#selfsabotage poems on Hello Poetry

Odalys 1d

He saw me with hunger, with eyes far too crude,
Reduced all my magic to flesh and to mood.
But did you notice the spark in my wit?
The jokes, the brilliance, the fire I lit?

I’m more than the body you hurried to claim,
A storm, a sunbeam, a soul with a name.
So laugh if you missed it, stay blind if you choose—
I’m art, I’m comedy, I’m the best thing you’ll lose.

#lustful #clueless #selfsabotage

Sherri Woodman Aug 10

Cause and Effect

How do you plug up the ocean once the flood gates are opened How do you reverse the hands of time once you've already crossed the line Accomplished liar, mendacious mind Devil and demon both combined Somehow it finally caught up or maybe I've finally had enough Angry outbursts in attempts to control me instead of talking and trying to hold me You did this and you **** well know it That bridge is burned and that's the matches you're holdin' You couldn't get out of your own way That's cause and effect that you're learning today

#cause #and #effect #selfsabotage #abuseliarlinestepperboundariesrespect

S t a r 𓇼𖦹 Aug 4

Built to break

A never-ending pattern,
my own internal fight.
I get attached too easily,
pour my soul into others,
give them my all
and leave nothing for myself.

Maybe if I make them happy,
keep them safe,
they’ll stay this time.
Maybe for once,
I won’t be left
empty-handed,
rebuilding again.

A never-ending pattern,
my own quiet war.
Maybe if I give enough,
they’ll finally like me.
Maybe I’ll finally be loved
without having to beg.
Maybe I’ll finally be wanted
without having to bribe.

Until then, my pattern of destruction continues.
Demolishing my own foundation
just to furnish others.
Turning myself into shelter
for people who never intended to stay.

I attach too easily,
too quickly.
I try so hard to fix others,
forgetting I’m just as broken,
just as alone.

I get excited too easily,
too quickly.
I try so hard to hold onto others,
but they always leave.
And I’m left there,
demolished by my own bricks,
heartbroken and crumbled,
because I let it happen again.

But even in the rubble,
I ignore the caution signs
because some part of me still hopes.
She always has.
And she always will.

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#attachmentissues #abandonmentissues #teenager #heartbreak #predictable #trauma #letdown #selfsabotage

Kalliope Jul 29

Pre-Grieving

I am so patient and funny and kind
And that's what you like,
A pretty girl with silly rhymes.
I can be funny and laid-back and free-
You love it so much,
Because that's all you can see.

The moment I know your feelings are more,
I start closing up, exposed on the floor.
Really it's backwards, the way my mind acts-
The less that you know, the more we interact.

When you learn secrets and more of my lore,
I start getting nervous, I start locking doors.
What if you find something you’ll never like?
My heart starts racing, I’m braced for a fight.

I almost can't breathe at the thought of you leaving,
I did it again- and now I’m pre-grieving.
It seems fun to fall when I'm up at the peak,
But I’m close to the ground now,
With a crash on repeat.

I pull back the moment it starts feeling good,
Sabotage sweetness- now misunderstood.
I look for red flags in a forest with no debris,
Inventing ghosts no one’s ever even seen.

I scan for signs you’re starting to sway,
Even when your actions beg me to stay.
Afraid of love that might go right,
So I dim all sparks before they light.

But it's all my mind-
It's not even real.
I have to leave the thoughts behind,
Break the hypnotic seal.

You aren't my past-
We haven't even yet said hello.
You look at me with interest,
But you remind me of letting go.

Realizing it's silly to mourn a love not yet savored, I'll step out of my head a bit and do us both a favor.

#spiral #trustissues #love #loss #patterns #selfsabotage #fear

Kalliope Jul 1

40v Developed Ghost

I bleached my hair blonde chasing a version of me that no longer existed,

And was disappointed when I didn't become her.

Bold of me to crave her unhealthy mind simply because she was pretty.

