"guiltiness" poems
a piece of you, in a different form.
a piece left over, from the storm.
in my existance,
came all the resistance.
shortly after, the roof caved in.
& with an end, we watched it begin.
daddy left, you stepped up.
an empty glass, you filled the cup.
little did we know, it had a leak.
it's dripping slowly, as we speak.
over bumps we built bridges, rocky roads we held hands.
next to me, by my side...you'd always stand.
then, my hero ****** up.
he spilt the cup.
but he wasn't to blame,
no guiltiness, no shame.
you mopped the floor,
and again..you poured.
the cup freshly filled...
until the next spill.
the crack grew longer,
our bond grew stronger.
but little by little,
it grew too brittle.
his pillows were fluffed.
mine came unstuffed.
his blankets were warm.
mine came torn.
his bed was made.
but, you see i was afraid.
he didn't come home.
my secret is left : unknown.
i hit a blindspot in your rearview mirror.
i tried to hit the wipers so you'd see clearer.
& i tried with all my might.
to get into your sight.
but he was standing there, in the headlights.
& you...flicked on your brights.
there, i stopped, i tumbled...i fell.
no mean to get up, no energy to compell.
so now, i'll try and help you understand,
why i only hold plastic cups in my hand.
i was tired of competing with the one who broke the cup.
and watching, everytime, as you filled it up.
i was tired of running, when he got to walk.
i was tired of staying silent, when he got to talk.
i didn't know you had to fail, in order to win.
i didn't know you had to say goodbye, in order to begin.
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 9, 2014 at 1:27 AM UTC
I don't know why I feel this way
when I see your eyes slowly fading
in the four corners of the room.
You were lying in a king size bed
staring at you losing senses
I see an angel sent from the heaven
I love you when you're asleep
You, lying with your lingerie,
this tempting feeling
it's so ****** but I like too much
wanna kiss you slowly
wanna feel your lips with mine
fresh and warm
a tempest feeling yet sublime
This oozing feeling of pleasure
makes me forget all my pains and sorrow
from the coldness of the night
turns to warmth like sudden distress
of guiltiness that's hard to treasure
Oh! Babe!
wanna feel your caress
wanna feel your wamth
wanna feel your body
wanna feel you touch
The strands of hair all over the pillow
stretch of glory along the horizon
of innocence on a meadow
like ties on a kite
makes you look more ****
wanna hold you tighter and tighter
but I can't hold on too much
It's not that I disrespect you
but watching you sleep pacifies me
like a dangerous drug
it's hypnotizing, heavenly, addicting
wanna stay longer, a little bit longer
I don't wanna lose you girl
Holding back my emotions
Just to watch you sleep
This oozing feeling of pleasure
makes me forget all my pains and sorrow
from the coldness of the night
turns to warmth like sudden distress
of guiltiness that's hard to treasure
Oh! Babe!
wanna feel your caress
wanna feel your wamth
wanna feel your body
wanna feel you touch
It's not that I'm a maniac
I'm just a manic man over in love with you.
Oct 10, 2013
Oct 10, 2013 at 6:43 AM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, maybe we are granted the gift of falling for us to rise up stronger---never suppress what you are feeling even if it is bad---better to let go now rather than haunt you forever;>
Lost in her guiltiness she looks for peace
Lost in herself she looks for the truth
Lost in her mind she looks for a sense
Lost in her thoughts she looks for an escape
Lost in her own lands she realizes the emptiness
Then lost in her emptiness she gathers her bricks and stones
to shield up her demons into a indispensable wall
------ravenfeels
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 5:49 PM UTC
Trapped.
Hurt.
Locked Up.
Only If I Can Escape My Mind.
And Speak Up.
Thoughts I Can‘t Bare.
Hate My Own Guts.
Guiltiness.
Sorriness.
Day‘s I Wished That Never Happened.
People I Wished That Were Never On This Earth.
I Just Want To Dig A Hole And Never Come Out.
Nothing But Emptiness.
Rusty Mind.
Dull days.
Cold Heart.
Hopeless.
People.
I‘m Going ******* Insane Staying Away.
Try Atleast Look On The Brightside.
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 1:19 AM UTC
Beauty of this effortless.
I did not come to swallow of guilty tongue,
Though rightfully, it has been made done.
Having been I to pronounce in unrightful bearing,
Brought down in redeeming unveil in the turning toward you.
My eyes were told to ration my love in foreign experiences,
Such a time that I couldn’t hold back.
Time ran like a moment of memory,
Which was the cause for all motion to remain.
Your defining passerby moment made me consume silence,
Unfolded your presence, expressed your moment to not forget.
