewhat offputting
Yet...he was often able to blend into
the background like a rain drop
in a storm.
You can imagine our surprise
when he stumbled into town one
hot afternoon, clothes looking like
he'd fallen into a vat of red paint.
Splattered. Head to toe.
In between his head and his toes,
cradled in his arms, was the
body of a young girl
He had found her in the woods,
he had said, voice devoid of emotion.
She had been lying off the path,
in a pool of crimson.
An investigation turned up nothing
The people, in need of a murderer,
settled on the only man they could.
The man who hadn't shed even one tear
over the death of a young child
The trial was a farce
The kangaroo court adjourned
Death by hanging
The man remained silent throughout
the proceedings. Quietly answering
the frothing prosecutor's questions
with the same demeanor as someone
would use when discussing the weather
He wasn't defensive
He wasn't derisive
He didn't plead, nor pray
when the verdict was announced
On the day of the execution
nearly everyone in town was in attendance
Most of them couldn't tell you why
The noose around his neck, he stared
back at the crowd. Stared through them,
as if they didn't exist.
When the rope snapped taut,
The man flailed as his body
involuntarily spasm'd.
When he finally passed,
his body swinging lazily
under the gallows,
I caught the hint
of a smile
Only for a moment.
I found it odd
That he would only show
a sign of life
as it was ending
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 12:18 AM UTC
My social skills are strong enough
I can live with parties & get togethers
But home is most comfortable
Even though my definition of home is weak
Home is where I can be alone
Certainly preferable
To small talk, oh how I hate small talk!
It's just a long road not worth the walk
Words are me when they are written, not spoken
And I'm the one who prefers to listen
Sit back and watch everyone else go
And I never liked putting labels on things
Too organized, not enough chaos
But as much as I try
My insecure human nature
It loves to name
And it names me an introvert
By the loosest definition
I don't want to name myself anything
I just want to be me
But even 'me' has been dibbed by labels
Not even 'I' is really mine
Because it is shared with everyone else
And the only way I feel better is
Is when I'm alone at 3: 26 a.m.
Where 'I' and 'me' feel like my own
Jan 31, 2013
Jan 31, 2013 at 12:12 PM UTC
I cried myself to the shower last night.
I used boy shampoo over the arms that I’ve been scratching for hour, four hours spent trying to get the blood I hated so much to come up and sit on my skin like it was their art gallery, hanging on for display.
It never came.
I run water over me burning tears into camouflage,the words of an empty life stung to my head as if the thoughts branded it here on me permanently.
I’ve had nights like this before.
Nights where I put on the loosest pajamas I could find, the ones with ESPN written written as read as the books on my old library shelf. The ones I took when my brother went to work and left me by myself, the ones that made me feel manly, even if I didn’t look like a man.
I wouldn’t put a shirt on.
My chest was bare, not in the way I wanted, but I couldn’t tear off my breast and give them to a girl who wasn’t born with them, I’d just have to stare till my stomach growled and tears streamed down my face, fears of a life unloved and unlived made me put on a loose shirt and tell myself I wasn’t hungry, so instead I thought of you.
You, with your crooked smile when you see me at your doorstep with the sun’s colors draped in a bouquet. I show up in a fox shirt, the one I call lucky, and you count each and every one and you point out how dorky I am.
You, with your back on the mattress of the cheapest apartment we could find, reading love letters I’ve written to your baby sister over the phone, telling her of all my love in the distance of thousands of miles. I try to pretend I can’t hear you from the kitchen as I make you tea, the lemon juice coating it bronze with the color of its juice, your vase holds out bright sprouts of happiness as a centerpiece.
Daisies plague my mind on nights like these. They’re scattered at your funeral & my own on our graves, at the fifty yard mark.
“We’ve been rolling together since we were 25.”
Nights like these remind me that my masterpiece is so far, even if the dasies are so close, so near.
Nov 14, 2017
Nov 14, 2017 at 1:28 PM UTC
I caught Gnat
cheating.
caught her in it.
Not in the bed,
but enough
in the heart.
She said,
"Yea,
I ******
Jose,
so what?"
And I said,
"so what?
I love you,
and you **** me
like this?"
I wanted to hit her,
wanted to say with an open palm
that my heart
was a closed ******
That it hurt
when she forced her love in.
So Gnat left,
and I got bitter,
I drank
and drank
in that lonely apartment.
She had a good time
with
Jose,
but came back
when he was done
with
her.
So what is trouble,
but attachment?
Attachment that you can't
pry loose,
even when the loosest nails
are easy in a crowd of girls,
when the heart
is a rigid baseboard.
So, I felt happy
for a second,
then depression hit again
when we ******
and I knew
she
was
gone.
I'm saying this a thousand times,
but bitterness grows,
and when I find a good one,
I let her go,
because she might cheat,
so I cheat on her
and in conversations over verse
I let it be known.
But I miss
companionship,
true love.
Now it's ruined.
Mar 20, 2012
Mar 20, 2012 at 11:32 PM UTC
My name is Timmy and I had a dog named Lassie.
My father is an alcoholic and my mother is sassy.
Mom has affairs with every man who comes to town.
When it comes to Mom, you'd better believe she's been around.
My mom is pregnant but it isn't Dad's baby.
I had to shoot Lassie because she had rabies.
But before I could shoot her, she sank her teeth into my *****
I had to get some painful shots and I didn't like that at all.
Lassie got out because Dad was drunk and didn't shut the door.
Lassie got in a fight with a rabid wolf and my ***** are still sore.
I constantly daydream about being kidnapped.
I want somebody to take me away from this crap.
My mom is the loosest woman in town and my dad stays plastered.
