Your bodkin, seeking my heart if straight,will find it's target quick,
I'll gladly die an honorable death, still remembering the arrows of cupid,
but if your sword, stealthily moves from behind, in deceit, cuts me down,
denigrates love, let darkness shout, from  where once love solemnly stood,
you'll have to be on your knees to seek forgiveness for this sin, it's no win.

Out of crassitude with gross vision
Awakened to just another lip
service
A mind deaf and obstinate to my
opinion
A heart so hard , the passion
waned
From your cup I tested the wine
felt amiably pleasant in a moment
devine
your decietful tone blurred my
senses
A vocal utterance breaking through
my defences
On the eve of crossing the line
my liberty denied being subject to
your concience
my innerself detected an accurate
vivid sign
A discovery that revealed a Vision
unclear

Trust?
How do you trust someone?
How do you take such heavy risk?
Putting your whole world on hold
Banking on someone's good intentions
And their conscience
Even when you know they are human
And we're inately decietful.
Just how?

Right now I'm afriad
Afraid that I'll loose
Loose it all
All that i invested
Invested in a human
Human like me?

This time, I'll chose to trust.
Or should I?


©2018 Busola S. kolade

Her ceramic mask hid everything I already knew
It's a reflex keeping her soul alive

Smile girl
Smile girl

Laugh when your head hangs heavy
When you never thought you'd breathe deeper than this

It's amazing I've been saying
All the things you're capable of

She might not be as pretty
Might be early aged
Might dance decietful
Making people look more graceful than they actual are

But she can't be any more human
She can't be any more human
than me
or you

She wears a mask
statue hard
and beautiful

Her neck is strong from the weight
People want it to shatter

People who don't wear theirs as well

You've gotta be low to keep people low
You've gotte be willing to be *****
To make others *****

She is better than that

I know this
because I've seen her naked

Flayed her smile
like breaking a clock

She ticks a metronome of humble heartbeat

Is a wonder woman
that makes women wonder
How it is
that she can smile
when being kicked in the mouth
by her own feet sometimes

How she swallows sadness in beautiful breath
palms miming
exaggerating the air in her chest

She knows she can breath deeper than this

I see her for who she is
and who she was
I accept her broken beauty

Relax
we're human
and I don't want to keep you low

Stand up here with me

Where the both of us can see
how our angel wing footseps can keep us light on our toes

I look at her
after the overflow
and I know she wants me to leave her alone

No one wants to be seen
after stepping of scene to change costume

I see you

She steps heavily back into her boot straps
Slides on her angel wing shoes

I tell her I think she is beautiful

She puts on her mask
and says

Thank you

There were once two sisters, two girls
With perfect bodies and beautiful curls 
Ana & Mia, anyone who was anyone knew their names
I wanted people to start noticing me and stop thinking I was plain 
I was told they would help me that was a guarantee
I was told they could work wonders on me
My friends told me they were deadly, told me to stay away
But they promised me beauty at such a small fee to pay
After a while I knew I wouldn't make it without them guiding my way 
I ignored everyone telling me I was just easy prey 
 
Ana & Mia 
The deadliest pair alive
Commited more crimes than Bonnie & Clyde 
More decietful than the Mendez brothers
A casualty rate like no other
They prey on girls with low self esteem 
Just one chat with them and you'll fall apart at the seams 
 
This is the story of how I fell into their trap 
I don't think I'll ever go back 
 
This is how the two of them became my masters 
I was just a plaything for the Nervosa sisters

I want freedom tired of feeling obligated
Trying to make nothing into something
Love yourself before giving your heart away
Been with crazy the bs don't phase me
Tired of being an average joe
Feels like I'm not doing enough
Be a better man not falling back into bad habits
Escape be free be who you're destine to be
Figure out how to be better overcome the setback
Set life straight live without hate
Influence yourself not by others decietful ways
Hoping to get this if not get in and bail out

Everyone thought her lonliness was due to the death of her husband.
In reality it was because she had never revealed her own truths.
Keeping them tucked away, hidden in her capillaries.
The secrets best kept, are the ones we can forget.
She feared exposing what it is that makes her,
resulting in dull conversations that could only please strangers.
Never had she considered that what she was doing was decietful,
but rather just enjoying a life of ignorance.
A child hiding inside, holding back the tears of life.
She has now made a promise--
to never return to his grave, or even speak his name.
For when she saw in her minds eye the bones of her deceased lover,
decaying and rotting away, just like the memories in her old age;
she came to understand the purpose of that cage we call ribs.

