SCHEDAR: Poems

Apr 4 · 382

SCHEDAR Apr 4

Sit quietly now
and look
beyond the page

the blurs
outside the lines
and patterns
shape the hours
in our days

gently shade my creamy skin
in creases, tints and hues

creating a colorful universe

just a crayon
me and you

#imagination #focus #creativity

Apr 1 · 242

going dark

SCHEDAR Apr 1

going dark

the snake
the bite
and
the anecdote
chase each other
through the same
shared stream of blood

gaining nothing
but the nerves they are put upon

abrasive
obsessive

circulating
within itself

a toxic enclosure of self loathing

Later, after being caught up in the storm
a shred of torn, frayed fabric
waves from the top spokes
of the surrounding
hard wired fence

its fibers flowing free

dressed as herself now
the wind carries nothing

wearing only her last words

nowhere
to be found

#clarity #dysfunction #ptsd #ocd #therapy #healing #hope #storm

Mar 30 · 706

texting God

SCHEDAR Mar 30

texting God

-I know underneath all that, she's a good person

I just need a hand getting there....

Warning:
(Long distance charges may apply)

Mar 29 · 181

ever since

SCHEDAR Mar 29

ever since

The presence of the Evergreen

how boldly she stands
commanding only
that we are grateful
for her beauty

how effortlessly she sways
in whispers
making pure
the air we breathe

how tenderly her pyramidal silhouette
fills the surrounding domain
with protection and hope

how humbly she invites
the glow of
sunset's golden embers
to ignite her pine candles
accenting her adorned humility

Ever reminding us
the nature of peace

Ever since I was a little girl
there was an Evergreen across the street
Day by day we watched each other grow
Only in recent years did I realize how she far surpassed me in length
all 50 feet of her
I began to notice at sunset how she would call to me to look at her, though not with words,
but golden hues igniting her branches
like a warm fire scouting out my soul
The peace I felt was like a spiritual awakening
that which only nature could supply

One day someone informed me
they were taking her down
I became grief-stricken over it..
like the loss of a close friend
I've had a longing for her ever since
I have never experienced another tree call to me in that way, though nature continues
to call

#peace #hope #loyalty #loss #nature

Mar 28 · 195

Natural Light

SCHEDAR Mar 28

Natural Light

Walk along the city streets
butterscotch sky
sun-shower
bittersweet

There on the curbside sits an old painting

A Ballerina

lying with the rest of the trash
waiting to be picked up

The drizzle drains the color from the canvas but not
the natural light from the dancer
who
in all the noise and distortion
forgot her steps
along the way

#survival #greed #hunger #loss #light #hope

Mar 26 · 83

on any giving day

SCHEDAR Mar 26

on any giving day

- when reflecting
on the soul in the mirror
and what she has given
I thought,
beauty
is not about how we look
it's
about how we are

Mar 8 · 427

Current

SCHEDAR Mar 8

Current

A pull
that holds me strong
to the here and now

A charge
that carries me across the wire
when I am down

The only precious current that flows in truth

Adrift,
the only spark of light
that grounds me

is you...

#faith #devotion #love #depression #truth

Mar 7 · 468

burden

SCHEDAR Mar 7

burden

Drenched in the ink of a dripping black cloud

unleashed from above, always keeping her down

The umbrellas collapse, the wind blows over, but the sad little cloud continues to hover

Mar 4 · 137

devocean

SCHEDAR Mar 4

devocean

Lost at sea
they parted ways

Faith
focused on new horizons

Folly
drowned in crashing waves

Feb 19 · 559

simplicity

SCHEDAR Feb 19

simplicity

Lost is she
in the shade
beneath a tree

All chaos
left behind
she is free to
change
her mind

Apr 2023 · 296

divorce

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

divorce

A child wandering
a forest wilted green
disenchanted
with a heart of abandonment
where leaves covered her ears
to protect
and time froze
and her screams, muted
and the grounds were cold and hard
and touch too painful
and what seemed as though
then, the way out
was nowhere....

Apr 2023 · 310

love letters

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

love letters

After years of his words
being put to rest..

I dug up a tomb of letters
embedded deep within the
foundation of my heart...