Mom and Dad never got married so I guess that makes me a *******
Dec 19, 2018
Dec 19, 2018 at 7:43 PM UTC
I know it has been a while
But in that time
I've been trying
To devise this plan
To ultimately become better
At who I am as man
Before seeking forgiveness
Maybe a second chance
Many daily debates
On how long to wait
What could possibly be
The perfect time to come through
Use a strategically made move
To swoosh and swoop you
Right off your Nike shoes
Do whatever it is I had to
To get back with you
Wheels were set in motion
Back in early June
Following Blues Clues
Your family had left
In order to find you
My insides diminished
Turning to shhh the minute
I saw you with a dude
That basically unfastened
My last and loosest *****
Tail between my legs, I fled
Hoping it would be you
That would reach out instead
Jan 16, 2016
Jan 16, 2016 at 1:04 PM UTC
He forgot how to help himself.
He forgot how to love,accept,and respect himself.
He now loves feeling his pain,
and wishing things were still the same.
Exchanging brains,
for drugs with names,
that will land him under the ground,
or inside of a cage.
It’s a crime to wait,
for life to take,
the righter path,
with a mind that hates.
At night he’ll pace
his mind will race,
yet sit in place,
designed to waste.
Why does he do it?
So self destructive.
He claims he isn’t an addict,
but isn’t above it.
The future is bleek,
so no need to recover.
A bleeding heart bruises,
and is misleading in color.
At the moment before,
the moment he snaps,
and right before he’d lose it,
**his music oozes from the loosest of nooses.**
Sep 26, 2014
Sep 26, 2014 at 12:56 PM UTC
i wanted to share my life with you,
let you grasp onto my loosest knots -
tighten them close to your heart.
i wanted you to know my deepest feelings,
dive into my ocean of tangled thoughts
and maybe find what you were looking for.
but that is not what happened -
not at all.
you swam to the bottom of my sadness,
only to still not understand,
only to tell me that all i ever did was drown you.
only to say that you have given up -
that you don't know why you swam so far for me.
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 7:29 PM UTC
As I stand in the field, it occurs
To me, like a mosquito bedding down
in an ear, how light I am this
life. How shallow do I feel
To have trekked in loosest soil, over
Land and across years yet
have so little fiber clinging in my
soles for proof. I may as
Well have been but a step in
Sand at a tide that gasps
its opens shut at night.
Feb 13, 2010
Feb 13, 2010 at 2:54 PM UTC
love roams starker
naked
with her every
candlelit thought
of him.
milky moon maiden
at loosest ends.
beams a riot of departing
sanity, and a longed
for scream.
firmly rooted to the perfect
mound of her clearing.
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 12:46 PM UTC
Giving a girl like me your tshirt is the best thing you can do.
Its like falling asleep with your scent suffocating my surroundings and breathing like never before.
Its like falling asleep in your arms wrapped so tightly around me with the loosest grip.
Its like falling asleep with your soft lips kissing my entire body and wanting more.
Its like falling asleep next to you
when
your
not
really
there.
Oct 29, 2014
Oct 29, 2014 at 1:55 PM UTC
i am a lot like sleeping laughter
in faintly room warmer windows
bound tightly with light's loosest
fingers mingling with the atomized
aroma of a basket of flowers dusted
just
with barely afternoon's short rumpled
heat glaring in through the slight
abrasion of sight I call my window
peeling with fresh strums of Summer's
fair cords singing me softly into the
palm of night's tiny hands
Jul 14, 2011
Jul 14, 2011 at 5:10 PM UTC
i am brain speaking through the features we both know
hello
blood chugs along like a train through the veins of my brain
giving me permission to change my motion, feel emotion
like warmth from the sun
hitting the bumps of my skin
hiding the horizon behind microscopic flesh mountains
close your eyes
see sunrise at any time
this is my religion
if clock is the only fact your body knows, say hello
picture a train pulling into the station past the snow
feel it's echos shake the loosest joints of your body
like radio bass attempting to wave the ***** of your face
stay licking your wounds and
imagine
the theory of God
as some printing press
producing repetitive lines from an expired advice column
imagine
hugs are confirming
that we're both just body
imagine
me as before and after
LiquidinOrgan and SomedaySoil
imagine
being complex enough
to have one word
to express the undefinable mess inside your chest
imagine
uttering one word
just to feel this poem
Dec 5, 2016
Dec 5, 2016 at 8:03 PM UTC
there is a man waiting a man waiting in short arms small
round, round round cheeks gaunt cheeks in fat eyes with
a hard nose a smart mouth a quick unspeaking mouth
a tense hurtles fist of lips and teeth not moving doesn't
say a word and he is waiting in his short arms fat eyes
and quiet mouth at the quiet mouth of every little dark
half empty half full glass of night and day at the end of
the night when you pull your lids tight and he is waiting
with his sharp hands his ludicrous expected hands of
your waiting your whole life for them when your walking
down down down in the little quiet dark of a half empty
street he's waiting at the end his lips pulled back over
the tight loosest grin of fleshless fat teeth tickling teeth
at the back of your neck at the back of your neck tingling
faster and faster at the same exact pace of your whole life
waiting.
Jun 14, 2014
Jun 14, 2014 at 3:42 PM UTC
I am counting on my fingers
in front of a mirror
those I’ve known
who’ve died
of fright.
I am working the loosest brick
from the house of god
while standing on the backs
of two kids
whose father
borrowed
then sold
a crowbar.
I am telling my abuser
how to direct
with a magnifying
glass
the stream
of god’s
****
I am charging the riding mower’s
battery, I am alone, I have a hair
on my head
for my son
to pull.
Sep 16, 2014
Sep 16, 2014 at 1:35 PM UTC