Here we are
You will start
Play the card
That
Breaks the heart

Anger
Schemes
You cannot
Take the dreams
And try to give them Reasons

Here's the place
I once was
Where you bit your lip

....not like this


Try to give a reason
That your "love" changes
Like seasons
There are none that
I will hear

Above all else
You are decietful
Above all else
I am not broken

Depression
I used to think
Only of myself
Happiness
Call it home
Even when all of them are gone
I am here
I am

I became
Drunk enough
To scream
Your name
At the star filled
Night
It's alright
It's alright
I never hear your answer

Do you understand?
Do you understand?
That true love would wait forever
That I will sit by
As the sea of blood goes dry
As the sun sets forever
As the wind is full of heat
God has left his seat...
I will wait forever

I am not a poet because I lack maturity,
My writing will always be tainted straying from purity,
There may be days I write my heart and soul,
But no matter how much I write I never feel whole.
I saw the world for its beauty but also its evils,
I've seen people be nice but also be decietful.
I am not a poet for I still find the word **** funny,
But I am fine being me,
Seeing the things I prefer to see.
My immaturity is what makes me how I am,
And if people refuse to accept that part of me,
Then I no longer require them in my life.
Immaturity does not mean I'm never serious,
It simply means I can distort my childlike side into this reality,
In a world where I'm taking orders from bosses,
Taking insults from university professors,
Why can't I retain my child like mind?
I am serious elsewhere, I am a stick in hay at work,
I am everything proper and mature,
But can't I be me when I want to be,
...
Why can't i just keep my childlike humour.
...

So, you are back!
Why did you leave me when I needed you soo much! Where were you then?!
Where were you when my despairing heart led me to seek help from any one who would answer?!
I will not surrender to your healing light, to the light with which you curess me now! It is decietful! You try to comfort me now, but if you were truly warm you would have come sooner! No, mother! You have made me too strong! Too hard! You put me out to dry for too long! And I cracked! Don't leave me! Please don't ever leave me! Why? Why?!

Love is a cruel evil twisted sick kind of joke that is and forever will be played on me to fall in love with someone it's only to set yourself up for a complete and total hurt pain sadness and  heartache that feels like you've been run over a burnt., stompt on and hit ....  no amount of medicine or drugs can make that feeling of Eternal sadness go away every time you fall back in love every inch of the wall you  took so much time and thought into building  up with the bricks of Life past dismay  depression and pain gets crushed into dust due to someone else's self greed and will to be care and  thought free ....... no matter how many times love sinks  it's malicious grasps on your heart it never gets any easier actually it only gets worse now only do you feel the same soul-******* leave you gasping for breath full body pain and suffering you also feel like a fool for allowing yourself to be subject to the worst Dark Cloud gloomy energy-draining sadness that feels like forever may never be enough time for you to heal ......why would someone who says you are there everything and loves you unconditionally want to hurt you and leave you feeling in the Deep spiraling out of control depressed state.......... the initial burst of spine-tingling body warming floating on a cloud feeling love gives is where you get hooked it's the same if not more intense then the feeling of trying drugs for the first time it's Blissful and wonderful it makes you wonder how until this point in life you ever manage to make it through life without it .....you feel like you are on the top of the world then once it's evil and sadistic razor-sharp claws has its death grip on your heart mind ,body ,soul ,and life you start to need it to live  ....and without it  you are mentally and emotionally plus physically sick ....when  you finally  cant take it no more you  decide to rehab yourself and it's a long road ....that you feel like leads to absolutely nowhere and just one more high from it is what you would wish to  have   and for some time is all you can think and dream about .... once you're finally free of The pain and suffering you can finally live again and you may not be happy but you're just thankful to not have to endure that energy draining gloomy endless pit of sadness   consume your every action feel ing u once endured ....now you live consciously of it and then and always remind yourself not to fall prey to Temptations and desires only no matter what you feel that area of emptiness inside yourself just like to helpless pathetic  addict. your relapse is nothing but a foregone conclusion.... you though  think this time it feels different because it's not the same situation as a last time... you know that this time it'll be different and you will never allow yourself to become what you once were....but before you know it it's  heart shattering is desperate All consuming cycle is back in full motion...despite  you're already foreseen the future you like in a blind man on the path to the gates of fears and feelings that will terrorize every inch of every  aspectof your existence you go on just hoping that this is the road to somehow lead to somewhere unknown to you..... when thought of in this sense I can't tell the difference between an addiction and love but my Outlook on love at first looks like the irrational thoughts of a person who has been hurt and withered and beaten from Agony past...... there are people who can use drugs every day and live a normal existence with little to no issues just like a normal happily married forever people who live in love with no major issues for the most people these  exceptions are not what there  experiences have been ...I have come to accept albeit kicking screaming fighting that I am unlovable and helplessly an addict I need to be forever conscience to not let myself fall victim to that decietful  evil always lurking in the shadows of Life burst of initial free as a bird false sense of hope love always lays as a framework to another vicious game of spirit killing days of endless tears in a lifetime of resentment that is an inevitable...... so I ask myself as a hopeless and helpless unlovable addict  to something much worse than any drug imaginable how do I live without the love I so desperately have searched for in all aspects of Life...the  answer is I don't and i need to accept that in life I am set up to live in for ever agony  and eternal sadness of the hopelessly helpless Love phene  have been forcefully made  to accept as my sorrow and lonely life .....maybe it's karma or maybe I just drew the short stick in life whatever it may be I do know one thing is for sure that I would without question undoubtedly give up every other skill and quality I have as a  person to just somehow be able to be lovable as a person and  to find that one person who will without no other reason then.  pure genuism. fill my world ,my life, my body, and my heart with that high I so desperately continue to blindly wander aimlessly in this existence to one day find..... I as just a person and growing weary and tired of the overwhelming anxiety pain sorrow and sadness that the drug of love has and will forever inflict upon my being

