The lack of sound creates
a pressure on my body
my skin, my flesh,
it doesn't exist
my bones are silently fading
as my soul has less and less space
to stay

I don't move
the world is floating around me
but I'm chained to the ground
they don't make a sound
I'm powerless

I'm laying down
letting the void devour all
I look at the light
from the tiny lamp
but I can feel how silent it is

Do I exist?
Did I even exist at all?
I could make a sound
but I couldn't hear a thing
I'm shouting in my mind
hoping for an echo

running
out
of

It's been a while
Since I came here
It's been a while
Since I thought about you

If flowers are supposed to bloom
Why have I always been dead
If love is supposed to last forever
Why am I all alone

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a hole in my soul
craving a piece
on this earth
longing to my own hell

keeping me from bleeding
there's more love than blood
it drowns all
everything i touch

holding me
it's only us
i breathe you in
and i sink

not sealing
it's expanding
i'm drowning
so softly

ready to leave
finally understood
i see the deep
nothing left to hold me here

falling apart
turning to ashes
i'll hold you in
until it's over

You have been holding me
Like a flower in your palms
I tried to wither but
You held me tighter

I felt like I'm slippery
Like a fish you want to tame
I tried to jump back to the water
But you didn't let me

Now your embrace hurts
Your grip is drowning me
In my own tears of sorrow
And not the ground underneath

I want to be one with the stars
I want the moon to comfort me
I want it to take me where I belong
Two feet under a bouquet of rose

I never asked for you
But you came anyway
Thank you for the chance, Life
But I would now walk away

Yov've lost my respect
I would have
Died for you
And come back

I would have
Walked trough hell
Living and buried
To see your light again

I wasn't scared
Of the universe
I was shouting
From the top of my lungs

But you chose fear
Over me
My throat hurts now
And you left your lips covered

You told me you admire how confident I was about who I am
And you wished you could be so strong

Little did you know that inside
I'm just a little girl with tears in her eyes
Begging you not to leave me alone

Hiding behind a sarcastic smile

I'd think you like rhymes,
but my heart doesn't sing like that anymore.
My only wish is that some day
the words I have left reach you.

It's been a long time
and everything has changed since.
Over and over again,
really, it couldn't be any more different.

The one thing that stayed
is you, haunting my dreams.
There was a song,
that said "she was too young"

I was too young.
I don't live with a constant regret
I wouldn't give my life back
as it is what I want for the rest of time.

But sometimes, some nights
you creep into my sleep,
and I wake up with my heart in pieces
knowing you forgot I exist.

For the last time,
I will tell you, maybe future you
that you took a piece of my soul
and it will always be there.

If on a cold, winter night
you feel alone and hopeless
know that someone is out there
who will always care.

I remember the night
You became my best friend
The night I always want to remember

Fighting my tears
Drowning by the pain
But you held my hand all along

Told me you're here
Told me that I'm the most important
And nothing could make that change

Thank you for all of it
Because you're the one who
Gave me a reason to go forward

Thank you for
Being who you are
And always being there

Thank you, Me
For fighting by my side
Despite how much I've hurt you

he's here

and once again i fall slowly
light as a feather
gravitating to the river
to be washed away
by the peaceful flow