It's 10:57 the next day & I'm still mad.
I suppose you're mad too , rightfully so.
Why is this **** so hard for US ?
I've been smoking **** since I woke up .
It calms me .
I am numb .
BUT , is it weird that this is turning me on ?
From the master bedroom , I crave you .
Why are we mad again ?
I want to forget .
I want to submit to MY man!
I repent !  I repent !
**TO BE CONTINUED

I didn't want him to pull out .
His kiss .
His breathing .
His touch .
Captivated my mind and elevated my soul .
For the first time, in a long time
I feel free to be in love .
I didn't want him to pull out.
The sensation is too right.
The conversations were of substance .
You were mind blowing .
Still is . . I still don't . .
Want you to pull out .

See , the power we share when we are together .
Only the universe can destroy .
When life sent us heartache .
We came back with a decoy .
When problems arise ,
We'll work together .
Whatever you do , don't pull out stay here forever .

**** it !
**** the problems .
**** the chaos .
**** society. I am ME .
I am edgy .
I am raw .
I am sweet .
Just what you need .
But , **** it !
**** the money ,
**** the bills ,
I need peace !
I smoke **** , yes im lady
But **** it , it's my relief!
& I'm tired of conforming to these ******* *** rules !
& To be honest I haven't used any of the tools from high school .
So **** it .
I only have one life to live .
On a search to find myself ,
I have no ***** to give .

Serious question , are any of you guys songwriters ?
If so , comment below .
Thanks !!

Don't be the "8" ball .
Please , avoid the hole.
Being shameless is one thing.
Darling , but don't be too bold.  

I know you have a lot of wisdom
I know you possess alot of sass .
I know you're an asset to this world .
So you must at all times act with class .
Don't let the world stir you up .
It'll get you in a frenzy .
You may block your own blessings
... Looks like the "8" ball Is winning ...

Hi , I am she .
She who is lost .
She who constantly needs validation ...
For she is not capable of any healthy relations ...
She who controls you so much with LOVE .. you die .

She who questions her looks ,
Am I enough ?
She who is simply insecure .

YOU , made me this way .
Always making me wonder .

Always a **** mystery .
You played me better than a gambler .

Light your cigarette ...
Then pass it to me ...
You are unworthy of peace of mind .

Im insecure ,
because I keep you .
Knowing I could replace you at the drop of a dime .

You know I love you , right ?
& That I think you're amazing .
I just can't shake this feeling ,
It's becoming unsettling.
The way I've become so
Possessive over you .
The lack of trust is the cause.
I wish you hadn't lied ..
Then apologized..
Then lied again .
Why the hell did you make this **** so hard .
I said I would stay so you're expecting me to TRY .
But sometimes it's hard for me to try when YOU got us in this bind .