The kid is talking to themself again

And gets called a freak

But they don’t care

Because they always have someone there




“Your friends aren’t real.”

Said the child’s mother

The kid covered their ears and ran

But the friend only smiled




The laughs that cried

Out into the night

So their parents came

To shut off the bedroom light




“It’s time to grow up”

Said the father

But the true friend offered an escape

And reached out their hand




The darkness shifted

To the world of dreams

And then they ran

Hand in hand




“You child is lost in an illusion

“They need to get rid of it”

Tears in their eyes, not wanting to let go

But when they turned around, there was nothing there




So they grew up alone

A life now forgotten

There was no one to talk to

So they cried themself to sleep




“Just make some real friends”

I told them

But then I realize

You were never there all along

When their eyes meet
And I wish I was you
I'd be holding your hand
Oh what would I do


I can't see the world
When covered in cloud
Will everything change
If you lift up this shroud


You fill my dreams
On the lonely nights
If only you were here
To shine down your lights


I'm hopelessly chasing
A dream I can't pursue
My head is spinning (a)round
Trying to find you


I can't walk straight
When you aren't here
But I've long since accepted
That you'll soon disappear




All I want
Forever no more than a dream
Is to know what it's like
to be loved by you~

Warning: Suggestive Content
TV Girl Inspired song


Laughing

the party

it was a bit too loud

but we didn't care




The smell of cigarettes

the warm humid air between the bodies

we were young and dumb

maybe that's all there was to it

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You had too much to drink

and so did i

one thing led to another

and the door shut behind us




You liar

you fool

i gave you what you wanted

is this the harsh truth




The next time I saw you

you tried once more

but you never looked at me

for i was long out of your memory

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I figured out your plan

but all too late

you think your smart

but your actions cause hate




I can't stand to see you

and your stupid smile

You play around

for you

there are no consequences




You keep breaking their hearts

It will come back someday

When no one is left

to play




~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You had too much to drink

and so did i

one thing led to another

and the door shut behind us




You liar

you fool

i gave you what you wanted

is this the harsh truth




The next time I saw you

you tried once more

but you never looked at me

for i was long out of your memory

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~







\\\\\­\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\

You talk and talk

but you never do

you call me what you want

but you never pay attention
to who you *****

so now you blame me

for your broken heart

but on the other side

you always did it too

what a pitiful hypocrite

did you not listen

or did i not make my intentions clear?

/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You had too much to drink

and so did i

one thing led to another

and the door shut behind us




You liar

you fool

i gave you what you wanted

is this the harsh truth




The next time I saw you

you tried once more

but you never looked at me

for i was long out of your memory

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~







You *****

I bet it wasn't your first time

your first time abandoning

the one who loved you

I'm just gonna-gonna do my best
**** the rest
I'm just gonna-gonna do my best
**** the rest
I'm just gonna-gonna do my best
**** the rest
I'm just gonna-gonna do my best
**** the rest...

it's not fair
i'm still here and you're no longer there
the gold streaks have faded from my hair
life goes on but it's just our cross to bear

i'm sorry
i didn't get to tell you more
i'm sorry
i had to ever shut that door

wish i could've heard your demons
wish i could've seen the signs
even after all these years
i still focus on the good times

dude,
popping counterfeit percocet
you don't even see the trouble that you're in yet
the high lasts forever, you never come down
i guess we all learned our lessons by now

you're lost in the past, and so am i
waiting for the hour hand to tick on by

you got off early, i'm still on for the ride

it neither killed me,
nor made me stronger,
it did a third thing

~

got angels and devils sitting on my shoulders, in my ears
these different parts of me— you’ve seen them through the years

i live in fragments
i'm never whole
it's not the life i thought i'd lead
at least it's never ******* dull

i lost my head
found these instead
and never felt quite like 'me' again

even when i’m alone
i’m never lonely

~

i hear the voices
from the inside out
oh stop; i recognize that look you're giving me:
"why keep it hidden from us until now?"

i don't recall much from after ten years old
let’s call that 'brain rot'
lost memories of repeat awful happenings
that i still don't know if i deserved or not (you didn’t)(x2)


the only one who ever truly knows what's going on is you

gotta have it all— you’re never satisfied
open up your mouth to speak but all i hear are lies
you can try to outrun this but there’s nowhere left to hide
wearing your defiance down, just like you did with mine


heartbreaker
manipulator
punching holes in his walls but tells you he’s your ‘savior’
makes your face his phone background then goes and breaks it later
message to those in his vicinity: YOU ARE IN ******* DANGER


do you remember? don’t try to deny it
standing by the window in your dejected silence
the day you mystifyingly transformed my No’s into willing compliance

you say i’m always in my head
that it’s like talking to the dead
wish i was someone else instead
somebody "normal"


hanging onto every word they said
the lies and rumors they used to spread


you say it’s all inside my head
that you love me but you’re in her bed
wish you were someone else instead
somebody "normal"