They say to me
This is the day
Created by my Lord
It is a gift
From the Most High

But this day
It feels like a burden
It feels broken
I want to return it
Because this day
This is where I am
Depressed
Anxious
Ill
Tired
Terrified
Ugly
This is when I weep

I don’t mean to be ungrateful
I’m just a confused child
I’m so lost
I’m so tired
And so broken
And I just don’t know
What to do with
This day

The past and present, before and after,
lows and highs, are no disguise.
Yet to my surprise, the bad and good,
they build us up, as life should.

To persevere is to prepare
for the battles that are to come.
If you fail, just try again
to prevail and say you won.

Not to brag, but to be a winner,
learn from the losses; with it comes wisdom.
A smarter self, a stronger soul;
Those who never try will never know.

Dig your feet deep in the dirt.
Don't be afraid to put in work.
Do your best as if it today
did not promise you a tomorrow.
[ TODAY IS A NEW DAY ]

@desire.is.dope
20190415
1120HRS

Rain ............ Freezing rain yet again
One of those days where the morning never ends.and tomorrow can't wait to begin . I think of myself as my own friend . I see myself often enough to pretend . I can't even kid around no matter how many letters I send . I keep dreaming a life like a tree where I climb to the top to see the end . Then it's on repeat where I fall back down again . I sit here and there in silence to mend . Before I stand back up an climb once more like I meant. On sunny days I put up my tent , because sometimes that energy , I don't get . I Kindle a fire so farfetched. That I would just love to forget. I'm not quite okay yet . Just me , my friend , and I , we've all met . and everytime the **** gets heavy , we jet. We run through forests and hills till we fall into a unforgettable pit . And we sit , in silence , and wait for how dark it can get .

Today
I plan to be
properly productive –
not let time get away from me.
But it’s half past eight. I’ll begin at nine.
Now it’s nine-twelve. I’ll start at ten…
…And that’s how, somehow, I
got nothing done
today.