Showing guiltiness of my dissonant mind.
Beauty of not any effort, I became an atonement and could not say.
Forthwith that moment, this stride, yours.
To glimpse what I became aware.
Seamlessly this path was made more.
Evermore I mourn to relive it.
Sep 12, 2018
Sep 12, 2018 at 12:20 AM UTC
I would like to die.
Wait…
let me rephrase that
I am dieing
slowly
painfully
in my own guilt
I’ve never really felt happiness
just sorrow and pain
and a pinch of guiltiness
I know how to swim but not as well as my demons do..
if you know what that means
you can only understand
truly if you’ve been through what i’ve been through.
I’m dying and i’m happy while dying
I like to be in pain.
Is that insane?
yeah it is.
oh well does it look like I really care?
I hope not because I really dont give a ****
I like dying
I know i don’t look happy but thats ok i’ll only be here for a little longer
Jul 9, 2015
Jul 9, 2015 at 8:17 PM UTC
A Cop who has heard everything in the book
Except this one statement
"I swear to DWI i'm not drunk"
It's a clear example of guiltiness wrapped around incoherent speech from impairment
Aug 14, 2015
Aug 14, 2015 at 4:54 AM UTC
Sometimes I wish
I never even would have met you, baby
you painted such an ugly picture
now I swear I'm going crazy
the drugs that you on
really got you where you hate me
its just so hard to forget
once you was my special lady
the games that you playing ,
it's not the same my heart is aching
and you saying that you love me
but leaving my heart breaking
we don't belong even in my heart i know it's wrong
gotta get myself moving on
never knew love could be so painful
bring tears to your eyes
that angel that you thinking of
only hurts you deep inside
every night you lie awake
nothing changed still the same
searching through your thoughts
as your heart tries to explain
all the heartache and the pain
the guiltiness and the shame
the heart break
baby can you tell me who's to blame
there used to be a time we was so in love
it was you baby doll i was thinking of
and all my troubles just fade away
never make it feel like yesterday
baby you never make it feel like yesterday...........
my link... http://youtu.be/3L6Vi-lIIKU
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 11:11 PM UTC
No words on a page nor words aloud can make up for this,
In such times, I long to have that first kiss.
Boy I ****** up, failed you one last time,
Now this guiltiness inside proves I committed the crime.
By now I have, upset who I love most,
But yay to moving on, let us praise it in toast.
Oh wait, this is no time for good cheer,
When I ****** up big time, and failed you my dear.
I am a two face, I see it clear as day,
It goes against everything I do and the words that I say.
Im not a liar, I am a monster inside,
I know this, by the tears you have cried.
If you can take me, and love me right now,
I'll make it up to you, I don't care how.
You are all I care for most on this Earth,
The flames of my love burn bright from this hearth.
Jun 2, 2015
Jun 2, 2015 at 8:00 AM UTC
Perhaps when it all comes out in the open,
All the white lies, the little lies, the epic lies,
Of how we responded to the crying planet,
All will be said in a courtroom of compassion.
The lawyers remove their heavy wigs
And plead my case of guiltiness-
“Your honor, the defendant was no more
Able to change the tide than a red ant
Among billions on a jungle floor.
He took his few tons from the planet-
He took what he needed but no more;
He attended all conservation events.
He voted to save bees and elephants,
He abstained from swordfish to save the oceans,
Avoided pesticides and toxic lotions;
He fervently supported free abortions.
And bicycled to save the ozone
(When it was sunny and not too cold).
He purchased ripe fruits from Whole Foods.
He recycled books, old boots and shoes.
He forbade polyester to touch his skin.
He kept his flushes to a minimum.
His got 28 miles per gallon in town.
He never was seen throwing garbage around. "
"Your honor, the murderers of the buffaloes
Have been pardoned by the courts long ago-
It is true, he killed a rooster and a kangaroo,
But evidence shows they were clearly confused
With no reason to be loitering on the roads.
This man is unjustly accused, and if I must say,
Writes poems about the birdsong in May.
From where I sit, the court must acquit!”
The trial continues daily, like reality TV,
But nothing seems to alter prophecies.
What good if I set myself ablaze
Like the Buddhist in the center of Broadway-
I am haunted by a future I cannot explain
Trying to live out my life without blame.
The next generations are unknowable beings-
They will find their beaches in the rising tides
Made of plastic corals and robotic fish;
They will play in virtual forests with android slaves;
With perfect teeth and perfect pitch
The genetically enhanced go off to the galaxies,
In search of planets to greedily consume,
To spread the seeds of the earth and start anew.
What can a simple man as I know of such things?
