the stifled sound rumbling on the tip of my tongue eager to come out. It roars with happiness and excitement from what it seems. But behind that exotic laugh is a soul. The laugh hides the soul keeping it hidden from outsiders. The laugh keeps a delightful smile on someones face. Everyone wants to feel happy..even if it is for a split second. That laugh takes your mind away from the dreadful thoughts of suicide or the painful outlook of what is called you life. The laugh takes away the pain as if were an antidepressant. But what happens when the laugh stops...that dreadful pain resumes to what is reality as it consumes your identity as a whole.
Tight frayed nerves Agitation lives in my veins The pain in my hands keeps me awake Begging the dark to put me at ease Pushing consciousness away Please make it go away Relieve my tight skin and stifled breath Panic clenching my lungs in its fist
I love you. I want nothing but the best for you. You love me But you just don't want to be hurt by me; Your passive aggressive threats, Your unwarranted mistrust of me, The constent questions, the tests. Love is supossed to fly and be free, But all I feel is loves firm grip on my throat its talons digging in to my very soul, Bleeding me of my empathy. Am I in this love to fulfill a role? Is this now my reality? I'm cracking under the pressure My psyche beaten and bruised by your ups and downs. You say "this is a love that's forever" I smile at you but this smile hides a frown
I love you but it feels like it needs an -e and a -d because I don't want the love you give me