not scared of the dark, or spiders, or rollercoasters but of this feeling of falling... with you. scared to let myself really go, because i know i'll blink and i'll be over my head in all that you are. but i hang onto you and you lay on me like a blanket. and so i think this works. you laugh at the stupidest things i say and i just laugh at everything. and so i think this works. you tell me you'll marry me and sometimes you say it with so much conviction that i know this works. and then i'm not scared anymore. only scared of the dark, and spiders, and rollercoasters but not of this, and not you. i'm not scared.
I think back to our first moments together. Sneaking eyes under flower crowns and balloons. Looking across crowds of people for you subconsciously, noticing you noticing me noticing you. To look back on that time tinges everything with a vintage haze, like viewing the history before something monumental. Each person holding their breath and each step bringing us closer to everything. I want to go back to the first time I asked myself "what if it's us?"; the first time I truly saw you for everything that you could grow to mean to me.
"I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day"
"I guess that's any relationship, you start with nothing and maybe end with everything"
"Do you believe in love?" Asked the girl "Yes and no," Said the coyote "Love is beautiful," Said the girl "But it is also painful," Said the coyote "But aren't beautiful things worth pain?" Asked the girl "That, my friend, is a question for the stars." Said the coyote "I love you coyote," The coyote smiled "I love you too." AJBusse