sometimes the shortest sentences
show the most meaning,
from the first "I love you"
to the final "I do"
the words either send chills up your body,
paint a smile across your face,
or, if you're lucky, both
**** the deadline.
****** the word limit.
maul the teacher.
stabs my heart
wasn't worth it at all.
I don't want to shrink my work, you hellcats.
If letters on a keyboard are building blocks,
I want to build the most beautiful masterpiece.
Fitting different letters together into words,
And words into sentences.
I want these sentences to deliver thoughts that will make people's lives better.
Written 21 October 2018
Can you read what you read?
I'm sure you can and there's no need to ask.
But it's weird.
Feeling through symbols.
Combining symbols to make sense.
But some combinations are wrong.
Making sounds for symbols.
Saying the symbols correctly.
Different accents for symbols.
Drawing symbols, making them look pretty.
Fonts for symbols.
Imagine. We are ruled by systems of symbols.
a character representing one or more of the sounds used in speech
these no longer fit together to form the words i need to talk to you
a single distinct meaningful element of speech or writing, used with other words to form a sentence
these seemingly simple elements of speech don't seem to work together to become the sentences i want to say to you
a set of words that is complete in itself
i look at you and suddenly my mind is no longer capable of putting together the sentences i long to give you
this started out as a poem for a boy but became a poem about my difficulty to communicate at times
"its as if the taste never leaves my open mouth"
"that kiss only coming about because leaping into your body was easier than crawling"
"and the need to breathe was so strong"
"with the mint smoke that rose into the sky surrounding and smothering"
"everything the eyes could swallow without fear of choking"
"because feeling complete was more important that simply living in distant agony."
“i love you, but you make me feel cold on the inside. my bones start to ache; no, not in desire. they’re trying to warn me”
“- being alone like that must have been awful
- you say that as if i’m not still alone”
“don’t you understand that you won’t be happy until you love me? this is for you. all of this has been for you”
“i don’t have enough time”
“i thought it would be easier, you know? after all of.. this. i just thought it couldn’t get any harder, but like usual, i was wrong”
“the idea of us together makes me gag”
“what happened to you? you used to be so warm. now you’re ice. i’ve tried to thaw you out, but it’s hopeless. no one can help you anymore”
“this darkness is the only thing i can truly rely on these days”
“do you know how many times i cried over you?”
all of these sentences were either said to me or i said myself.
I am human.