You took a chance
saw my wilted petals,
the people passing by
hearing them say
I was too far gone
and watered me
with your words
you took the time
you trimmed the leaves
you turned the soil
you planted my roots deep
you shone your light
you brought me back to life

Maybe you’ve known me your whole life
Maybe I just met you last night
I just hope I’ll be all you’ll ever need
If I’ve already met you,
I pray that I notice you the moment
You notice me
If our paths have yet to cross
I pray I’m ready for you
And that you are open to all of my possibilities
My insides are full of infinite beginnings and endings
you get to decide how you choose our fate

I just pray that I am ready for surrender
Because
I have held up this sword and shield for so long
I don’t know
what I’m fighting against anymore
I’m afraid I’ve been fighting my demons for so long
That I don’t even remember how the war started
But I promise I’ll fight for you
I’m not sure if I want you to be a warrior
Or a lover
Can it be both?
Can the two swim together in balance,
Or do they battle to the death?
You can come and go as you please
Just promise you won’t do me like the rest

I gave you my heart
My trust, my love
And you took it
And more.

You took it for granted
You took it for a given
You took it for a ride
And when it suited you,
You left it behind,
Thinking you could double back
And pick it up later.

This time when you came looking for it
It was too far gone.

you’ve stolen so much of my soul,
i’m still trying to remember who i was

There are leads on my chest
to detect any vagaries within
but you are the best heart monitor
circulating in the deep vessels and chambers
checking what pulses and moves in me.
I trust you there
in the darkest parts of me
where life wanders.

I feel like I’m in the eye of the storm,
Im so calm yet chaos surrounds me,
What do I do,
Do I try or do I give up,
Cause sometimes when it comes to expectations you can never live up,
Ive never been insecure,
You bring my greatest fears to life,
To think I wanted you to be my wife,
I want to trust you but you make it so hard,
I want to love you but would it be best for me to love you from a far ?
You left a permanent scar on my heart,
You know the same one that you ripped apart,
And now you want to try ? Why ?
Sometimes I think you get enjoyment when I cry,
Thing is if I was with someone else I would be treated better,
Im tired of putting aside my pride,
I just wish you’d just play my side,
I really hope this doesn’t end up in a fight,
Because all I want is for you to act right.