The jury gives verdicts dispassionately-
For now I’m out on bail, I’m free to go,
No more guilty than my brethren of old
Who slayed the mammoth and fantastical dodo.
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018 at 11:49 PM UTC
I wish I could break myself into a million little pieces.
I want to be used for fun.
Not used to **** the pain.
I wish I could hide.
I wish I could scream at her to out me down!
With a year streaming down her face, she crawls to me for comfort.
I'm afraid to witness the outcome again.
I cause more bad than good at times.
"Put me down," I cry.
She can't hear me though.
My voice is a whisper compared to the devil shouting on her shoulder.
"Take another sip," he scoffs at her.
She listens.
Her children come home and empty me down the drain.
I feel a sudden relief,
Until the next day.
The cycle never ends.
Sadness makes her start.
Guiltiness makes her finish.
And the next day, at the liquor store,
Regret makes her start all over.
Jun 20, 2014
Jun 20, 2014 at 10:23 AM UTC
I listen how the sky covers my soul,
Seconds are flowing over my shutted eyes,
I cry, I laugh, I run and then I’m me anew,
It rains again over my girded cheeks...
I’m troubling the sigh with light-arrangements
I just hide the sparkle of the stars in my eyes
I knead the present that has no guiltiness
Stopping the sad but persistent evil fate’s eye.
I do not seek the obscure, nor yelling for the mystic!
I know they’re all caught in a dance:
Untidy round dance... just breeze is a hypnotic
Who’s found in love’s passion a place...
listening Ennio Morricone - Le vent, le cri
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 12:04 PM UTC
I would like to die.
Wait…
let me rephrase that
I am dieing
slowly
painfully
in my own guilt
I’ve never really felt happiness
just sorrow and pain
and a pinch of guiltiness
I know how to swim but not as well as my demons do..
if you know what that means
you can only understand
truly if you’ve been through what i’ve been through.
I’m dying and i’m happy while dying
I like to be in pain.
Is that insane?
yeah it is.
oh well does it look like I really care?
I hope not because I really dont give a ****
I like dying
I know i don’t look happy but thats ok i’ll only be here for a little longer
Jul 9, 2015
Jul 9, 2015 at 8:16 PM UTC
3 am in the morning
Everybody is sleeping
Some of them are snoring
Maybe others are boozing
And the rest making out and moaning
Conclusion, everyone’s enjoying this night
Doing this doing that
Everybody is busy somehow
Only me lying on this 30 years old sofa
Listening to 90s boring música
And drinking my 3rd bottle of cola
Conclusion again, my prosaic life bores me to tears
Dear TV,
Why don’t these couples within you break up?
They brawl everyday
I don’t understand how they can have 4 children?
Are they ******* human or am I an alien?
Come sit with me and tell me the story
Of those girls that you call **** dolly
I’ve bought a million mirrors
But they all shattered before uttering a **** thing to me
My friends always stick a winkey on my empty yellow smiley
They say mine is so freaking spooky
Honesty I do adore seeing my body wearing on
That pinky ***** they call cutie pouty
Because No one cares either I look nasty or shapely
I’m neither sad nor mad
I’m not jealous but I’m completely pooped
Sick of acting in several movies in one day
I admit that I’m a phony actress
And an unpretty liar
I don’t hate myself but I don’t like it anyway
I’m not blaming you but I can’t get over you
I wish I could turn back time and try to be good for you
One more chance to look prettier than her
One more chance to act cuter than her
Please say it wasn’t my fault if I’m replaced by her
Please help me shut down this voice of guiltiness deep in my heart
I’m begging you to give me one last chance to be better than her
But I can see your beautiful smile smacking your mouth when you look at her
Yes I know you’re living happily now ‘cause of her
So I'm dying to Ctrl C ~ Ctrl V her,
I'm craving to try her up, to feel her, touch her and **** her gravity just to be her
‘Cause she is the one I should’ve been to make you stay
And I’m the one you shouldn’t have met from the start
Aug 28, 2018
Aug 28, 2018 at 2:30 PM UTC
I know the guiltiness of a dusty Bible
Brown specks slipping off my two fingers
Diminishing into my morning coffee,
To make the blend taste a whole lot bitter
Empty sentiments; too deep to be openly cast-off,
Once of someone who had the heart to their devotion
Nowadays it had proved heartless;- so fruitless:
_Still a tree is judged by its fruits._
Jul 9, 2024
Jul 9, 2024 at 7:16 AM UTC
have you ever
hurt someone
you love
and
it hurts you too?
Jul 6, 2019
Jul 6, 2019 at 2:43 PM UTC