Looked into my eyes
You said, "I will be okay"
I don't believe you
          ~
Worried myself sick
I am tired of these lies
Just let me help you
          ~
You don't say a word
I just see it in your face
Sadness spreads from you
          ~
I am here for you
Please, please, please remember that
My heart can't take it

My head is filled with voices
Each have something to say
Telling me to make different choices
Each wants to get their way

I am trapped in a box of confusion
Inhaling water of a million oceans
My broken parts have suffered complete immersion
My heart has dealt with a thousand erosions

The voices chew through my nerves
Like acid
Their tone of voice swerves
Their faces placid

I have a gift for pretending
Keeping this smile on my face
As if my world was not ending
Even though that is the case

I miss the way things used to be
I miss my old reality
I miss the way we used to sing
We'd sing about anything

I miss the smiling
The old laughter
Now there is only whining
Among the chatter

But the old days
Have come and gone
The old ways
And the old songs

I'm left with the pieces
The shattered remains
Can't hear what anyone says
Just broken refrains

I wish that I could take it all back
Return to the past
Slip through the cracks
Make everything last

But the old days,
The old songs,
The old smiling,
The old laughing,
The old dancing,
        
               It's
                                     all
                                                         g    o   n    e

I used to dream but now I know
Dreams are just ignorant nightmares
Just ideas with nowhere to go
And no one who really cares

I want to have hope
I wish for a light
But depression says, "nope"
I'm left in the darkness of night

I cry alone
So no one hears
I'm on my own
To face my fears

Suffer in silence
Let no one see
This became my guidance
And then my reality