Resurfacing memories
that at best, should've
remained buried

Apr 2023 · 152

thorn bush

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

thorn bush

Thank you for
the invite to
your beautiful home

The sun's rays
lay a welcome mat
across the manicured lawn

I'd really love to stop in
but I get so hurt passing through

all the piercing, prickly thorns
your insecurities once grew

When you're not really welcome at all

Apr 2023 · 1.5k

tomorrow never came

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

tomorrow never came

You said we'd spend tomorrow
together
but you never told me your
name

I waited a lifetime

Tomorrow,
never came

#brokenpromise #hurt #longing #heartbreak

Apr 2023 · 1.4k

going down

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

going down

Sometimes
here...
       I step in
          then
               disappear...
desire,
          the upper floor
depress the wrong button
               closing the door
instead,

                I am going

                         down

#depression #anxiety #fear #phobia #therapy

Apr 2023 · 1.2k

listen up

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

listen up

His forgiveness
redirects me
over and
over again
to
listen up,
and become
the best self
that I can

#jesus #forgiveness #strength #healing #harmony #truth

Apr 2023 · 602

dives

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

dives

I swim in
dreams
of
Maldives

turquoise, blue
tranquil trance

stingray's sea bed
belly dance

#guided #imagery #spiritual #tour #peace

Apr 2023 · 2.0k

in a crowd

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

in a crowd

Vivid memories
silently
cry out loud
everytime I look for
your face in a crowd
The ones I'm with
don't have a clue
I'm smiling at
them, but looking
for you.....

Apr 2023 · 464

tropical ice

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

tropical ice

I listen for your voice
on lonely, humid nights
chilling,
like tropical ice
the way you once
held me so tight
then, just let me
slip away.....

Apr 2023 · 273

bridge

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

bridge

When yesterday's fears
emptied out of dark tunnels
from beneath their precious feet
thirst held out her arms
like a nurturing mother,
crafting a bridge
connecting all their
hopes and dreams

Apr 2023 · 337

April

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

April

In secrets, whispers
and swirls of blushing veils
she strolls a walkway lined with
cherry blossoms
taming
the seaside April sails

Apr 2023 · 190

framed

SCHEDAR Apr 2023

framed

Shackled within a
stressed, wood stain finish
farewell faces pressing up
against the glass
the image of a perfect family
the only good memory
that would last

Mar 2023 · 172

3:10 am

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

3:10 am

Turbulent upbringings
often teach one
to write out the storm

Mar 2023 · 888

pillow

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

pillow

you and me
as far
as the eye
can see
I will love you
I will hate you
but,
forever
I will
remember
your name

Mar 2023 · 597

dimension

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

dimension

In the fine lines
of her face
wisdom now fills
the space
on the flat surface
of doubt
where once upon,
began a lifetime

Mar 2023 · 192

silly labyrinth

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

silly labyrinth

Be careful
not to fall
for her
tricky ways
she confuses
and keeps you
wandering deep
in her convoluted
maze
She is dark
You never know
what she wants
nor does she
she is fluid
she just likes to see
you squirm
She is jealous
there is nobody better than her
or else
She is cold
She twists words
into sour lemons
makes you question yourself
wondering who you are
in her convoluted maze
The trick is to know
you will never please her
so if she invites you
into her silly labyrinth
respectfully decline

Mar 2023 · 172

rush

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

rush

He was a drug
delivered
right into my needy
arms
while you were looking
the other
way

Mar 2023 · 390

rock bottom

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

rock bottom

After
a series of binges,
self awareness
chased
the nightmare
into
a dream of
recovery

Mar 2023 · 216

nautical twilight

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

nautical twilight

The evening rush
packs up daylight,
inside a suitcase
bound for stars....
Beads of heavy haze
swallow lights
of the vineyard
Flying within a
seamless horizon,
Atlantic's blackness
seals the night
Love's blindness,
love's chaos
dissolve into
the
nautical twilight

Mar 2023 · 706

insult

SCHEDAR Mar 2023

insult

The
gravity of it all
always putting me

down

Feb 2023 · 397

Blaze

SCHEDAR Feb 2023

Blaze

She
sits upon the sunrise....
Blaze,
filters through her hair...
Her
woolen hat and smile,
warm the city's air

He
sits upon a setting sun
his
fingers glow with pride
as he
draws his sunrise princess
closer
to spend the evening
by his side

Feb 2023 · 221

Remnant

SCHEDAR Feb 2023

Remnant

She is panning for forgiveness
through the darkest sands of time
minerals from charred bone
fill the silt, left far behind
Remnants of tarnished memories
let guilt fossilize the years
how she longs to melt those frozen crystals, back into her own tears

Cry for the silence
Cry for the screams
Cry for the freedom
that forgiveness finds
in dreams

Feb 2023 · 311

Sounds of Saturn Spinning

SCHEDAR Feb 2023

Sounds of Saturn Spinning

Only with you
can time stretch forever
where it feels
like an endless walk
circling the Earth

Round and round we go
like giggling children,
heightening our
senses to new altitudes.....