love can be deceiving love can also lie

it can lead you on then just say goobye

it can be so cruel it can leave despair

when the love you knew really wasnt there



break your heart in pieces shattered on the floor

love has walked away love is there no more

but we must carry on and find a love thats true

replace the love you had that you never really knew

Gossip is contagious
It doesn't make you coragious after all whom can blame us..
YOU ARE
Decietful , maniacal, disagreeable, to whom you call your people
WE WILL
ignite a light , stand for what's right , come together as one
Because;
I AM
Hope of a Nation, that has at times showed degradation, but as a Nation we must hold hands..
TAKE A STAND
In this world that we live in
Don't take for granted what we have been given, find something to believe in and the nightmare will..
END
Strive to succeed, where others have disagreed because there is only one of you, and only one of
ME.
RAISE YOUR VOICE THE VOICE OF PLENTY IS A VOICE OF MANY.
Light these words came
WE ARE ALL THE SAME
#LOVE FOR ALL
Written by Veronica a.clark Aug 2019

Have this heart learned
How much a name would hurt
Just enough to tug the threads
We would not come to be

Farther and farther
We could have not learned
The sad truth about ourselves
That you and I are utmost almost

We knowingly chose this path
The path of least resistance
And threaded this trapestry of mishaps
Just to have it all snapping back

Reality of us is worst at best
Yet we found all the reasons to ignore
The call and the trace of struggle
Between our decietful smiles

But certain things would not deny
Things will always be
You and I will regretfully bet
Almost will come to be

Always one to think before speaking
Loves everyone; who is fair, equally
Faced betrayal not surprised anymore
Not one to bad mouth others
Nice to my face respect is shown
Lots of tongue lashes to my back
Saw good in them, got proved wrong
Not empowering the decietful behavior
Walked away not connecting to a downgrade
Working to level up get to the next level
Not going back down, been there before
Not one to back down, focused on success not less
Keeping positive head on these shoulders
Too old for games, be real not time for fakes
Speak truth, no time for hate fueled lies

Its crazy how being honest gets you hated while lying cheaters are praised for their decietful actions. Before being in relationship meant putting in time get to know a person with a future. Now a days everyone wants the perks of a relationship without any commitment. Parents told kids what to do, now kids are in Charge. Times have changed like most

Dating it use to be easy you ask a girl out
It was about *** before but it's harder to get to know a person.
Now that you are looking for someone to be your other half share experiences with
The roles have switched times have changed
Women liked men who took charge and preferred to be wined and dined
Now a days everyone wants the perks of a relationship and don't want to commit
No one settles for one love but things being loved by many will last
As I get older it does not get easier sometimes the younger generation are interested and not always a match
Age is just a number but when you feel like your number is being called it's not what you expect
Loyal and true to the wrong people while they accuse you of cheating when they are the ones commiting these decietful acts
Saying I love you to the one feels right when you just say it the word love loses value
Meaningless *** leave you feeling meaningless value lost within from head to toe