#growth #reflection #selfsabotage #nostalgia

Maryann I Jun 18

Wrecking Bloom

I plant a garden with trembling hands—
then salt the soil at dawn.
I lace the sky with paper birds
then chase them off with storm songs.

I cradle peace like porcelain,
but breathe too hard,
and shatter it.

The mirror forgives me
until I touch it.
Then it cracks—
right where my face lives.

I keep building bridges
out of wax and wishbones,
then light them from both ends
just to see
if anyone notices
me
burn.

Some nights,
I set fire to every chance I prayed for,
just to prove
I don’t deserve warmth.

And still—
I water the ashes,
hope something bruised
might bloom again.

I’m learning not to push things away just because I’m scared they won’t stay.
I’m trying to grow things without pulling them up to check if they’re still there.
It takes time, but I’m trying—and that’s enough for now.

#selfsabotage #destruction #regret #bloom

Verin Samel Jun 17

Time is out

Time is out,

Tomorrow watches me - I look back,
Building a chair in anticipation of my arrival It whispers to me,
“You’ll never be ready”

I blame myself,
The silence that filled moments,
Times I should’ve listened
To the effort that was screaming to be,

A knife i stuck in my own back,
The knife I placed there
The knife that I wanted to be the reason I failed?

Did I ever want to succeed?

Did I avoid trying so I had more to blame than just not being able to cut it?

I don’t try, I don’t succeed.
What… do I expect of me?

When moments of need
Moments in which I should’ve done more,
I stood still.
Contemplating a life that I’m not fighting for-

And now it’s too late,
Time is short— what-else is left,
But to now sit in thought,
Alone with the understanding,

That I did this.
I hurt myself.
I deserve the failure that will consume me.

Was time too short,
Or did I just ignore it.

#time #effort #education #work #selfsabotage #motivation

Kalliope Jun 15

Love Me, But Don't

Breathe in cool air
Breathe out smoke
My own inconsistencies
make me ******* choke
I love to give love,
don't like to receive it
Even if it is real,
I rarely believe it
Let me hold your hand but
don't reach for mine
I'll be patient with you,
if I have the time
An ache to be seen yet
I'm shrouded in shame
I'm floating alone with
only myself to blame
In love with loving,
affection, and touch
But to believe I'm to be wanted?
That's a bit much

Being self aware was never the issue,
Changing thinking patterns is a struggle

#selfawareness #selfreflection #selfsabotage #vulnerability #thoughts #overthinking

Kalliope Jun 12

Always the Ruiner

The girl who ruins things
thought maybe she’d try fixing.
If she could stop causing destruction–
offer repairs instead–
maybe it wouldn’t hurt.

If she could rebuild broken things,
maybe she'd be met with looks of relief
instead of weary sighs.

So, the girl who ruins things
bought her tools,
watched the how-to’s,
read all the manuals.

But no one sticks around
after something breaks–
not long enough
to see if someone might fix it.

But ruining was easy,
destroy and get lost.
Fixing comes at an emotionally high cost.

What do you do when you can't find all the pieces?

#healing #growth #selfawareness #selfsabotage #effort #heartache

Grey Jun 4

Foreshadow

What’s this ache that brews in me,
A shadow cast where light should be?
No storm has stirred, no words were said,
Yet something silent bows my head.

I'm wrapped in love, a sacred bliss,
Each glance, each touch, a holy kiss.
I'm held, adored, as though divine—
Still, dread seeps in between the lines.

No cracks have formed within our skies,
No lies, no tears behind the eyes.
So why this pulse, this sinking thread—
This heartbreak haunting me ahead?

Do I paint ghosts where none exist,
Or script a fall in every kiss?
Do I, in peace, begin to roam
To ruins I create from home?

Perhaps I fear the quiet most,
The way it feels like tempting ghosts.
Perhaps it’s me—this war within—
Afraid of love I’m safe in.

#selfsabotage #overthinking #peacefeelsscary