Dizzy,
we gaze into
each other's eyes,
exploring the depths
of gravity's absence

Floating,
we pass the
city's evening moon
listening for the
echoing sounds of
Saturn spinning...

Feb 2023 · 613

doubt

SCHEDAR Feb 2023

doubt

Big,
open
doorway
of doubt,
are you in
or
are you out?

Feb 2023 · 669

god's glue

SCHEDAR Feb 2023

god's glue

The same
LOVE
that breaks
us
a p a r t
can put
us
back together
even
s t r o n g e r

Jan 2023 · 282

insomniac

SCHEDAR Jan 2023

insomniac

There was a silent snake slithering deep into her sleepless self, stealing all her dreams
one by one

Dec 2022 · 341

Launch

SCHEDAR Dec 2022

Launch

I will see you in a short while
she says, as she rises, balancing
the sunset beneath her feet
glowing,
thrusts on to her toes
reaching up
exhaling
parting a soft curtain of cloud
climbing, to enter, to explore
a stardust gate of lights

Dec 2022 · 981

many moons ago

SCHEDAR Dec 2022

many moons ago

She is pale, her eyes strain
looking back at them,
many moons ago
a simple place, a simple time
together, on fire
Just the mere glimpse of their warm memories, she becomes aware that she can withstand the cold rush of any lonely time that may come her way.
The color returns to her face as she now understands that there is so much strength in the foundations of love, she will pull through

The strength in memories of love can take us through many hardships

Dec 2022 · 307

delicate cycles

SCHEDAR Dec 2022

delicate cycles

Folding time
at the
Laundromat
becomes costly when
washing away the blues
then,
drying the tears

The art of doing laundry
can be most therapeutic

Nov 2022 · 344

yours

SCHEDAR Nov 2022

yours

You struck like lightning
your rain embedded my skin
like pearls trapped in lace
my interior soaked you in
no ceilings, no doors
no gravity, no floors
just floating,
I became
yours

The spacial disorientation of love

Nov 2022 · 617

cascade

SCHEDAR Nov 2022

cascade

SHE
hurts
so,
she
hurts

Nov 2022 · 797

THE GREAT AND POWERFUL IT

SCHEDAR Nov 2022

THE GREAT AND POWERFUL IT

Even though
it
is wrong,
she continues
it
to carry on

Nov 2022 · 326

rise

SCHEDAR Nov 2022

rise

inhale
open road horizon
breath taking
breaking her eyes in
a new day
pierces upon a sharp bed
of emerald blades
bleeding into a scorching yellow,
orange blaze
only their skies

provoking a rise

Oct 2022 · 574

Sound

SCHEDAR Oct 2022

Sound

Forever chasing songs
within the wind
so I remain
safe in
sound

#music #lovers

Oct 2022 · 199

enabling hand

SCHEDAR Oct 2022

enabling hand

Follow me, she says
down this thrilling flight of stairs
this way you can
rescue me when I begin to
feel vulnerable or scared
As frightening as it is to me
I'll always go back for more
it's so much more exciting than
being called ordinary, or a bore
So I will continue to dig myself
into depths as far down as I can
together we'll share my misery
come, give me your hand

it takes practice putting the shovel down

Oct 2022 · 516

change

SCHEDAR Oct 2022

change

I wasn't crying over the dollar I broke
I was crying over the change

Oct 2022 · 331

root

SCHEDAR Oct 2022

root

Every branch
every tree
every dance
rooting to be free

Oct 2022 · 366

beleaf

SCHEDAR Oct 2022

beleaf

If I was a leaf surrounded
by love
and everyone I loved
was leafing
I would hold on
tightly to the dream
of reconnecting one day,
and never stop
beleafing

Sep 2022 · 301

Mania of fall

SCHEDAR Sep 2022

Mania of fall

Don't let me burn out again
as the dust of ash I can only
blow away
rather, be not that
but on fire
instead

Sep 2022 · 242

stage

SCHEDAR Sep 2022

stage

Sad,
the only times
we got along
were when I
was your
audience