Listening to your treasured song in hopes of your feelings. I love you it hurts i need you but i wouldn't ask that and i would never ever tell you about my feelings because i don't want you to be weighted down by my secrets. Your blue eyes dazzle me and it flusters me when I realize how much you actually care about me.

I just need to write
I just need to leak
I won't say what's on my mind
I'll have the words search and find
Since when was opening up a crime
Only in this day and time
I want to speak
My tongue is locked
My eyes open wide
To flood things out
Stupid .
In a time where no one reads
No one reads the eyes
No one reads people
No one looks enough to care
If one doesnt listen , would one look?
Oh how foolish!
Teach my words to find contentment
Teach my thoughts to rest
An  escape does not exist
Only in unseen space

Three days. I have been a secret for much longer,
but you have forgotten me for three days.
You put me in the back of your mind without a glance,
making me fear for my life.


Do I even exist outside of your memory?
Am I truly more than a thought you have to keep secret?
Could I go out into the world and
have someone notice me for more?
Do I exist without you?

Three days. I worried for three days.
My texts went unread, calls unanswered, I thought you were dead.
I didn’t do anything but worry for three days.
It was then that I learned
I was only a secret.

You can take this mess of symbols and metaphors
while I try desperately to stay atop of
the tidal waves of my fear caused by
your gravity.

I guess his words mean more to you
than mine ever will.
After all, I’m just
Your best-kept secret
and your biggest mistake

i've kept secrets
so many secrets
everyone else's
everyone else's but mine
an open book
everyone
knows
everything
im vulnerable
but i truly hope
nobody takes advantage
of me,
and my emptiness

Memory is deep
You haunt my life and dreams now
Will you let me be