Such a shame

Whose cause is the effect?

Where are the shoulders
that should carry the blame?

Why and how
could one ignore
the awesomely
tragic regret?

Who are the they?

Those whom to blame
The guilty one that bares
little or no remorse

Should that one be indicted
tried and judged convicted
of High Crimes unto
Unspeakable Treason?

The unforgiven, unforgivable
...unforgiving Patriot

Purposed to rebellion
against the established order
Conscripted from birth unto the Eternal Blessed Revolution

Running insubordinately
when instructed to stand still
Walking when ordered to sit
Standing when advice from all is to lay down

Blame me for surely
without doubt
it must be all my fault

Such a shame

Blame Me.

-R.

(6.1.10)
-Hlywd

Regret all you want
You'll always remember and
I'll never forget

rest your fingertips upon my gentle skin, the surface of within. puncture through and watch me bleed, satisfy your sin.

The more I find out about family
History
I realize
That being a traitor
Is simply in my bloodline
I'm a cheap rosé
Pretending to be fine wine
From French nobility
To Spanish pride
My ancestors wrought havoc
On their own modern times
It's time for me to step up to the plate
And make my choice
To grow into the role I was assigned
Or write my own lines
But whatever I choose
The choice is mine
And I know whoever I am
I'll be great
remembered
divine,
How do I know?
It's simply in my bloodline.

"look at anxious annie, anxious again"
"why is anxious annie always crying"
oh annie how naive are you
you can't have nice things
you don't get to have true friends
best friends never keep secrets
you told her everything annie
you told her how anxiety was the only thing that could hurt you if people made jokes
when she suddenly decided to call you anxious annie you should've known
you built up those walls so high but she weaseled her way in
but when you forgave her that was your fault
you told her about carving your wrists
you shouldnt have been surprised when everyone knew the next day
or when people started staring at your wrists when they thought you couldnt see them
after all annie
isn't the phrase
fool me once shame on you
fool me twice shame on **me